Thread 33800933

I did it yesterday, yeah she gave me a hard time before it but she didn’t deserve that (I made a mistake and blamed her for it and ended up yelling really hard, and then we got in each others faces about it. I’ve apologised and I calmed down but I know I’m an asshole good people don’t lose it and yell it like that. What is a good punishment for myself other than making myself feel bad about it which I’m doing at the moment, I’m evil and I made myself this way, I hope I suffer in hell for all my sins and evil deeds I’ve chosen to do I truly am the narcissist God told me I was in my prayer one day. I hope I get humiliated and shamed forever for having gotten in her face and yelled and raised my voice in general while talking to her the way I did yeah she gave me a hard time before it but I know that me wanting to be an alpha means I need to not to do that God I hope you castrate me and remove my penis. I agree with those post I think I am a retarded angry beta bitch and don’t deserve pity but hatred. How did I become a narcissistic asshole toxic person? And what can I do to help myself before I do more damage to others. I’ve been depressed before I did this, and I wonder if it’s a sign of God telling me to give up? I did something horrible and have done these things in the past as well I personally think I need to be beaten up or go to jail or something I clearly am too arrogant and a an ashkke I might be an alpha but I am also evil and real men don’t do what I do and have did. Condemn me and shit on me if not no worries I want to say how bad I am and believe it but I just sound dramatic and a little bastard

>>33800933 (OP)
you could drink some bleach, or sacrafice a cat, or buy your morm a new truck
desu its totally up to you

You realize how narcissistic this post is right? You got mad at your mother and all you can think about is how bad of a person you are and how you can punish yourself. Talking about yourself negatively is still just talking about yourself. Why dont you focus on what you can do for your mother to make things right. What behavior you can correct to make her feel better rather than you feel worse.

>>33800933 (OP)
>I truly am the narcissist God told me I was in my prayer one day. I hope I get humiliated and shamed forever for having gotten in her face and yelled and raised my voice in general while talking to her the way I did yeah she gave me a hard time before it but I know that me wanting to be an alpha means I need to not to do that God I hope you castrate me and remove my penis. I agree with those post I think I am a retarded angry beta bitch and don’t deserve pity but hatred. How did I become a narcissistic asshole toxic person?

it sounds like you don't really know how to pray so i'm going to assign you 40 hakuna matata instead

>>33800984
Understood.

>>33801222
Agreed I’m just repeating my mistake even more, my focus will be to put the work in to not do that anymore, and if I get close to walk away, we both agreed that would be the best thing to do. And also to get out of the house more and not spend so much time around dad because he says things about mum around me or to me while she isn’t there negatively and about her actions or what she has hasn’t done or her character sometimes and I can’t do anything about it. And then I didn’t handle well mum getting the sbjts with me for reasons she didn’t tell me til after I got upset, emotional control is what I need and to learn to sit with my emotions and not let them out and hurt others and our bonds anymore I don’t want to scare or hurt anyone anymore even as a narcissist I need to become a human aavin even if it means losing my penis or testicles.

>>33801357
Agreed yeah thanks heh.

If only everyone knew what an evil narcissist I am, one I hope so soon

>>33801357
is that ai sloppa?

>>33803490
I wrote the part he was referring to so not ai at least that part

>>33800933 (OP)
Woaj calm down nifgfgaa all you did was yell at your mom not kill thirty innocent people you're just a whiny retard overblowing tiny trivial things not an actual threat or harm to anyone (except maybe your own chances of a fulfilling life but that's contained to you only and nobody else's problem is it)