>>937951992...It's a wish-making ritual I learned. With bay leaves.
With it, I can request an outcome, but I have no control over the journey to that destination, or whether if the outcome I requested is what I really want.
I can tell whether if a wish I ask will come true for by the way it burns, or the way it doesn't...
And when it's come true, it's never cared about what I've had in mind... it's always happened as it's needed to happen. And above all, at the end of it all, it doesn't feel so much like a wish came true, so much as the world made it happen as the world does; as I made it happen with my own two hands, or as if the world just beat me around and it just happened as a consequence...
I've wished for change in my life, and change I have found, like the world contorts to beat me where it needs to, to beat change out of me...
And it's never easy, either... whenever I have used it to make an easy way, the candle's light goes out, and the leaf remains unburned...
I made a wish for you, and the leaf burned instantly, intensely, to the point it burned my fingers where I held it.
Which is why I know it will happen, which is why I'm worried, because it burned too intensely, and it's always been the most violent to me when it burns like that... ;;
I know it will happen, something good will come of it, but I don't how it will go, and I don't know how violent it can possibly be...
Which is why I am warning you, and I am giving you a way out, and I'm begging you to think this through, because I am scared opk