First time posting on 4chan after years of silent watching.
18 yeah old male
I'm asking for help online after I spent the last remnants of my power, health and pride.
I have several undiagnosed physical / mental illnesses but I can still stand and walk.
My parents physically totured me over the years and still to this day
and my society has long ago normalized killing people like myself.
It's a matter of time until I die but I can't because if I died my little brother will experience the same torture.
I really wanna die but my brother loves me and I want him to have chances in life.
What to do ?
I can provide proof and more details.
(Picture attached is from the beautiful manhwa Suicide Boy. I really recommened it if you need some temporary hope since the main character who is struggling actually gets help and meets wonderful and supportive friends).

>>937309657 (OP)
post ass pic

>>937309657 (OP)
Um, call the police?

>>937309657 (OP)
I doing this behind my parents back so please pardon me if I replied late and sorry in advance.

>>937309726
I got raped for the third time in middle school
I kept it a secret but my father some how knew
He kept beating me and calling me homophobic slurs that night to the point out neighbors had to report everything to the village sheriff.
when he arrived and tried to stop my father
my father told him that I slept with a man.
the sherrif lift me up and tried to throw me of the house but my dad stopped him
the sherrif kept telling my dad that he needs to "wash his shame away (killing me)" but my dad insisted.

>>937310192
"of the house" I meant the top of the house.

>>937309714
I have some whipping scars on it. my father always whips me on my butt / thighs and never allowed me to wear shorts so people don't see the scars because he cares alot about his public image.
Actually his obsession with his public image is the main reason for all of my torment.

>>937310910
you were asked for a pic not a description

>>937310959
I'm sorry if my thread wasn't clear sir
My thread is not sexual by any means.

>>937311047
>not sexual
Are you lost? This is /b/.

>>937311109
I thought /b/ was my best option since it's the most popular + sorry for asuming your gender.

>>937311047
Asses aren't sexual, you can post yours here.

>>937311200
I'm so sorry but I can't
even if you don't view butts as sexual some other people do
and I don't want my thread to turn sexual.
I apologise once again.

>>937311345
ok but don't expect any attention here

>>937309657 (OP)

Admit yourself to a mental unit.

This will separate you and your parents and give you proper time to talk to doctors about mental health.

>>937309657 (OP)
Lulz glownigger swine lulz death to all faggots hail satan 666 glownigger swine kill yourself jewish swine lulz fuck allah 666 death to america

>>937311369
Then where should I post ?
please advice me

>>937311478

Anon, I posted >>937311391

Please talk to me. I want to genuinely help.

>>937311391
Mental units in my country aren't for helping people
people send their troubled relatives to those units so they get killed legally.
every time a "patient" dies nothing happens and police don't even start investigating.

>>937311626

I'm sorry, I didn't know you were living outside of the States. Uhm, have you tried kratom or weed? That helps me out as well.

>>937311579
Sorry for replying late
My hands are shaking and can't write properly
plaese forgive me.

>>937311659
my father will kill me if he cought me with drugs because he cares too much about his public image
and even if he wouldn't I still can't afford drugs

>>937309657 (OP)
Give me your address. I'll beat the shit out of your parents for free.

>>937309657 (OP)
where are you from?

>>937311793
Egypt.

>>937311791
Sorry I can't
I don't think doxxing myself would lead to anything but more torment.
please forgive me.

>>937311160
>/b/
>gender
None of this fucking matters. You're being assaulted Anon. Go call the police. Have some fucking balls and fight for yourself. There are people in Africa who get eaten by lions and yet still try to spear them before they go down.

>>937311817
أسف على الي بصيرلك، يمكن لازم تطلع تاخد طلب هجرة برا،، او
اشرد من بيتك

انا هون اذا بدك تحكي

this isn't the place for this, people in here are mostly perverts and retarded
if you need some support groups i recommend you try milder places like reddit
you could talk to arabanon up there also, but never vent on /b/

>>937311876
Sir your words are beautiful and I can really see that you're trying to help and I appreciate that.
but I already tried that but the local police are all friends with my dad.
he can just tell them that I'm lying and they will believe him and then he will punish me for snitching.
also I can't fight because I lack calcium and some of my bones are fractured I believe
I feel intense pain every time I try to lift wieghts for example
that's why I left gym (I tried to gain strength by lifting weights years ago but it didn't work).

>>937311867
>forgive me
Like I'm some kind of fucking judge. Pull your head out of your ass and get up. For your brother's sake, and go past where you want to be.
https://youtu.be/M8CS397vp9U

>>937312086
I really appreciate your effort but please let's keep the thread in english so we all can understand each other.
anyway I think that imigrating might be my best option
I tried to get scholarships before and my father really supports this idea but I keep getting rejected
I got accepted one time but they asked for a 16k pound english cetificate and clearly I can't afford that
even my father who never said no to something education related said he can't afford that.
I'm going to try again I guess.

>>937312302
Thank you for your motivating words. please don't get me wrong I wasn't trying to anger you by asking for forgiveness I just wanted to sound friendly.

>>937312574
Don't worry about it. I live enraged. That's just who I am.

>>937312470
yes sorry, i will keep it in english, i just wanted to make you feel not-alone

what are you going to study?
also if you want to vent i'm here to listen

>>937312594
I hope you find peace and tranquility very soon.
by the way I like that cute video you embedded
reminded me of the cat I had.

>>937312665
Don't apologise
you didn't do wrong
and me asking you to speak English was a humble request not incriminating.
anyway thank you very much
I don't feel alone any more.

Go away so you can establish yourself and live how you want. Do you have a career in mind, or something you've been studying towards?

