Recently turned 20 years old, and have been working at a warehouse. I have been earning $14 an hour and been living with my parents. Have been saving up for a car and to hopefully go back to university this spring. I thought about going into trade school originally since I flunked on my first year of university, but I can't see myself liking blue collar work for my entire life. I believe I did bad because of a 5 year depression I have been going through since freshman year of highschool in 2020. I grew up sheltered in a hoarder home and didn't realize all these problems until we were forced to stay at home during lockdown. Since then I began doing really poorly academically, lost all motivation I ever had, and was barely able to graduate in 2023. I haven't been myself since lockdown and I don't know what to do to come back to it.
I'm just hoping I will change soon, because otherwise I don't got any other choice. I had also thought of going to the military to see if it can help me, but I don't know. I don't even know if this plan is what I even really want to begin with.
Did anyone on /b/ go through something similar? Is there any advice I should know about? What can I do to mature and act more brave? Being a coward is probably one of my main issues, and I might be the most socially retarded person ever.

OP here, I took about 40 minutes typing the thread. I don't know if there is just something wrong with me too, I just hope it is just me not being well spoken.

>>935731654
that's sad because i didn't even read it. i doubt anyone else did either (at least not organically)

>>935731928
Oh well, thanks for the honesty.

>>935731501 (OP)
Seek actual therapy.

>>935731995
you guys have been so nice to me and so straightforward, i figured the least i can do is be honest

>>935731501 (OP)
All I can offer you is to see your situation as an opponent. Tap into your rage. Fight it and win.

>>935731501 (OP)
If you are in decent shape, which I assume you are as a young person working in a warehouse, enlist in the Coast Guard. Zero risk of overseas deployment/dying in a shithole, get to learn law enforcement skills (if you are at all interested in that as a civilian career), and get GI bill for free college. Plus preferential hiring for every government job for the rest of your life, and free (kind of shitty) VA benefits if you end up disabled. Air Force is also good if you are interested in computer/IT stuff, they will train you and then pay for college. Don't blow your enlistment bonus on a Charger. Put it in S&P 500 mutual and have a down payment for a house when you get out.

>>935731501 (OP) NIGGA

>>935732243
I tried having this mentality when I was in university, but I guess it didn't help at all.
>>935732122
Would it truly help me? Isn't it all it is just talking to someone about it?
>>935732263
I'll keep this in consideration, part of me hesitates because if I put myself in such a shit situation by doing this, I am probably gonna off myself. But realistically I feel like I have nothing to lose, other than maybe getting disapproval from my family. I know my mom is going to lose her shit, but she's probably partially the reason why I might be like this.

>>935731501 (OP)
are you Wootherlundya?