Thread 33640500

>you could've been an egineer
>you could've been a lawyer
>you could've gone to university
>you could've had lots of money

i'm so tired, i never actually tried but i know i'd failed, i did somewhat try but i never was able to put in the work constantly, always doomscorlling, always avoiding, daydreaming to escape shit spawning conditions

i'm so tired, i know it's all excuses and im aware if i would've been able to just put in the work i would've succeeded but i play with a debuff, maybe im just not made to do it

and on top of that i have the biggest God Syndrome, i think everyone else is retarded and that im better than people and that im more capable even tho i dont really have anything to show for it

it's over for me isnt it?

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>>33640500 (OP)
>it's over for me isnt it?
You sound like you're 25, bro get a job, join the military. Stop thinking you're better than others and prove your worth to society, at the very least join a volunteer organization or the peace corps to stop you from throwing more of your life away.

>>33640655
>join the military

lmao worst advice ever

>>33640500 (OP)
My parents never get tired of telling me how disappointed they are that I, with all my intelligence, never even considered college. They hate me for it.

I don't like society. Like at all. I'm pretty sure I'm a misanthrope. The majority of people surrounding me is a waste of oxygen to me.

Where there times when you were happier? After cancer + like a decade of depression I started to work on myself. Trust me, you don't want to be this guy. It was almost too late. I was a fucking mess. The head of my depression clinic told me I need at least 300 more hours of therapy, but I was pretty much done with therapy after this. And it worked.

If there are serious problems in your family (I was raised by alcoholics and my father is an asshole that hates me), speak with a therapist and listen to what they have to say about your situation. Make notes.

If you also have something like social anxiety force yourself out of the house every single day. At least for a walk. It will get easier. After a while you can walk in busier streets and get a soda can or some shit.

Afterwards ask yourself what happened in your life when you were happy or happier than that. Adjust accordingly.

My post is a bit all over the place. You can ask me anything you want.

>>33640914
i would be happier if i got the job that i wanted, which im trying to but i havent even started applying, sort of like self sabotage

dont give a fuck about my social anxiety or interacting with people, i just want to fucking get the knowledge to get the job to make money so i dont have to be in poverty and so that NO ONE has any moral leverage on me, simple as

i'm just in this cycle of gooning,doom scrolling, and wasting days and days and im not sure how to stop

>>33640935
What kind of job is it?

Get off this fucking website. I haven't been here for months and this hellhole definitely is detrimental to your mental health. This shit is so far removed from normal people it is almost comical.

Get off social media until you have that job. But generally stop doom scrolling and shit like that in general.

What are your interests?

>>33640983
>just stop

aight

well i already taken the steps to study it's just that im burnt out cause well its all meaningless so far, and it's meaningless to continue cause i didnt put in effort to even see if i can get a job

and this place gives me dopamine especially in active political days like these, the whope /happening/ is very exciting, although im slowly starting to realize it's probably pointless, but still i feel like i dont want to miss out on some /happening/

>you could've been an engineer
>you could've been a lawyer

I'd rather be poor honestly

>>33641003
I asked about your interests to nudge you in a direction away from social media. Just read a fucking book. It's better than anything on Netflix anyways. Jerking off and reading afterwards is better than lurking pol and gooning.
Read and work out. Appreciate your body and mind as long as you are healthy. Trust me. Afterwards is too late.

Pirate books that could help you studying for that job interview or upgrading your general skill set. Or go to a library if the job is not too obscure.

Btw I meant university and not college. I have a college degree. This is not my first language.

>>33640775
>lmao worst advice ever
Sure just be a useless worm who continues to do nothing then and ignore the other responses. If you are having trouble getting employment, military services is a good way to force yourself to be disciplined, gives you career opportunities later, gives you free college/University after serving. For a loser with nothing else going for them in their lives, military service is unironically probably one of the best things you can do, but let's be honest, you don't come here for /adv/ice, you came here to be a mopey loser victim.

