Anyone else incapable of feeling any sort of pleasure? And where the fuck do you go from here?
I haven’t been happy in years, and it’s progressively gotten worse to the point where I don’t even get small glimpses of happiness anymore. I don’t remember the last time I genuinely laughed or smiled. Or even just felt excited about something. Even cheap thrills like videos games or TV shows, I haven’t played or watched anything in literal years. I don’t get enjoyment from absolutely anything.
Tried meds, SSRIs, mood stabilizers, wellbutrin, etc nothing worked. They either didn’t do shit or made me insane. No one understands… I’m not “going through a rough time” nothing is wrong. My brain just cannot produce happy chemicals or whatever the fuck.

>Anyone else incapable of feeling any sort of pleasure?
yes. didn't read the rest lmao pwned

>>935735433 (OP)
i know what you mean

I find pleasure in being.

>>935735610
I’m sorry. It sucks.

>>935736097
Being what?

>>935735433 (OP)
Same here dude, I stopped chasing the 1v4 adrenaline rushes in games as nobody could challenge me anyway and I have struggled with finding victory and/or achieving your goals to be completely unfulfilling for many years. I believe once you have learned enough there simply isn't anything new to stimulate our animalistic minds.
>Seeker of fire, conqueror of Dark.
I, too, sought fire, once.
With fire, they say, a true king can harness the curse.
A lie. But I knew no better...
Seeker of fire, you know not the depths of Dark within you. It grows deeper still, the more flame you covet.
Flame, oh, flame...

I am going to kill myself by August if this doesn’t change

Fuck off, OP is just full of excuses for not taking control over his own destiny and this thread has no purpose at all.

*A wild plot twist appears*

> I've been in OPs position and I recognize the mindset
> 10+ wasted years later I finally found the only reasonable way of handling it

Just set some goals and get to work. Whatever you are insecure about when you date, socialize, whatever - work on it.

Life doesnt owe you shit. You get what you take. Pursue honesty.

Never be scared, be prepared for the worst.

>>935736292
Being in the present.

>>935737829
Suicide seems easier
Alllllll this fucking self improvement work and for what
Bettering my life by 5% and still having to deal with hard times and bullshit
Suicide is a permanent solution to a permanent problem of human existence it’s the only anseer

>>935738061
Present sucks
So does past and future

>>935735433 (OP)
Yeah, same boat here, hoping something changes soon

>>935740336
I love you and hope so too

Need something just anything.

Therapy isn't a magic pill and suddenly the problems are gone! It's work. Boring work. But if you don't do the work, you don't see the results. And you walk out of the office feeling like nothing got accomplished.

It did, you just weren't following instructions. It's like physical therapy. No one WANTS to do it but they have to or the body won't heal. And this does genuinely sound like major depressive disorder. The symptoms can be managed but not cured.

It's not "cool" to be an outcast. We're a social species. This country even places too much importance on being "unique". But you're not special, or most days even noteworthy to the people you meet. Your pain doesn't make you special, or unique. Or smarter, or superior. It doesn't make you cool or edgy or prophetic or godly. It just means you're in pain, everyday. And choosing to remain in it, by not taking steps to fix it. And thus, your life goes to shit because you've neglected it, and isolated yourself with your behaviors. Leaving you feeling empty, alone, and unloved. You push everyone away. Why WOULDNT you feel alone? The way you treat the world is going to define how it treats you. And half of y'all voted for Trump. So you're treating it like shit and it's returning the favor.

>>935735433 (OP)
The baseline of your dopamine bridge is messed up, this can be due to hormonal imbalances caused by the lacki certain vitamins/minerals. I have been there, stop watching porn and cooming. Get a blood test on your minerals, start taking zinc/magnesium/B-complex asap.

You WILL start getting high on life again, you will get ecstatic from bird singing, you will start having a high from just being. I promise you, you will fucking make it, brother.

Anyway here's a video of my cat:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K5jkvGbv6bo

Driving suicidal with Adam’s Song blasting on the highway kinda night.

