i want to kms. i just turned 18 recently and went to a local shooting range to get a membership but it takes way too long and there r other nuances to it, other public ranges only have rifles and they r locked so no way i could do sum w that. i want to leave w peace and as painless as possible so i cant hang myself or jump, it’s too much terror for me. maybe some pills+ alcohol combination that anybody knows? i tried to do so w antidepressants when i was 16 but it was wo alco and just in general it didnt work out (not at all). so if anybody knows something that i can mix w alcohol to get a lethal combo AND something that i can legally buy in pharmacy PLS do tell.

>drive to nearest city
>find tall building
>splat

Did you stop to think that mayhe you were about to find one of the coolest hobbies out there while you were at the shooting range? Before you kill yourself, try and some a little bit of fun at least and shoot a few different guns at least. Save up money to buy a gun or borrow one and shoot a competition. They're like 5Ks. You can compete for the first spot if you want, but you could also just do it for the fun of the challenge. Show the gun some respect and give yourself a challenge that only benefits you while you're at it and shoot a competition. Hobbies fix you, homo.

>>936005218
What he said
>>936003520 (OP)
Why so glum?

>>936003520 (OP)
Man, probably the best thing I ever did for myself is start taking meds. I took Cymbalta for a while and it was awful, but they moved me to some other thing and my lord, you would think that I was abducted and replaced.

I'm also older than 18 though and dealt with depression for a long while, so my best advice is:

1) No point killing yourself now when you can always do it later. I found I was always able to think "If I was dying in 2 hours, what would I want to do before I lost the chance to ever do anything again?" and figure something out to keep me alive until I went to sleep

2) Meds, again. Fixed my life

3) Find 1 thing worth living for. 1 thing that gives you any amount of joy, and just look forward to that 1 thing if you have to. For me, it was One Piece. I was fully caught up with the manga, and I was able to put it off many times by thinking "But if I just wait until next week, I can get more answers"

Ultimately it's just not worth it man. There are ways to fix it, worth trying all them before deciding to wipe the drive