What up /b/, not sure where to go or who to vent to, but in late June I was told by my wife of 8 years(21 years known) that she no longer loved me and was having a long distance relationship(the other bitch lives in texas) with another girl( she's bi I guess found that our to), and that its been going on for four months. Two as just friends and 2 as "a couple". Her reason for the loss of love is because i grew distant and seemed like I didnt care about her and that the last three years have been terrible and that I dont care about her feelings. So we go back and forth and we decide to end it she's packing and waiting for a cousin to pick her up and her stuff but then get cold feet and BEGS me to take her back and she'll end it. We'll stupid simp I am i take her back, things are weird and im still suspicious she's still talking to her and me being a ADHD BPD paranoid simp start asking her questions and she flips out and gets angry that im "up in her shit" only to back down. Later I found out she's getting a "birthday" package from her in early July. So long story as short as possible we go from "together " to broken up but she doesn't want to go back to her mothers/family which they knew everything going on and basically said "she's either gotta work shit out with you or she's coming back here with us". But my "wife" doesn't want that because her family is not letting her run off to Texas with some person she bearly knows. We'll she didnt like that. So after having suicidal thoughts and anxiety over not having anyone anymore. I have no family in the NV area, mother died 7 years ago father is god knows where and the only friends I have are either work friends or ex work friends and 1 psn friend. So yeah I basically guilt tripped her to staying with me because im a fucking mess and even though she's putting me though hell I still want her and that her love is at "5%" and gotta not make her feel alone. So guys how pathetic am i? Will add more if wanted. Pic unrelated.

>>938339591 (OP)
Marriage is a scam.
>Get over it
Just don't get married.

Um, wot?
Move on and fuck your couch.

>>938339724
Honestly, I tried to but the idea of being alone after being with her since high school (2004) and having her in my life only to one day NOT. Really terrifying and having to go through dating again. Im a average guy. I got a got an apartment, a shitty car that runs. I dont really go out if I dont have the money. So yeah just all those thoughts running through my head just sends a chill down my spine. Like I said in my post I dont have family and much friends. They hardly ever check up on me which I understand because they got kids and a life. I even tried dating apps but they always ask for a subscription or money.

>>938339836
Tried that very uncomfortable and got a rash on my dick. But thanks for the thought.

>>938339591 (OP)
Lesbian drama? Beat her ass faggot.

retarded 1/10 made me reply, would not rage again.

>>938339836
Cut your losses dude, send that bitch back to her parents. Only a matter of time before she fucks around again and she probably wont let you find out next time. Do not fear the void of loneliness, it will make you a stronger version of yourself.

>>938340178
oops meant >>938339906

>>938340178
That's the thing, I have moments where im ok with it and ready HELL I even get hyped over doing things I like to do like gunpla and upgrading my pc and shit. But then the thoughts of being alone creep in and me being 39 and having to go through dating is just terrifying.

>>938340159
did think of that, but to much of a pussy to even smash her and sorry for making you reply just a sad lonely bitch boy here.

>>938339906
Honestly getting rid of her sounds like the best way to force you to get your own shit together, with nothing else your only choice will be developing a social life again, which will start terribly and help you develop into a functional person again
Don't spend money on dating apps, girls rarely match regardless, just use them once a day, good excuse to practice talking to people

>>938340318
Dont even look at dating as something you have to go through anytime soon. Just exist and do the things you enjoy that make you feel positive about your life. Take social opportunities as they come and the rest will work itself out. Trust. End of shite chapter but perhaps the beginning of a better one.

>>938340519
is right dont give dating apps a fucking dime

>>938340519
>>938340543
I have used that to motivate me and say "fuck dating for a bit" and told her if she wants to go to her familys but she refuses and wants to stay till October to go to Texas with this person she's only known for 4ish months. Who by the way is 29 my wife being 38 and this other person bearly got her driver's license and is trying to get an apartment just so they can be "together ". And the sad part is I dont want to let go of 21 years with my wife.

