>>279839513First and foremost, these are Madokaโs true feelings:
https://wiki.puella-magi.net/See_You_Tomorrow
Read the lyrics.
This is the same thing as she said in the flower scene, in the flower scene Homura realized that those are Madokaโs true feelings and that is why she did what she did.
Now the question now becomes:
Why did Madoka sell her soul to the devil regardless of that?
Because as she herself puts it, she wants to BE someone important, she laments that there is nothing special about her and dreams that she can be a hero or something like that.
For Madoka to be a magical girl is in itself the fulfillment of her wish - to be someone who saves others.
Madokaโs โselflessnessโ is a projection of herself.
She is selfless because she wants to be someone who is selfless, because selflessness is a trait that she values and she wants to embody it.
Now - to BE something; even if that something is noble as an end is always by definition vanity.
This is why she sacrifices herself - to be someone who sacrifices herself.
This is the opposite of Homura. Homura does not care about what becomes of Her and how she is seen.
But what is Gods judgment in this:
โCharity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up, doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth; beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. Charity never failethโ
1 Corinthians 13:4-8 KJV
And the entire law is fullfilled in love your neighbor like yourself.
But Madoka is vanity.
She wants to be the one who saves.
This is finally reflected in their ultimate acts:
Madoka becomes an idol who is worshiped.
Homura is hated and denies herself, even calling herself a devil.
But who was called โdemon possessedโ and โevilโ by the world - and crucified?