>>33640500 (OP)
could've been born in india anon, you've got it good compared to billion+ people.

Comparison is the thief of joy.

>>33641247
i know but no matter how i think about it, it just feels impossible to detach from these addictions

>>33640500 (OP)
It’s not over for you but it does sound like you might be struggling with Narcissism. You’re gonna have to learn to be empathetic if you ever wanna have meaningful relationships with people.

>>33641282
> i have the biggest God Syndrome, i think everyone else is retarded and that im better than people and that im more capable even tho i dont really have anything to show for it

Ego is your problem, I thought I suffered with "God Syndrome" as you put it but it turns out I am legitimately smarter than 85% of people, I do have stuff to show for it though. You're probably average or below average intelligence based on this post and your replies, think about that. Now that isn't to say you can't thrive in your own ways and in your own interests in life.

You're stuck thinking what could've been instead of what can be. Honestly I see these posts all the time and I always get ragebaited by them because it's so easy to see the answer but OP is always blind to it.

Anyway, yeah it's over for you, you've wasted 20% of your life better just stop now, it's not like you've got 80% of it to go. Moron.

>>33641315
>80% of it to go

How do you know that faggot? Also i'll just never be able to accept that im average intelligence, i know im not, i see retards around me all the time about to make bad decisions, talk literal nonsense, are too stupid to understand the world around them. If i had different circumstances where i would've been allowed to get an education it would all have been different

>just get it now
i sort of am but it's not that easy to do everything yourself when you have chemical imbalances and addictions, that's why i made this post, every retard knows the answer is to just do it... the question is how do you get yourself into a state of mind that allows you to just do it without resistance?

I'm trying some semen retention and maybe some fasting, not like i can spend much money on food anyway so i'll see where that goes

>>33640500 (OP)
how old are you?
did you grow up with a father/strong father figure?

Quit giving yourself bullshit. You trying your best is good enough.

>>33641419
no

>>33641430
what do you do for a living?

>>33640500 (OP)
>you could've been an egineer
>you could've been a lawyer
>you could've gone to university
>you could've had lots of money

No, actually.
That's an illusion of your animal brain.
And if you where so intelligent, you should know it already.
Things just happen one after another, in a chain.

picrel: unlike us, really clever dude, lives in a flat and takes walks observing people.
Do something, be happy, good luck.

have you tried getting your health checked? it might be that youre missing some vitamins or w/e. i started feeling quite a bit more active after taking b12 supplements when ive had a deficiency. also exercise can help clear your head.

god complex is genuinely a consequence of spending too much time online. people are smart in different ways, so you have to be able to cooperate with other people and respect their skillsets to get anything done. also people are much nicer outside the internet, so dont get discouraged by stereotypes. just be kinder to other people, and theyll be kinder to you too :)

also for mastering skills and learning - everyone goes at their own pace. the alternative to your learning pace isnt that of some other dude that progresses faster, but a complete lack of it. just keep at it, dont give up, and youll get there!

I was a failure then went back to school at 26 and got my doctorate at 32. Brutal 6 years as some of it was an accelerated schedule but I made it through with student loans. Make 150-200k per year now depending on how much OT I do. This could be you anon. I have ADHD also and still made it happen. I did community college to get as many classes in on the cheap that I could before going to expensive uni. I also gave up vidya during the process don’t think I would have made it if I was gaming the whole time
>It’s already over for me
This is something people tell themselves oftentimes to avoid having to take any action, even though deep down they know things could be better. Easier to just say it’s over, too late, etc. it isn’t too late anon

I was an engineer, it fucking sucked and I made shit money. Now I do assembly work which also sucks but it's far less stressful, better for me physically and I'm making slightly more. If I'd stuck with engineering I'd be making a little more money by now, but it still blows. I'm working on doing some engineering/fabrication at home, it's fun to do that on your own. Also insane amounts of regulation and red tape make it really shit.