>>937312694
Thank you, but I don't want it.
To me, peace is death, tranquility an opiate.
I would prefer, if I have to be, at war, though I'd rather be content. So if you are praying for me, pray for my contention, but you should really be focusing on your brother, namely, getting him to safety.

>>937312818
i can help you study if our fields are similar, is there any threat on ur life right now?

>>937312844
>go away
that's the only good scenario I can think of for my future.
>do you have a career in mind
I'm really good with computers and I've exelled at programming since elementary school.
I'm a computer science student right now.

>>937312885
If I one day saved my brother and myself I will do my best to save all abuse victims around the world.
I know I can't help everyone but I will die trying.

>>937312929
I study computer science.
>life threats
I get heart attacks from time to time
usually while being beaten / whipped
But I get it if I tried lifting something heavy.
I have other undiagnosed illnesses too.

>>937313063
Don't die trying. Live succeeding. A punch doesn't stop at the impact point. It goes through the target. Reach for the stars behind the moon to hit the moon. And always remember. It's easier to outsmart a charging bull than to face the horns. Go get some damn food. Also, you don't need calcium when you have shale or rock. You have a brain. Look up how to synthesise mineral tablets from rock. Catch fish. Eat protein. Cut wood. Float in water to restore some of the damage. Watch out for crocodiles. Kill crocodiles. Cook crocodiles. Eat crocodiles. Snakes. Whatever you can get your hands on.

>>937313173
i'm really sorry for what your going through, muslims are the scum of the earth

>>937313203
I'm trying to survive right now
Escaping is just a dream to me and I don't really think that I can acheive anything but I keep pushing myself because I don't want to feel regret after dying.
I'm sorry but getting strong and fighting is just beyond my dreams at the moment.
I need to survive first then escape, heal and later I will gain strength and fight.

Hey anon, I can never tell if these threads are real since /b/ is full of fantasy but I feel a sense of genuine from your story, I really do wish you can find safety. Countries like the one you said you’re from are so backwards.
Consider applying for immigration to a western country, run away, change your identity, your family seems really abusive. Is your family abusive to your brother too?
Maybe run away together, I know that’s impossible. I get it. But maybe find go someone and get in touch with the police in a different city as opposed to the local ones who know your dad? I dunno. I’m sorry if I’m not helpful, but I couldn’t just not comment

Record it. Toss parents in jail.

>>937313594
You'll be fine.
https://youtu.be/gQFRQxJZqEE

>>937313459
Facts. It’s so insane seeing people defend them and fight against “islamophobia” as if it’s not a totally justified fear.

>>937309657 (OP)
i would torture you in the ass so much

>>937313459
I get what you're trying to say
but I always read the quran
I learned that If they were muslims they wouldn't throw rocks at a rape victim.
I know that most arabs are like this but I also don't think they're muslims at this point
I don't really believe muslims exist at this point because I never seen a muslim like those in quran.

>>937313685
that would lead to more complication.

>>937313939
Get off your ass and do it. That is the solution.

>>937309657 (OP)
You think my cock would fit your boypussy?

>>937313678
they're not abusive to my brother thankfuly because he doesn't "bring them shame" like I do.
I have a hormonal imbalance (probably) that causes me to look younger / femenine
That's why I'm a shame
I'm 18 but I look 13 or 14 max.
looking young in my country is considerd feminine and looking femenine is considerd gay and gay people are considerd shamful.

>>937314426
come to the west and become my femboy cocksleeve

>>937314739
sir I'm sorry but please this is not a sex related thread.

>>937313908
you seem like a really nice person, hopefully you will be able to escape this

>>937315257
Thank you so much I appreciate your kind words.

>>937311817
Does egypt not have legal emancipation rights? You should be able to get in contact with some kind of legal representation to get you and your brother safely out of that situation.

>>937315456
Thank you for your effort.
I looked it up and apearantly those are for minors only
I'm 18 which means I'm already an adult
I can work and rent a place
but the thing is
I already tried working in the past and it wasn't easy
my father doesn't allow me to work because he wants me to focus on my studies (he wants me to get a degree and get a good paying job after college so I can support the family).
I tried working in secret but he ends up knowing and locking me in.
I'm trying to work as web designer online these days.

>>937315988
If you are legally an adult he shpuld have no right to prevent you from working.

>>937316028
unfortunately I can't do anything about it
he's way stronger than me.

>>937315988
just work at mcdonalds or any other cheap place with minimum wage, you will have to be very aware of your money spendings but it is still possible to live in a cheap motel with that.

>>937315988
want to try that pill? i got some i'm willing to share, if you really wanna go to that far i have some meds that will make you even more powerful than the rest of us.

>>937316104
Get paid weekly by Mcdonalds or other restaurant while renting the motel. When you got stable enough u can then pay normally.

>>937316264
I already get heart attacks
can't rist using steroids.
thank you for helping tho.

>>937316294
Nearest mcdonalds is 3 towns away.
it's perfect since it's too far away from my home village
but I need to rent a place in that city first to find a job so ...
thanks you for your effort I'll keep it mind.

>>937316587
Yes, you will be away from your abusive household, and you are older tha 18. They can't legally get you back with police then too. Stay safe and remember good times are coming.

>>937316635
Thank you so much for your beautiful words.

>>937309657 (OP)
OP, I'm not super familiar with the laws of Egypt, so I don't know what kind of advice I can offer on that end. But I just want to give my heartfelt wishes and hope that things get better. You're stronger than you realize and one day you'll be free and able to be the queer man you are and live a happy joyful life. I promise.

>>937318450
Thank you so very much anon
you're wishes help alot and your kindness makes me feel less alone.