>>936371082
I don’t really know why I used to cut myself at first, I started when I was a 6th grader I think on my arms and ankles, and then when I was older I wanted attention which cutting for attention is either like a cry or not and I would cut myself for my girlfriend for special attention too and would cry, I had a self harm addiction and I would like seethe and shake and like struggle to breathe around like sharps because I would have times I needed to cut or when well I needed to cut. I relapsed later because I cut myself when it hurts. It’s okay for people to cut for attention sometimes if it’s like a cry out vs like what some girls do it’s different. But I know what it’s like to need to hurt myself because it hurts, also when you’re so numb or have to like cut yourself to feel something honestly. Eventually at a hospital this girl showed up with neck bandages and I wasn’t afraid to use xacto blade to the arteries of my neck anymore. The only place I’m still afraid to cut is my wrist , because it hurts. The skin is so thin it hurts but I’m afraid to hurt myself that badly. I used to be so skeletal from anorexia and starving myself with drugs to lose more weight I had anemia that bad, unhealthy blood I would suffer fatal crashes often, major organ failure, I’ve broken 3 bones, I struggled with losing my hair I had inches wide bald patches on my scalp. Etc but I’d cut myself this thin and would just lie in a bed soaked in my blood all alone for years. I’m very proud of my recovery btw, anorexia kills. I’m so glad to be alive and my heart and brain survived. I would have heart failure often. But anyways I didn’t cut my thighs either because they were more sensitive and my arms were dominant. The soft clean skin lacerating open is like drooly and I would get so triggered I needed to cut all the time but only for my arms. Lately I do want to relapse and cut my thighs. I relapsed because of my bf recently
