>"mom can I go to sleepaway camp?"
>"no anon ur too autistic"
>"mom can I join boy scouts?"
>"no anon ur too autistic"
>"mom can I do ANYTHING outdoorsy?"
>"only as a family anon, that way I can take care of u as long as ur sped"
>"mom can we go camping as a family?"
>"only in a cabin anon"
>"mom can we go hiking as a family?"
>"only if the trail is easy anon"
>"mom can I have my own laptop? i promise i'll only use it for educational stuff, you can literally look at my search history any time you like"
>"no anon you'll 'sneak around'"
>"mom can I go to german school with my friend from class, instead of chinese school?"
>"no anon, while we appreciate you having friends in school, you must learn chinese even though it's like 5x harder than german, since we're chinese"
>"mom can I go to korean school with my other friend from class? it's harder but cooler, and i even self-studied hangul"
>"no anon, you must learn chinese, stop wasting your time"
>"mom can I go to some taiwanese chinese school then like some of my church chuds? i wanna learn traditional chinese"
>"simplified only anon. china's rising, and we mean the mainland and not taiwan"
>"same mainland that bans my fav websites and also christianity?"
>"still worth it. oh yea we're going to china now hop in ur aunt's car"
>"mom can I try this special fujian street food?"
>"careful anon, it might have peanuts. how about we eat sushi instead, even though we spent 20 minutes lecturing you how evil japan was the other day? but try not to eat any raw fish anon"
>"alr we're back mom, can I stop going to church, it's boring, and again, china bans it"
>"we're american anon, americans go to church... even if u don't believe the faith, atl learn 'christian values'"
>"well why go to a CHINESE church mom"
>"ok fine we can try out other churches. but it must be a church"
>"mom can I try out a new gender identity?"
>"go burn in hell anon"

>>937093016 (OP)
ywnbaw

>>937093016 (OP)
I feel your pain, anon.
I come from a catholic family.
I don't even know what my sexuality is.
When I wanted to be more "feminine", if you get my drift, I got to experience the joys of homelessness.
These days, I enjoy bottling up my emotions, drinking, taking hard drugs and hoping that the next combination of whatever shit I put up my nose or pour down my throat will actually finally kill me.
Don't end up like me. Find a way out. Please, god, find a way out. If you can do anything in your life, don't end up like me.

>>937093329
I just want to fucking get out of my mom's basement and earn enough money to, you know, not live in my mom's basement

And I'm even a fucking CS major

I wish I still had my oxycodone from when I got my wisdom teeth removed years ago, actually kept them around for a bit "as an easy way out" in case college ever got too stressful, but turns out wdyk I LIKED college, so threw em away since they were like years old

Man I was fucking retarded wtf was I thinking?

>>937093494
It's not always that easy, man. I've overdosed more times than I can remember, thinking "this will be it, this will be the way out"... only to fucking wake up again. Like some cheesy-ass horror movie, or a video game, but one without a plot or any damn clue as to what the actual fuck you're meant to do.
I OD'd on oxy in feb, didn't work. Sold most of the rest to my dealer, he sold most of them on. And the real kicker? One of them killed a guy. Ain't life a bitch?
But I digress, I apologise.
I'm not big on US terminology, is a CS major, that's computer studies, right? I guess the best way forward would be to try to focus on that, and focus hard. I can't imagine it'll be easy, but there's always a call for tech guys at most companies, especially if you can get into cyber security. Seriously, I've seen places where they've been saying that you could be the worst damned employee in the whole building, but if you're the cyber security guy? You're untouchable.

>>937093963
That was true in 2021-2022 but not 2024-2025

>>>/g/105873208

>>937093494
The alternative:
You're 38.
You're still stuck living with your parents.
It's a monday, you've just been to your weekly drug/alcohol meeting. Afterwards you went straight to the off licence for a packet of fags and a bottle of rum. You shared the rum with a couple of homeless guys outside, partly because you want to, partly because there's always the chance that the male one might just wig out and straight up murder me if I don't at least give him something.
You get home. You find you're running short on recreationals, so you down a couple of valium with the rum, have a pregab, find a q of speed and decide to try and get ahold of your dealer to see if you can trade it for a .2 of crack to tide you over before your next shipment arrives.
You try to do some work to keep your mind off things, but at the back of your head, is always the nagging feeling, "what the actual fuck is wrong with me? How have I messed up my life this badly?"
You don't want to end up like this, man.

