Thread 33648886

Just found out that I’ll have to be on enteral feeding for the rest of my life and I felt nothing. My mum is freaking out and breaking down and I know I should feel the same but can’t. I just felt annoyed at her. I feel bad for not feeling but I can’t feel much at all, it feels like a waste. I don’t care about anything and I hate it.

>>33648886 (OP)
Embrace the void, let the material world go

>>33648886 (OP)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uH06Njly4TQ

>>33648929
But I want to relish in it.
>>33648932
A good listen, but this isn’t a pretence. I’m not pretending to be stolid, i just feel emotionally wrung out. Exhausted from feeling. I want to feel and to express but it’s as if I’m incapable or don’t feel them as intensely.