>>937412346>When is it too late? When do you know it’s too late after consistently fighting?Once you are dead. Until then you can always improve on the things that you care about.
>I can’t see myself going out alone, everytime i’m outside I see couples which demoralizes me to hell.You're getting ahead of yourself anon, improve how you feel about yourself for you own sake and once you get to a good spot with that, then you can work on finding someone to share your life with.
Your goal now is working on not constantly kicking your own ass and getting more comfortable in a social setting.
I've been in a similar position to what you are in now and the first step of being less anxious in a social setting is realizing that no one uses the same amount of time and energy as you do on being hyper critical of you.
I'm willing to bet my entire life savings on the fact that no one has as low of an opinion of you as you yourself have.
Heck, it can even be endearing to people you want to befriend, if you admit that you're a bit nervous about doing so and asking them to let you know when you need to chill out about it.
Socializing is like every other skill you can acquire, it takes practice and failure is part of that package.
Just make sure that you notice the lessons contained within said failures and learn from them.
I was literally born without a blueprint for social interactions and after many years of study, practical experimentation and consistent implementation of what actually worked, I've managed to become rather proficient at socializing and forming friendships with people.
While the destination is obviously important to you, your focus needs to be on the individual steps that take you there.