>>937094690
Damn, my bad. But even so, a computer science degree has gotta be worth something, right? I mean, I qualified in art. Art, for fucks sake. I'm a sculptor. I'm lucky if I make £1 an hour on the rare occasion that I ever get a commission, but i'm working on that.
Back to you- Are there ways you can expand on your current skill set? I'm afraid I don't know a huge amount about computing, but any job would be better than no job, right? Although I guess I don't know what the job market is like in your area either, for that matter :/
I'm sorry, /b/ro. I'm kinda trying to be supporting but I've got a terrible feeling I'm fucking it up a bit here.

>>937095150
*supportive

Wait! I know- They gave me a thing at the drug place today that might help. It's for planning shit, it might be of use?
They called it the SMART system-
S- specific
M- measurable
A- achievable
R- relevant
T- time bound

So you like, base your goals around those premises. Rather than having a vague goal, like "I want to get a job", you could think, "I'll apply for X number of jobs each week". That's specific and measurable. Make it an achievable goal; like, three jobs, or five applications or something. Make them relevant to what you want to do. Then you can set a time limit to see how well you're doing in relation to the goals you've set yourself.
Apparently it's meant to be really helpful. I haven't tried it myself yet- I only got the paperwork today- but it feels like it might be worth a try?

i really can't relate to people who complain about strict parents. i would simply not give up until i got what i wanted. most adults usually don't have the persistence and willpower of an autistic child. at most extreme cases i would damage stuff around the property with an axe until i got what i wanted.

>>937096188
It's not that my parent's are overly strict, at least not these days. But I suffer from issues other than autism that require a degree of...I dunno what you'd call it, regulation? I have to take a lot of medication. Frankly, my parents are fucking saints given the shit they've had to put up with over the years. It's not an ideal situation by any stretch of the imagination, I'm just trying to help a /b/ro out who's situation might be more salvageable than my own.

>>937096350
sorry which anon are you again? i didn't read it thread.

>>937096449
Not OP. OP is me.

>>937096449
I'm this one:
>>937093329
Catholic, autistic (if that was the only problem I'd be laughing) drug user, sculptor, medical mystery, physical wreck, etc etc.
Think it's just you, me and OP here, unless OP has left.
I'm not sure I'm very good at this whole human thing still I'm afraid. I was trying to be supportive but I think I fucked up.
Edit; couldn't tag all my posts because it thinks I'm spam.

>>937096808
don't worry i doubt you fucked up anon, people often leave threads for many reasons, and don't usually announce it. just like how i'm gonna leave in a little bit because i need to go meet somebody. don't feel bad :3 and that's a pretty sad story, sorry :c

>>937097125
Thanks /b/ro, I appreciate it. And it's cool, there's a lot of people there that are in a far worse place than me; you just gotta try keep going you know? It's just a real pain in the knackers sometimes, to say the least..!

>>937096808
>>937097125
Oh dw I was just eating lunch lol.

I'm concerned about not being able to be out and about

Like I'm still 16 or shit

>>937098012
I can dig that. I don't got my own transport, my legs give me grief these day and the buses are shit so I've ended up a bit isolated which doesn't really help matters, specially when on the odd occasion when I do go out my mum will constantly be texting like, "are you ok? Are you on your way home? Have you taken your tablets?" Etc.

And I can't exactly say, nah, I'm cool, we're smoking crack, watching youtube, discussing nuclear theory, trying to get hold of a bit of dark that isn't totally shit, so on so forth. So it's a bitch.

Although I dunno if drugs are your thing, but even so, the restrictions can be a real pain. Im my case I can kinda understand, like if I didn't take my tablets for too long a time, there's a good chance some shit might hit the fan, but I usually keep a few with me just in case.

how's the public transport where you are? Are there buses, trains, anything like that? Or even if you got a mate with wheels, sometimes that can help. Or hell, even a taxi once in a while won't break the bank too badly..

Is there anywhere nearby within walking distance, like where you could meet friends halfway? I sometimes manage to catch people halfway from where I am to where they are, that's doable even for me lol. I know it ain't ideal, but it's sometimes worth a shot to try and make the best of a bad situation, if any of that makes any kind of sense whatsoever.

