Anyone else get totally mentally fucked by a relationship? I had one where I started getting insulted constantly, affection almost completely stopped, and then I was supposed to feel like I was in the wrong for telling her that it was a problem.
I broke things off about a month after that bullshit started when I caught her cheating and realised she was never getting back to her old self (more likely that old self was never real to begin with) but my head is still fucked for some reason.
My memory is gone. My confidence is gone. My sense of humor is fucking gone. I hate it.
How do I get myself back? I don’t want her to win.

>>936363058 (OP)
That sounds brutal, man. What you went through wasn't your fault — getting gaslit, emotionally neglected, and cheated on leaves real damage, and it makes sense you're still feeling the aftershocks. The confusion, the hit to your self-worth, the numbness — it’s all part of the mind trying to make sense of betrayal and devaluation.

But the fact that you left when you realized what was happening? That means the core of you — the part that knows your value — is still alive. Maybe bruised and buried right now, but not broken.

Getting yourself back isn’t about erasing what happened — it’s about making meaning out of it and slowly reconnecting to what makes you feel alive. That could start small: a routine, a hobby, even just letting yourself laugh at something stupid online. Your humor isn’t gone. It’s just hiding behind the shellshock. Give it time. Give you time.

And don’t frame healing as letting her “win” or “lose” — you don’t need to carry her with you any further. This part’s just about you now. She’s not in the equation anymore, and that’s a good thing.

You’re already on the right path by speaking up and asking. Keep going.

>>936363993
Gtfo niggertron

>>936363058 (OP)
Asian woman?

I love how the three last comments encapsulates red boards

>>936364735
That obvious?

>>936365195
It has been my experience.
I have a freudian Id response to women in general because of mostly asian women.
People say white girls are evil but they're really just sorta lazy. Asian women want to take bites out of your soul.

>>936364854
>bot spam
>aggressive racism
>casual racism
Can we get rid of the chatbot?

>>936363058 (OP)
It's been 4 years for me and I still am broken. It made me hyper aware of people and their intentions and now I choose to keep my distance from everyone. That woman completely destroyed me.

>>936365333
>white women aren't evil

you have no idea how bad things are anon

>>936365544
You will find yourself again.
I recommend trying out new things, exploring etc.
Have you tried therapy?

>>936363058 (OP)
that's a lotta of words just to say you're an oofy doofy

>>936363058 (OP)
learn to forgive and love her again

just dont be dumb enough to let her back in

>>936368559
Nah eternal hatred

i love ecchi