>>935772160 (OP)Why do you consider yourself a "loser", and why do you judge yourself against others like this, towards a positive or a negative?
You should judge yourself against your own hopes, dreams, goals.
There will always be people better or worse than you, but that should not matter in relationship to your own journey.
Learn to be happy for what you have ion your own life. Be grateful for the good in your life even if it's only food shelter and water, and if you find yourself dissatisfied, make changes for the better.
You are in control of your own life, anon.