>>937098372
I live in a US unwalkable suburb. My college is also in one of those, and while it's walkable in itself, it's not.

Honestly this whole situation has pretty much made me into a raging YIMBY urbanist. I miss going out to the local bodega thingy where they sell beer, iced tea, and sandwiches. I miss the overpriced boba shop blocks away. And I miss being surrounded by people my age in my situation.

>move to a suburb it's the best place to live

such a meme unless you're a mom or a kid lmao

>>937099215
That manages to somehow both blow and suck. I heard that you can't walk around places in the states so easy, but that much suck some serious arse if you don't got transport or if you got other issues. Like, damn.
I sympathise though, I just wish I knew of some kind of solution to some- hell, any of these problems. It's like, every time I think I've found something, there's just another obstacle or closed door round the corner.
Gah, sorry. I'm meant to be trying to be more upbeat here. How about the college, are you still a student there? I don't know how they run things stateside, but is there any way you could get together with other dudes and arrange some kind of day out, or lift-sharing system? I'm probably grasping at straws here tbh, but hell with it. It just seems so fucked up to leave dudes like you high and dry and then wonder why people get depressed and isolated and shit, like, fucking duh.

>>937093016 (OP)
Kill parents
That's what I did
Now I do what ever I want!
Lifesgoodjpg

>>937099960
I'm already responsible for more deaths than I'm overly comfortable with. I don't particularly wish to add to that.

>>937099506
my parents let me use one of their cars

>>937101252
That's something! :D I can't drive myself, but I can imagine it's quite liberating to be able to get out and about as and when you want to- albeit with certain restrictions it seems in your case :o
Are there ways you could build on that? Like, are there any centres of business or commerce nearby that might offer employment opportunities? If you're able to travel to them, that would be a big help I'd've thought :)

>>937101573
I had a shit retail job but I quit because I was surrounded by Chinese people there AND my off campus apartment and I fucking hated it

>>937096350
I'm not on meds

>>937105468
That's good :) I'm currently on 22 tablets a day. It's a real pain in the cheeks. It'll drop back down to about 12-ish once I finish this course of steroids though, so that's something.
>>937104644
Retail jobs can really suck arse. I've done my fair share of dead end jobs. I mean, literally- I've cleaned toilets at a truck stop for a living, and that wasn't actually too bad a job- I was pretty much left to get on with it, so it was ok for the most part. There weren't many hours though, and when they started cutting jobs...yeah. I'm trying to get back to selling my work online again. It's been a while since I've done it, but I'm hoping it might give me a boost in the right direction.
What kinda thing are you hoping to do long term, you have any general plan or goal, or just to try to escape your parents basement (if you're the OP, apologies if I'm getting muddled here)

>>937108819
Edit- if you're not the OP, is what I meant to say. I'm getting a little dozy. My meds are gonna kick in soon I think.

Am I allowed to post my own work here? I'll delete it if not. Here's one of my sculpts. It's sadly no longer available for sale, as it was cast by a russian company that I was working with before all that whole war thing broke out.

>>937109005
I'm the OP, not them.

>be me, almost 21, Asian cuck, HCOL state
>rising senior, CS major at big state school
>completely jobless, parents pay for tuition and housing because I'm not a wagie yet
>manage to find a house with a bunch of white fratboys for senior year
>was hyped to get out of the house for another year and not be a NEET
>get assigned the attic room since I was the last to join the lease
>whatever, a room is a room, has windows and a door, idgaf

>make mistake of telling Asian immigrant parents, and they have a COMPLETE FUCKING MELTDOWN
>"IT'S NOT A LEGAL BEDROOM ANON! WHAT IF THERE'S A FIRE? WHAT IF THE LANDLORD GETS SUED?"
>tell them it's like underage drinking, literally everyone does it and no one gaf
>they call me a "stupid idiot" for even agreeing to it, say they'll stop paying my rent and tuition if I don't back out
>"in American, it's important that you follow the law"

>shit gets so crazy they call a lawyer, who literally tells my mom on the phone to chill the fuck out and let me grow up
>thought I won, but they double down even harder after the call
>mom, known for being a drama queen (and was a covidian during COVID), starts literally crying about how worried she is, dad gives me the "I'm so disappointed" speech