>>935745070
Why put in work for jack shit when suicide takes very little effort and fixes everything immediately?
Not trying to be an annoying emo child. Asking a genuine question. Maybe I just don’t see the light.
Telling someone who has played a video game for 25 fucking years and hates it and telling them to try even harder and put in even more effort (when all efforts taken before have proven fruitless) to see if MAYBE they can get themselves to enjoy the game ever so slightly… When they could just… Stop playing like a sane person… I don’t get it. Therapy doesn’t work. I know what helps me I just don’t do it.
Heroin addicts know heroin is bad. Therapy doesn’t make them learn that, they know it’s bad, they do it anyway cuz fuck it.
Same with cigarettes smokers. Alcoholics. Fatties. Talking to someone about it and being told stuff that chatgpt could tell me doesn’t help.
I’m beyond help. Over a decade at this point. Not getting better don’t care

>>935735433 (OP)
I get a lot of joy from my penis enlargement regime.

>>935735433 (OP) Dubs
you need to train good behaviors conducive to happiness, and pleasure. Earn your fun, and try to engage with life to the fullest.
If you are sitting around all day, you're probably not going to be happy, unless you're me :)

>>935745600
Very sweet of you anon, thank you.
It’s just all about believing that could be true and working toward it. Thing is, I don’t. And I can’t force a belief unfortunately.
Cute cat though, thank you.

>>935747128
I can’t leave the house. Haven’t a had a friend in over 8 years. Borderline mute. Cannot make eye contact and cover my mouth when I talk. No I’m not autistic just have never been able to socialize in my life. And I don’t trust people at all
>Earn your fun
Nothing is fun, and if you mean “do something to make yourself proud and get high off of the fulfillment” doesn’t work. I quit drinking 20 shots of vodka a day for 4 years straight about 9 months ago and I don’t give a flying fuck.
I really do appreciate it though. Forgive me please

>>935746985
>when suicide takes very little effort and fixes everything immediately?
You don't want to kill yourself, you're just overwhelmed and exhausted. So your brain says "give up! its too much work!" and thinks suicide is the answer. If you wanted to do it, you'd be dead already. You haven't done it yet because ___...
>and that reason is still true now

I'm not saying "do more of the same thing and expect different results". You're saying "I'd rather die than change anything".

>>935747990
So you're a recovering alcoholic that went cold turkey 9 months ago, doesn't seem to be in AA, and you've isolated yourself from friends and family. So you can focus on this super important work of...
>checks notes
wallowing in the misery that accompanies your body acclimating to the lack of a dependent substance.

Sometimes doing a thing really is as simple as just shutting the fuck up and doing it so you don't have to worry about it anymore. It doesn't have to be some grand statement about righting the ship or fixing your life. It could be as simple as "today ill try to make eye contact with at least 3 people". But you make it complicated by impregnating everything with a hidden, darker meaning when there is none. A thing is just a thing. Even if it werent, it's beyond your control to change. All you can control is your own behavior. And not working on this means you're choosing to stay here.

>>935747990
It takes practice to socialize, or do anything else right. If you're afraid of failure, and therefore afraid of learning, banish your fear and learn to live.
Make it like a game, and flow with it. If you fail, embrace your mistake with a smile and move on.
>Nothing is fun,
Again anon, you have to give yourself reason to be happy. I take time every day to express my gratitude for the good in my life. Even if it's just food and clean water, take time every day to smile, and to proclaim your gratitude.
It seems like you're addicted to a certain way of life that demands negative feelings, thoughts and perceptions.
Depression too is an addicting high, and you seem to like to give yourself reason to be unhappy, or miserable.
You just give me that impression.Like you want to be unhappy, or dissatisfied with life.
change that.
that's the way forward, if you choose it.
Your choice. Your life.

>>935748217
Moreover-- if you wanted to die, you would've just kept drinking. The reason you stopped is what you need to focus on right now.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IUHECxS6IEU great time to remind everyone that he's in this room because he makes his family miserable with this shit, for no reason other than to aggrandize himself at their expense and mock everyone as idiots.

then he has the audacity to wonder why people don't like him. you all need to watch this. rick sanchez is not a blueprint. he's a cautionary tale.

