Man /b I really won the genetics lottery, and I realize this more and more the older I get. 26m here btw

>>high chances of mom being super autistic
>>dad has bpd or some stupid shit like that and on top of that has the maximum of a 6th or 7th grade education
>>aunt had multiple personality disorder
>>other aunt has bpd
>>uncle has really bad speech impediment or is actually retarded
>>both of my only cousins are retarded to some degree
>>every single family member I have met has at one point or is currently addicted to something
>> every single person on my dads side has some form of criminal record (including kidnapping)
>>grandfather on my moms side is literally in jail rn for child pornography. BONUS: sex abuse up and down my family tree but I heard thats kinda common in the U.S.
>>grandmother was addicted to drugs before she died or at least was addicted shortly before or after I was born
>>every member of my family hates each other for some reason
>>i'm a 5'5" manlet, dad is a 5'8". fucking no one in my family surpasses 5'8" if im correct
>>everyone seems to have some form of depression
>>dont even get me started on the myriads of hereditary health issues these fuckers probably passed to me

i just dont understand what tf my ancestors did to royally fuck me or why they even decided to keep having children. No wealth in my family, no smarts, i think only 2 of my family members have some form of formal education--fucking nothing. I hope when I blow my brains out my ancestors feal the visceral hate I have towards them for producing absolute retards.