>we argue for days, parents won't budge no matter what
>had to cave and tell the boys I couldn't move in
>found a replacement tenant last-second
>boys were cool with it, just irked af

>now it's fucking July
>all decent housing is gone
>I am now officially commuting from home for my entire senior year, my social life is dead on arrival

>>937109954
wait if ur referring to >>937104644, yeah that was me

>>937109954
Holy shitting fuck nuggets batman, and I thought my uni experience went down like a portaloo on fire o.O
At least I got to stay on campus for the first (and only) year that I was there. Everything that could go wrong did- the load didn't come through, the computer equipment didn't arrive (try running special effects technology on a laptop bought with tesco clubcard vouchers), there was no course syllabus or guide to speak of, I didn't know who the tutors were, and several of them went on leave. The work I did manage to produce, they managed to lose.
But at least I was there, I got to meet people, at least I felt like I was trying.
I didn't learn to sculpt till after I left- it was during a recession, and I saw a games workshop store in town- specifically, the prices- and thought, hell if I could get some of that money coming my way, you know? So I started out fixing broken models and worked my way up from there.

Things were going pretty well for a while- especially with the russian company on board- but now almost everything is 3d printed for a fraction of the cost and in a fraction of the time it'd take me to make. What pisses me off even more, is 3d modelling and sculpting were some of the things we were supposed to learn at uni.

Eh, but what can you do, right? I'm currently going back to basics- trying to cobble together odds and sods that I think might sell from whatever is laying around, with enough "games workshop/warhammer" parts on them that I can use their godforsaken keywords without them coming down on me with their copyright lawyers for the millionth time.

Fuck, I don't think I'd've stood a chance if I didn't get a place on campus. My uni was about 5-6 hours away by train; the only thing that kept me going was the vague degree of independence and the social life.

I don't suppose they do any kind of social groups, like hobbies or interest type things that might help?

Admittedly, I'm probably like the least qualified person on the planet to help with social issues, but by the grace of god's green arse, I'll give it a go!

>>937109260
>>937110872
>...but by the grace of god's green arse, I'll give it a go!

nice ai usage but good job on avoiding "tapestry"

>>937111233
...I'm afraid I don't quite follow the reference :/ The image is a sculpture I made several years ago that was cast on my behalf by a russian company. Only a few casts were actually made before the war with ukraine broke out; I still have the original sculpt however so I'm hoping to find another company that will be able to cast it for me.
Here's a picture I just took. This one is a cast, the black and white one was the original sculpt- that's why it was in black and white.
This one's a little worse for wear, it's been sat around gathering dust and getting tatty for the past god only knows how many years.

Serious: if I need to escape home for a night or two what to do? Sleep in the car? Is that legal?

>>937113665
I'd've thought so, but you'd want to check with your local/regional/state/area/county/country laws just to be on the safe side. You wouldn't want to get caught by some uppity plod and slapped with a skanky-ass fine and god only knows what other nasty punishment they could try to pull outta their ass.

>>937093016 (OP)
>though we spent 20 minutes lecturing you how evil japan was the other day
Based yellow, slanty-eyed Khitan parents.
Fuck the damned Nips.

>>937114523
Based yellow, slanty-eyed Nips.
Fuck my damned chink parents.

>>937093016 (OP)
>you must learn chinese
Don't know how old you are, but when you turn 18, join the military and tell them you know Chinese.

Tell them "I want to take the DLAB test and go to the Defense Language Institute in Monterey."

>>937115952
I've actually considered the military route as a last resort, but I'm an autistic retard, and apparently autistic retards are banned from the military

At least the ones with well-documented and well-accommodated 'tism are. Of which I'm one.

>>937093329
Always remember is all the fault of women and the cucked morons who gave those bitches the right to vote.

>>937093016 (OP)
Stop being an unfilial son.

>>937117291
it ain't me
it ain't me
i ain't no filial son

>>937093494
Are we that fucked as CS majors? I just changed majors to it

>>937120015
ye
>>>/g/105873208

like u could apply to 300 internships and get 3 callbacks

and fail all 3 of those interviews

some say it's jeets and shit, but i feel like that's racist

probably a combo of ai, general incompetence (some of which is caused by ai), and the degree programs getting flooded