>>938340519
>>938340543
And just want someone to talk to really. Work friends are nice and my only one friend hasn't reached out for almost a month or so so yeah im just sitting here doom scrolling instagram being a sad bitch boy

>>938340952
Yeah idc about her bullshit and neither should you, stop enabling her, get her to her parents, do not leave your martial home get her to leave, document the infidelity, get a lawyer, find local places doing stuff you like and move on

>>938340952
>Really terrifying and having to go through dating again. Im a average guy. I got a got an apartment, a shitty car that runs. I dont really go out if I dont have the money. So yeah just all those thoughts running through my head just sends a chill down my spine. Like I said in my post I dont have family and much friends. They hardly ever check up on me which I understand because they got kids and a life. I even tried dating apps but they always ask for a subscription or money.
Cut ties when she leaves for Texas and be glad you never had kids with this broad

>>938340952
You gotta learn how to be comfortable being alone man. It won't always be that way but its gonna be for a while and youre gonna be miserable if you dont learn how to appreciate your own company. Best you can do is hire a shrink if you need to talk that badly or put direct effort into rebuilding a social life. Reach out, what do you have to lose in that sense? As for your wife it sounds like she no longer considers herself that and is going thru some strange childish crisis that is beyond your scope of repair. Get her to leave, change the locks whatever you gotta do

>>938341196
That's the thing, I always had either friends or family around me. I have considered talking to a shrink about the shit going on now and my adhd and bpd .

>>938341194
As of right now she wants to work things out but I have suspensions that she's still talking to this person still. She says I gotta gain her trust because "i raped her" when she was giving me all the signals that she wanted it (rubbing her butt on my dick in bed, shoving my hand down her snatch etc) which was a sad moment on my half. Lasted like 1 minute at best.

>>938341428
lol humiliation ritual dog get out before you get arrested

>>938341550
Just the thought of letting go makes it hard to breath right now. Half wants to let go but the other half wants to keep fighting.

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>>938341809
Trust me I know im a idiot for even staying or playing with the idea of staying and trying to fix this sinking ship.

>>938341909
Ditch her and enjoy the things you like about yourself and interests.

also you said you had guns? I would ditch those at least for a while. Might not be best to have those in the house when emotions are a mess.

How would you ever be able to trust her going forward? You deserve better even if that better means being single.

>>938342083
Gunpla models sorry should have just said model kits.

>>938339591 (OP)
I had my ex gf walk out on me after 8yrs together. The next 3-4 months after separation will be a bitch to bear. You will keep clinging to the memories of her good side, the memories of intimate moments and overlook her flaws or how she mistreated you. These thoughts will keep coming back from time to time. It will be difficult to have no one close - family or friends - to vent to in the first couple of weeks. The good thing is that little by little you will find ways to kill time, be productive and develop your hobbies. You will meet new people as you'll be ejected out of the social comfort zone you had with your ex-wife. Every now and then you will feel like complete shit and compare new love interests to your ex. It's important to always remember and recall how your ex has mistreated you, so you shut close these thoughts immediately. Don't worry about your age, as men age like wine and become more desireable as opposed to women. Stay frosty anon.

>>938339591 (OP)
Dude just end it. The shitty time you will have in the beginning getting used to being on your own space again os no where near as bad as the time you are going to have if she stays. Once trust is gone that's it - you will always have doubts, when she's texting you will wonder who it is, you'll start snooping looking for that smoking gun....its not worth it.

Be the one to end it, be the one to leave her with the regret and insecurity and for fucks sake don't bitch out over so crocodile tears - she started this dumpster fire now let her burn with it.

As I said the beginning will be hard, first you gotta replace shit, then you gotta stop your self from social media stalking for a while as it is too easy to just "look and see how she's doing". You mentioned PSN, games are a great way to take your mind off things but don't get too absorbed - go to the gym and start bettering yourself. People will start to see your physical condition improving, then you will start to notice too - the confidence boost will also improve your mental state, the confidence boost will help you socialise more. Break it down into steps and fast forward a year you will see your life is better kicking her to curb now than it is agonising yourself trying to make it work. Couples can get through a lot, but a break of trust is a deal breaker.

Trust me bro, I've been in this exact scenario - including the gf shacking up with another girl l, only difference was mine was a gf of 7 years rather that a wife of 8. First I had suspicions, then I did the snooping and found stuff that raised more questions, eventually I dragged it out of her and she was out the door!

Life was hard for a while but after bettering myself it got so much better, now I'm a world away from where I was then physically, mentally and relationship-wise.

End it bro and focus on yourself, you're only dragging out the inevitable and doing yourself a disservice holding on.

Wishing you luck my man!

>>938339591 (OP)
Dump that bitch. Hire an attorney and get the ball rolling. Hang her out to dry or she'll do it to you.

What would horus say and why on earth are you asking 4chan and b of all places for advice. you must play emperor's children if you think this is a good idea

>>938339591 (OP)
Kek retard