>>935748217
I haven’t killed myself yet because I don’t want my family to have to deal with that. Silly reason, because I shouldn’t have to suffer everyday to make others happy. If it was ANYTHING else, people would say to do what makes ME happy, not others. It’s my life. And man. Solely not killing yourself because of other people is not a sustainable reason. People come and go and at the end of the day i WILL die eventually. And there’s an argument to be made it’ll actually be better to die sooner rather than later because I’d have had acquired less people in my life, therefore less grief when I die as opposed to when i’m 80 and have… well… i’m probably never having kids or grandkids but whatever.
And yes! I would absolutely rather die than change anything. I don’t have the energy to shower or even play video games or watch TV. I certainly don’t have the energy to do anything to better my life.
And even if I did? Life still sucks. Murder. Rape. Bigotry. War. Work. Fights.
It’s like telling someone who has to eat a moldy tomato to “change your perspective” or “well maybe you can improve it by _” No i just don’t wanna eat a moldy tomato.
I really appreciate you anon but I will always win every argument when it comes to this. Hence why I don’t go to therapy. Went for several months before and every session was like this.

>>935748350
>Isolated from friends
Have not had a friend in 8 years. My last friend bullied me and ended our friendship, and the only romantic relationship I’ve ever had he broke up with me, so. (faganon not femanon. add that to the list)
>isolated from family
I live with my parents and siblings.
>And not working on this means you're choosing to stay here
“working on it” takes up more energy i have left. I can’t get out of bed how the hell am I supposed to “work on it”
I’m sorry for being a prick but everything I’m saying is true life isn’t worth it.

>>935748660
Honestly you’re probably right. But my battery is empty, absolutely fried. I don’t have it in me to make effort to change.

>>935748665
I only stopped because I was vommiting every day and had horrible hangxiety. 9 months sober? Okay, I vomit less, it took a while to go down but it’s definitely less now. Hangxiety? I still wake up with extreme anxiety that lasts most of the day. I’m talking heart palpitations and shaking and unable to lay down or stay still.
Only reason I haven’t gone back to drinking is because I made the mistake of telling my parents about it and they want to hold me accountable. I still take xanax like candy and drown myself in THC daily.

Despite my attitude I love you all very much and hope you’re all okay.

>>935750000
>50000
Nice Quads Anon.
I think you can change if you are able to think and physically move, but you must find reason to change first. You must seek change, and be willing to reach for it. You're in control man, but don't be afraid to ask for help every now and then if you want it or need it.
More people may be willing and happy to help you than you'd guess. Anyways, good luck man. I hope you find a path to a better life.

>>935735433 (OP)
have you ever tried psychoactive substances? it may help

>>935752022
DMT was extremely traumatic. Yes, I tried DMT with no psychedelic experience, I’m (and the person who let me do that) is an idiot. Never doing anything else like that. The second I feel the come up I know I’ll have a panic attack like no other. Genuinely traumatizing, and it wasn’t even a “bad” trip! Just SO fucking scary.

>>935751861
Thank you I truly do appreciate it, have a beautiful night or day.

>>935751861
I don't think there's a point to feeling pleasure, it's just a way to get your dopamine flowing when the time comes - like food - and you don't need it to survive or much else.

>>935752494
What’s the point in surviving without pleasure? Just to suffer..?

Do you have any crypto or valuables I can have before you do it? I dont care if you die but if you do, can you take out some huge personal loans and buy monero or something and send it to me? You will be gone anyway so it doesn’t matter. Please

Sorry you're going through this, anon. I'm in the same boat as you. I've also tried the meds and the therapy with no luck. I wish I could give you a hug and tell you everything will be okay. Just hang in there, please. Don't let this be the end of your story.

>>935752721
You’re right. It’s time to buy a cheap shotty and blast yoself

>>935752375
You’re a bitch dawg

>>935753495
You're an asshole

>>935753543
Dmt is like a rollercoaster ride. Even if you know what you’re in for you get scared. Hopefully your friend told you that

>>935752494
maybe your measuring it wrong
the chemical part is a secondary effect
reality is primary
seek what makes you happy, but not for pleasure alone
if that makes sense
seek things for the right reasons and dont think about being happy, let it happen instead, if it happens at all
dont seek it, just live
there's a lot to be said for letting go of desires like you say
but youre still attached to emotion too
your emotions and thoughts are bothering you
they rule you
so maybe try to find some semblance of balance
stop wallowing in self pity or despair
my advice
i think you got this if you try

is this anhedonia?