>>33632246
Shut your mouth.
You were still caught up in Freudian primary narcissism. Some people never grow out of it.
It sounds like you seriously have your ego tangled up with your means of sexual gratification
It sounds like this: you are finding yourself sexually aroused by men but this conflicts with your self identity and your ego. Am I wrong?
Men go through the exact same shit. Most people are straight, and some people are sensitive enough to understand the paradoixical sensory experience of being straight
