Thread 33864493

I feel miserable daily
I don't have hobbies, I can't think of anything to put time in
If i do find something I get bored or leave
I have this thing where I honestly leave something very quickly after i join it because i feel a bit overwhelmed? And then i go back to something im comfortable with
I hate how i can't commit, i hate how i don't know what to be interested in because i'd be too old to be interested in it
i'm tired, so fucking tired
i just wish to escape man

>>33864493 (OP)
ennui is fatal if not treated correctly

>>33864496
i don't know what to do or what to be interested in
i feel like i grew out of so many things like anime and that im too old for it now
im tired of politics and other stuff because it makes me so annoyed
i feel like im too old for video games
i wish i could get into more autistic electronic stuff but i'm too retarded and i was never good at it
i don't like movies and tv bores me
youtube got boring too because its all video essays ive seen
reading is fun but, i dont live next to a library
i want to go to the gym but i hate the social aspect, i hate how people could be assholes near me
i dont know what to do, i just keep thinking the same thoughts and cant forget, everything is all the same

>>33864510
i want to learn more about plants and grow one but i hate how people could perceive me because i own it
i want to raise something from childhood but i dont have money and i hate how others would perceive me or put me in a box
i hate how like, i have no money to just buy stuff and get into more autistic plumbing diy stuff
i dont like psychology or medicine and actively avoid taking anything related because i feel weirded out
religion is dumb and i wish i could believe in it, but i was born into a different one, and i hate how politicized it is here, i wish i could just convert to Christianity without being shamed by society because of filial ties
i hate it man, i can't even get a firearms license even though im interested in it because you need an apparently good reason

>>33864493 (OP)
Bump

>>33864510
You don't need to live near a library if you want to read. If you live in the US, you can try something like Thriftbooks. If you have disposable income, order books cheaply off Amazon. If you want to read digitally instead of holding a physical book, pirate them.

>>33864914
i dont have enough money for it
>pirate them
i have done it a lot, its boring to not have it physically

>>33864510
>I want to go to the gym but I hate the social aspect
Try calisthenics anon ask people on -->/fit/ about your situation. They could help you
Are you into music?

>>33864922
I don't listen to much music, I have never tried anything, but everytime I see people into it I see drama, never heard of calisthenics, sounds cool, ty

That's why I have built my home to enjoy these things. Like a library but with all the tools to create and relax.

>>33866520
Yeah i wish i had more tools to do what i'd like..

>>33864929
Calisthenics is basically any exercise that uses your bodyweight as resistance
examples of such are pull-ups, push-ups, squats, crunches.

>>33864929
>but everytime I see people into it I see drama
must depend on the music tastes

>>33867025
and you can master hard exercises like muscle-ups, handstand push-ups, pistol squats, v crunches

>>33867025
It sounds hard, I don't know if I could do it myself
Thank you

>>33868036
It isnt hard
go on >>/fit/ and ask the people there
Trust me.

>>33871565
>>>/fit/

I've been on the same situation as you since I was 12.
I'm still trying to get out of this state, so I don't have much to do here but to wish you good luck with it, don't give up.
>>33864919
>its boring to not have it physically
Have you tried listening to audiobooks while taking a walk? It's not as good as the physical thing but better than a pdf.

>>33864493 (OP)
Find a hobby related to something you like and do it an hour a day. Don't do it to be good or better than others, do it because its a better alternative to 4chan/jacking off/vidya/tv/feeling bad. It took me 10+ years to appreciate practicing a skill and very, very,very slowly getting better at it everyday until one day you notice a big difference. I've probably dropped weight lifting 5+ times in my life and guitar 3 times. Now I've been doing both everyday for about half a year and I feel a lot better. I dropped lifting for a year because I saw no results, now that I am doing it right and stick with it I am stronger now than I have ever been and my biceps/shoulders are defined. I've given up on guitar twice, but once I was able to figure out how to make a rudimentary strumming pattern I have been sticking with it since and it is very fun. Hell I picked up the mandolin last weekend after I gave up on it 10 years ago and after a day of practice I can play some nice sounding tunes. Every hobby you have given up on will come back to you, don't feel bad get back at it and you will feel better. Even if you suck you will suck less the more you try.