I feel like I want to crash out and destroy shit whenever I’m reminded that I’m lonely and don’t have a girlfriend.

I don’t know why but I feel more restless and angry recently. I feel like no one gives a shit (they don’t) and I hate myself.

I just want to… do something. I dunno what it is but I feel willed to destroy shit for some reason

>>935901691 (OP)
Friends, attention, love.... Where do they come from, and where do they go? None of that junk is enough to fulfill your heart! Destruction! Destruction is what makes life worth living! Destroy destroy destroy! Let's destroy everything!

>>935901785
I have friends and family, it doesn’t feel like it’s enough. I have people close yet they are not close to me. I love them dearly yet I cannot feel their love

>>935901691 (OP)
Go out and meet girls or do it online. I know easier said then done, but if you want one real bad put in the effort to find one.

>>935901948
I’m working on it. I hooped back on dating apps after a while where I was getting my shit back together over not taking a rejection well. I hate it so much, they’re so fucking vapid and meaningless.

I’m in a situation where I can’t even really find anyone since I go to boot camp in under a month for the army, no guy I've served with has had a faithful girlfriend when the guy was on course so I’m probably not gonna make that connection in under a month

>>935902070
We’ll have fun fucking the barracks bunnys then. At least get you some pussy

>>935901691 (OP)
it's tough, i don't think there's an easy answer... maybe go be part of some community, interact with people, do something that will give you a sense of purpose, or at least something you can feel proud about. what's your relationship with your friends? do you even talk about stuff like this? i notice that especially among dudes firendships have become so superficial nowadays

>>935902150
Do I fuck the medic girls or not? Maybe. I heard they’re all bad news and ran through though

>>935902210
I make friends very easily but it’s all surface level and superficial. I don’t talk about this shit or any of my mental illness stuff. I’m a man among men there’s no room for that shit. We all get along and I feel close to them but even then I won’t open up a out this shit

>>935902307
>I’m a man among men there’s no room for that shit.
this is the general state of mind when it comes to this stuff i suppose. i don't think all this "manly" stuff really works or even makes much sense for that matter. my gf's told me so many times how ridiculous she and women in general find it that guys can't have actual deep relatinships among themselves. maybe you find it diffucult to open up to a woman too, then? sure, don't go blabbing about mental illness on the first date, but contrary to popular belief, actual women don't really care that much for a man who's just being "a real man". not trying to preach or be a smartass, i feel your pain, just dropping my two cents hoping they might help

>>935902872
Yeah I think it’s kinda dumb too but I’ve been burnt too many times by women and men to open up like that anymore.

I homeschooled so not only dl I find it hard to open up to women but I find it hard to talk to them at all outside of a platonic setting, especially since relationships and sex were harshly discouraged in my house and I didn’t talk to my peers for years.

Thanks for your thoughts though anon. I hope I can find people that do care, I’ve met some friends in the past who have but I feel like they also lose respect for me once I open up. Thank you tho

>>935901691 (OP)
we ran you out of /v/
kys already

>>935903253
i hope you find your way bro. i really feel things do change for the better if you keep growing and don't give up. it has been that way for me, it can be that way for you too

You should shoot up a school Anon

>>935903642
I haven’t been to v in over a year, wdym schizo?

>>935903769
No, no I won’t fedboi

>>935901691 (OP)
You focus on what you cannot have due to whatever is preventing you from having it, even if it's a lack of action.

If you part with this desire by refocusing your mind, you may be able to let go or your desires.

If you focus on what you cannot have, you will bring yourself to a point of great suffering. So find reason to part with your thoughts and desires relating to this, if you are not willing to physically pursue them.

Your fortune: Good news will come to you by mail

>>935901691 (OP)
Get a punching bag anon!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HuS5NuXRb5Y
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yuxss1kBQWw

>>935904379
Ew I hate the beatles

This is more my speed
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=91GTuZWCQmY&pp=ygUFU3Vkbm8%3D