>Be me
>32
>Have wife
>Have friends
>Have apartment
>Have a good job / career
>Have hobbies
>Have pets
>Experience little stress overall
>Don't drink
>Don't smoke
>Don't use drugs
>Sleep well
>Go to therapy
>Go to psychiatrist
>Use various combinations of antidepressants

Yet I am more depressed than I have ever been.

I am not killing myself, because that would make people close to me very sad.

But, life's only long term plan is to wait till my old parents and pets pass, and for wife to eventually leave me for someone happier, and then kill myself.

Only two hopes left - s-ketamine therapy and horse'ish dose of shrooms, both of which I am yet to experience.

I am not living for myself anymore, but for others. And it's been years like this.
How long have you been like this anon?

I will give you THE answer, up to you if you want to listen to some 4chan idiot
either take a normal dose of shrooms or smoke some weed ffs.. like dude seriously
depression is literally stupid - YES it is this real thing that will ruin your life.. but its also literally a choice and a mindset. you need something to wake you up a lil. weed is good for it. mushrooms are good for very literally rewiring the brain and doing this stuff more..
you need to learn to enjoy what life is, despite how stupid, pointless, etc anything is
like it seems like you have a very normal life and "no reason to be depressed" and thats why you will be..
and honestly the most real part. DITCH THE ANTI DEPRESSANTS
they do not help I dont care what any fool has, all they do is make depression actually real
you need your brain in a more normal state, even if still using mushrooms or weed
anti depressents put people in a bubble of nothingness - worse than depression imo
do what you want, but planing to kill yourself for like no reason is dumb

pt 2
go look at a sunset or breath in some fresh air or some shit
(also look into meditation and breathing control, learning to breath properly through your nose with correct mouth posture will help you stay more present and in control of your body"
I was depressed as a teen and Ive managed to completely defeat it, and I was the most nihilistic etc cunt you could meet
also find god. like at the end of the day we exist. and in an infinitely complex existence
if not from god then? stfu 4chan athiests
keep coping or learn to find the truth.
final point. - you have family,, friends, job, hobbies blah blah
so you got what you need, you just need to learn to appreciate what you have
like at the end of the day if someone came and put a gun to your head you'd probably snap out of the depression real quick and beg to live.. yknow?
but sitting on your own with no real negative input etc makes it easier for your brain to bullshit you.
anyway, good luck, no reason you cant beat this!

I am going to get blasted for this because 'muh jew pills' - go to your doctor and go on medication. It's the only thing that worked for me. Took me about a year yo find right medication and dose, but I now no longer feel like shit every day.

Been depressed since as long as I can remember. Worked out, eat right, went to therapy, took a bunch of supplements, and did all the bullshit anons told me to do for years - still depressed. Some people's brains are just fucked

dont listen to the guy above, I mean him no disrespect but sounds like he found a cope not a fix
medication DOES NOT SOLVE ANYTHING
go to the root or cope, at the point where someones going on medication they would be just as worth while hitting the drink

depression is dumb. it is the brain being dumb and annoying
you literally can beat.it if you want to
but if you want to let your ego control you then you wont
cause at the end of the day depression is ego
its the brain basically saying "you arent worthy of feeling good"

dont go on the "jew" pills.
if you want to take ANY substance to help then weed or shrooms
ket could maybe but its kinda a dumb drug, just numbs you imo

>>936627740 (OP)
Take your happy pills idiot

>>936628909
imagine thinking you need "pills" to be happy
this nigga needs to smoke a joint, hit some shrooms and listen to some jimi hendrix

like fr dude dont listen to any of these guys, unless someone else comes in with actual good advice

BBC feels really good and just takes all of the blues away in one stroke

>>936627740 (OP)
Relatable af. I just pass my life away with booze, meaningless days in work, vidya games and more booze, all the while I feel my family slip further away but feel powerless to stop it as I am in no way inclined to make any change. Just buy some booze and we can both rot pointlessly out of existence.
Actually no, don’t do that. Seek some help. Just because I’m a detached piece of shit doesn’t mean I should encourage it in others. I apologise and good luck.

>>936629501
like this guy right here, hes so close to getting it
he could literally just fix his life and stop choosing to be distant
but bros a typical scared man who doesnt want to "feel"

go smoke some weed, joint then a smoke is killer dude
go get fried and play vidya ffs
thats what lifes about
but dont push away your family n shit

see how this guy is negative at first and then positive.. because its easier for him to see reality when its not related to him
if he applied the same thinking to himself then he'd be all good

>>936627740 (OP)

Bump

>>936627740 (OP)
6 rounds of intravenous ketamine for 1 hour with a dose sufficient to cause hallucinations (or higher). every day or every other day.
solves most depressions for a very long period of time.

>>936627740 (OP)
Have you tried being happy instead of being depressed

>>936627740 (OP)
Show tits of your wife

>>936627740 (OP)
Happiness is for women and children. Yes you are living for others. That’s called being a man. You are depressed but yet you’re more fulfilled than most guys, you’d be even more miserable without your wife and career and all that.

You just need to do a little mid life crisis and re introduce some danger to your life or something. But yeah don’t give up, you’re already winning

>>936627740 (OP)
I kinda understand you somehow. I guess you have a "hole" in your life. Something is draining you and keeping you away from being happy. You do not understand why you are the way you are, but you can't help it. I don't have a way to fix this, but I think doing drugs is not going to help it.

The only thing I've found that works is having an adventurous spirit. Being able to grab a bunch of stuff and go to somewhere while planning where. It makes you feel able to take decisions about your life.

>>936634798
nobody should take advice from this cringey faglord