>>279822602It doesn't. Saying this as a software engineer with a masters degree.
Right-wing/Christian male influencers will prey on your insecurities to earn engagement money on twitter. There's nothing wrong with self-improvement, but there's something wrong if it makes you antisocial and self-loathing.
The problem is that your hobbies are gerk related and you became frustrated by the lack of progress with them. Get additional/productive non-geek hobbies like martial arts or piano/music composition.