Thread 33871316

I have never had a girlfriend at age 21 and I have not had friends since the age of 8. I am ugly, fat, balding, short, poor, weak, aggressive and dumb. It is all on me, really, there is no denying that. No Jews or black or women involved, just plain old me.

I just want to know how I can best live with myself. I do not want self improvement, as I do not have much of a desire in life to have a girlfriend or even a friend, or anything apart from work and sleep. I just want something that helps me know that someplace, somewhere, somebody thinks that I am useful.

Any advice on finding a way to make sure that I know that someone is appreciative of me? Imagine you are trying to make a downie feel useful. I am not a downie just a tard who spent his childhood and adolescence as a sped.

>>33871316 (OP)
>ugly, fat, weak, aggresive
exercise
>poor
get job or better job
>dumb
go to college or OpenCourseWare
>short, bald
it is over no man on earth has ever had these problems you are the first most unique person and we shall look back on your existence as an anomoly
Get over yourself.

>>33871325
Learn to read you fucking niggerfaggot. Tell me what the second and third paragraphs say, buttfuck?

Oh yeah, I flunked out of trade school for plumbing. You know, the trade that anyone can supposedly do. The daytime high two days ago was higher than my IQ... (it was 85, my IQ is 83).

>IQ does not give the whole picture
I was known for poor handwriting and reading comprehension too, plus a lack of bowel and bladder control, which I still struggle with. Seriously, nobody wants to associate with a guy who still occasionally shits himself.

I trim bushes for a living I charge $5 per customer per week. I tread water once all of the taxes are factored in.

>>33871316 (OP)
I guess I should reiterate. I do not want to self improve. I am fine with being fat, short, poor, etc. I just want a way for me to tell that I am appreciated at least by someone.

>>33871316 (OP)
>I am not an inkwell
>but I never had a gf

sorry buddy but being an incel or not being an incel is not something for you decide lol

>>33871405
It is in the mindset, really. I do not blame women for my shortcomings like an incel. I have learned to just live with them...

How do I know if someone is appreciative of me for the work that I do?

>>33871316 (OP)
>I do not want self improvement
then die

>>33871894
>then die
Why? I just want to be. I want to live as I am, it just would comfort me that someone depends upon me.

>>33872425
you want a change of outcome without changing the actions that take you there
you just can't have that, it literally doesn't and never will work that way
to get change you have to apply change

>>33872489
Not really, I just want better observation skills, that is about it. I do not care about anything else aside from that. It might sound like I am giving up, but I do not really want a girlfriend or friends. I just want to know if I am pleasing the people who I do work for.

>>33872539
>I just want to know if I am pleasing the people who I do work for.
so you have a job? you could literally just ask them, see if they smile when you get there. do they say thanks to you for stuff? do you have some small talk? do you joke with each other?

>>33871316 (OP)
charity work and carer type work

>>33871316 (OP)
Get a dog. As long as you take care of them, they will love you until the very end

>>33872599
More than I could think of, thanks.
>>33872603
I might look into volunteering in addition to what I do. Any recommendations? So far, I am thinking of doing a library, hospital or food bank.
>>33872775
I would, but I am allergic to cats and dogs. I would love myself a beagle, Jack Russell or collie, though. (Thinking about rats as an alternative pet, I just like pictures of them cuddling).

>>33871316 (OP)
how did u make it through school with no friends?
>I am not an incel
lol

whats the issue of finding a girl just as ugly, fat, small tits, short, poor, weak, aggressive and dumb as you are? would you appreciate her as much as you want to be?

>>33871337
NTA. I have an IQ of 115 but I suffer from bad handwriting, reading comprehension, and horrendous mathematical skills. Infact, I dropped out in high school when I was 15 because I was depressed about struggling to keep up. Do what what you're good at, enjoy it, and stop thinking that you're "stupid" because of a test score as it only becomes a self fulfilling prophecy.

>>33878052
Stayed alone. Ate lunch alone and used to shout at people. Half of this stuff with the gf was voluntary anyway.
>>33878133
Thanks man. A full thirty plus points higher than me...