>>936095714self esteem is a shit situation. Look based real take this time, the issue isn't your body. The issue is the selection criteria you have been using/the probable childhood sexual abuse you went through. Zoomergirl banging jokes aside go and take a break from the opposite sex for awhile and work on your mentality, figure out what the common features are of the men you have been interacting with then start using that as a way to weed out/filter them from relationships very early on.
Go and develop a decision tree, everything starts with I feel like I want to, then Should I, then is this good for me, then will this further my life plans. Right now you likely stop on the I feel like I want to step in decision making. Slow down on every decision and force yourself to go through the decision making tree to the end step of will this further my life goals.
/real advice end/
or keep being a self hating zoomergirl.