Thread 936875535

Hi anons. I have a question for you all. How do you find reasons to not kill yourself? Is it some normie shit where you just want to live, or is there a reason I can't see?

>>936875535 (OP)
Because there are doritos to get fat on, mountain dew to rot your teeth and give you diarrhea and cartoons to watch and fap to. Who the fuck wants to give that up? Retard.

>>936875535 (OP)
The world would be a better place without me. That is why I must continue to live.

>>936875535 (OP)
>The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood.
>Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.

>>936875535 (OP)
My kids, and only because of my kids.

>>936875807
Spite is a good reason to keep going. Revenge is better. Spree killers are based btw, just saying.

>>936875701
Eh. I live in Ukraine. We don't have those here. And about cartoons... I don't know. Nothing really catches my attention.
>>936875807
I wish the same had applied to me.
>>936875832
If that's the case, I'm currently standing on the roof of a 27-floor building. Take that as you will.
>>936875915
Happy for you anon, and your kids. Hope the won't commit suicide. I would've been a terrible mother, tbh...
>>936875939
I can't really be angry at anyone besides myself... It's kinda hard for me to be mad at someone.

>>936875986
I was referring to myself and the jocular reason I posted for not killing myself. To be honest, it's not your fault- this world fucked you. You were put in a situation where your live sucks, born without the boons and blessings that makes life good. I don't know man, killing yourself is extreme- the real reason I don't do it is because I'm a coward. I'm scared. Why not keep living and see what happens? Maybe it will get better, some day.

>>936875986
>Ukraine
Well, doubly so. You need to get out. Your country is occupied by a Jewish criminal who is engaged in covert ethnic cleansing. GTFO if you can, but don't kill yourself. The world needs all the white people it can get.

>>936875535 (OP)
I’m just having too much fun atm. I guess I could change my opinion if things change in the future

>>936876102
It all mostly comes down to me just... Not having a BF/GF. Like, I'm not picky. I'll take whatever I can get. But I guess, I'm not trying hard enough
>>936876166
I know. I should GTFO, but there are people that I can't leave behind.
>>936876179
Good luck anon. Keep gambling!

>>936876166
>Ukraine
>White

Slavic snow apes are not white

The hope you'll eventually see better days no matter how far they may be when you won't be plagued by these thoughts anymore. Finding specific achievable goals to strife for in the meantime helps. And the little things in life. Be it good food or vidya or whatever makes you happy even if just a little bit.

>>936875986
Being a dad is about the only thing I do right.

>>936876589
>but there are people that I can't leave behind.
Then stop talking about suicide

>>936875535 (OP)
there is lots of good shit in life
food and drinks largely
that one person who is your last thread but they are just a genuine good person in your life
existing just out of spite, knowing your very existence makes some sperg shit himself
getting off with your favorite material and watching shows
there doesn't have to be anything that special about life to give it some deeper meaning or some weird sense of happiness
it just really helps to stop giving a shit, or starting to give far less of one and just enjoying the good parts of the ride while limiting your exposure to the shit parts
it's managable and fine

>Is it some normie shit where you just want to live
it's normie shit if you give so much of a damn about what other people think of your reasons or give a shit about other peoples reasons, whichever fucking way
it's like you don't know what that word means

>>936875986
>ukrainian
nevermind actually
i am enjoying you feeling like shit and wanting to die
thanks dude you cheered me up
big fuck you from poland, cunt

I know exactly why I'm unhappy but others never even thought.. dude what if like I try really hard in school and be successful (even though that, per se, isn't all that much). Some of them are poor but sorta happy boring retards who never decided to hate the world. Others, like you, are still unhappy and don't even know why. And I think it's because you guys were so deprived of even thoughts that you never thought what I thought. So I might be crazy like, all I had to do was NOT try to be a success. But, I don't think it works like that. I think you have a certain innate drive sometimes even if nobody ever told you what to do with it. But, even then, there is still relative malaise that you get used to. When I was done with a season of sports or some other EC I couldn't help but feel empty like a very sudden boredom and I had to remember to idk make plans and hang out with friends more again bc there was a void and idk I think normies are confronted by the void a lot but have also put effort into their lives to distract themselves as consistently as they can

>>936875535 (OP)
my parents,friends and relatives
weed
anime girls

>>936875535 (OP)
>How do you find reasons to not kill yourself?
It's not reason; it's fear. And often times than not, I usually get side tracked by life

>>936875535 (OP)
What is your reason for wanting to kill yourself?

>>936875535 (OP)
Weed, programming, obsession over women :)

Trade stocks, work, “exercise” (barely)

If everything fails and you dont want to do anything, the doctors can help you. But make sure you talk to more than just one

>>936875535 (OP)
This time will not exist again; you are allocated some of it and should perhaps see that you are privileged to be part of it for as long as possible. You can die anytime, you can only live now, as far as we can prove effectively.

цiлкoм poзyмiю i piлeйчycь дo питaння чи цe нopмicнa хyйня бaжaти жити бeз пpичини. мoжeш нaпиcaти мeнi в тг, якщo хoчeш @horsesniffer

>>936875535 (OP)
Because if I killed myself 5 years back, I wouldn't experience the best years of my life that I would never imagine happening. And if those good times have happened then that means that even better times could happen

enjoy normie shit bro
you won a fuckin race
you do whatever the fuck you wanna do

>>936875535 (OP)
However bland or numb your existence is, however depressed you get, the fact is that it can all change in a moment, so you may as well live one more day every time.

When chaos is all you have, you are not bored; at least there is something to witness. Why end it if there is something to experience? Weakness answers, strength ignores.

It is always possible to find it in your own strength to state 'I can tolerate one more day' ... If you fail at this, you were weak and you did not kill yourself, you were murdered by survival of the fittest strategies in the realm of natural order.

>>936875535 (OP)
>Be me
>19 yo
>Find out that you have a heart condition that may or may not progress (hereditary).
>Depressed as fuck
>sob.wav
>Week passes
>Fuck it I will dedicate my life to research & academia
That's literally it anon. You can choose to live for yourself, for your family, frens or those that will come before you. Maybe even a combination. When it's your time to die you just die. Make the most out of it.

One thing that has helped is something I heard from a therapist's video. He said, "you may not want anything now, but you might want something down the road." I still don't think I've found "a reason" to live, but I might find that later. For now, I soldier on and suffer through work, I enjoy some hobbies and vacations here and there for a break, I save, and I'm working on school to get further in my company. I don't really feel fulfilled now, but I can still enjoy myself. It might be a little harder, but it's better than choosing to be miserable all the time. Even if I wait my entire life for a good reason, I at least improved my quality of life by trying. You have to give yourself credit and take victories when and where you can get them.