It's already been 4 months since my birthday. I feel like such a loser, all of my old friends are in college and I'm at home working in construction.
I don't really wish to go out with them anymore because our differences in interests and the habits we're picking up from the environments we're spending most of our time in are outpacing our similarities at this point.

I want to start doing something voluntary to get out and socialize more since I've always been the weirdo outcast my whole life. Maybe if I put myself out there instead of sorta 'falling into' social circles in work/school I'll meet some more accepting people.
I was thinking of volunteering at an animal shelter on my days off or soup kitchen. Idk I just feel lost and apathetic most of the time, and very very alone.
Two years without having sex but I'm not particularly hung up on it because I know I can fake being a sociable and likeable person long enough for a girl to get some action as I have before(regrettably). I just can't seem to sustain a long term friendship/acquaintance with anyone outside of a forced environment without feeling emotionally drained and feeling frustrated.

I would appreciate any insight or advice for someone socially stunted as myself. I'd also accept a song or a picture too. Thanks anons.

https://youtu.be/H-fetNUKqDM?si=y8K3-N3noa9oxTKt

Early 20s are hard. Honestly if you have a job and are making rent, and not a drug addict you are doing pretty good. Connecting with new people is hard, especially the last 10 years as people socialize very differently.

It’ll get better, I don’t have any real advice, just the life experience that I seen so many people go through their 20s.

Find some hobbies, maybe even save up and travel a little. Find what you like, and what makes you, “you”.

> I just can't seem to sustain a long term friendship/acquaintance with anyone outside of a forced environment without feeling emotionally drained and feeling frustrated.


Can you explain this more?

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Got no rent cause im bumming with mom since dropping out :)
It's just sorta overwhelming because I see people from social circles I could never get into in high school go into college and appear to be thriving still. They give the outward appearance of not facing any sort of hardship similar to what I feel and seem to only be affected by whatever drama they concoct.
I have no idea where I would stand in the hierarchy of my old peers but I feel like it's somewhere at the bottom and I've been groomed my whole life to feel shame for it. Definitely an internal issue that I need to get over. Thank you for your advice friend I'm going to start making steps to try and branch out.
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I just have a bad habit of trying to come off as funny with jokes told with monotone/sarcastic tones. Been doing it since I was in middle school as a semi-ironic way to try and make myself feel comfortable by saying anything at all so long as I think its funny, it's hit or miss for the other person.

Alternative is saying nothing until the other person initiates and then mimicking my grandfather's way of speaking to me by giving my unbiased middle of the road pov of whatever they're talking about or trying to bring up something I know about thats similar to what they're talking about.

I can't fully dissect it rn but these convos will go on until I'll get tired of formulating responses in my head to the point where all I want is to sit in silence because my brain becomes tired of trying to act like a human. I can handle that sort of talking for like 15 minutes until I become wholly disinterested in whatever the other person is talking about. Maybe I'm just lacking in patience, but no matter how "me" I try to set my baseline I will usually end up feeling like "not me" and frustrated with the other person for going on even though I don't put a stop to the conversation myself.

tldr im just bad at talking for too long, even in my own low effort be yourself way

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