Thread 940972110

My life feels so bland and out of purpose. I have no clue what to do. I never start and finish something, I have bad habits and addictions that although not destructive are really bad in the long run. I'm just... Here, stuck in this unique kind of mess that only I seem to withstand. And all I can do is waste my life away.

Can someone, somewhere, with power look after me? I'm just a man with the brain of a teenager and some self esteem issues. I promise to worship you, just take care of me. Give me food, access to internet and that's all I need.

You should attempt to complete Honour Mode, solo, while only throwing your underwear at enemies

>>940972110 (OP)
Why do you think this is your blog?

Whenever I feel bland or out of purpose I just play video games and I feel much much better.

>>940972620
Not that guy, but it's MY fucking blog. I'm just letting him use it for awhile. FAGGOT.

Same here. I'm just drunk af rn but still aware what my life has come to.

>>940972483
I never played the game.

>>940972620
It's not my blog. I mean, it looks that way, but I just need some sympathy or maybe even some empathy.

I never met someone going through what I am going through, which creates this alienation feeling towards other people.

>>940972771
The meds moderate my humour, but I hardly get distracted from my hobbies like vydia or watching tv.

>>940972919
>I just need some sympathy or maybe even some empathy
You came to the wrong place, and I assure millions of people have gone through what you're going through. You are not special.

I want this too, but good luck... you wont get this if you are a dude..

girls can. we cant.. life is 024unfair

>>940973007
>life is unfair for men!
>we only make more money, have more respect, can walk alone at night without the fear of being raped/assaulted, hold 90% of the positions of power in the world!
>tfw no gf tho qq

>>940972977
>You are not special.

I know, but it doesn't feel that way. My mind is strange, it doesn't interpret information correctly.

>>940973007
Yeah, I feel ya

>>940973180
>it doesn't interpret information correctly
Give me an example

>>940973087


lol.. if I was a girl I would be SO much better off.

OF , taking adventage of dumb guys.. living the dream

>>940973369
You're assuming you'd be a hot girl.

>>940973221
>Give me an example

Like when my friend start laughing mid Convo. I think he's laughing at me or something I said to him.

And don't get me started on the other stuff. I feel like everyone "secretly" hates me, and they're never telling the truth.

And there's only two possible realities here: either my mind is making shit up as I live, or it is right all along.

Both feels like hell.

>>940973392
does not matter. bad looking girls can still make it easy

>>940972110 (OP)
>Can someone, somewhere, with power look after me?
Really depends if you're willing to suck a cock once a day.

>>940973414
How would you know?

>>940973570
>once a day.

Just once?

>>940973413
Just sounds like you might be autistic and/or suffer from mental illness.

>>940973671
Yeah, but... It's just my mind, you see? It's how I understand and see the world. I only think about sex and think I'm worthless. I'm not afraid of people. I'm afraid of how I interpret things.

>>940973808
Where do you think autism and/or mental illness originate from?

>>940973843
From the mind, of course. But then again: it is my mind that is writing these words and talking to you right now. It is self aware and fairly smart you know? I'm functional. And being functional is all that matters, so I can't say that I'm truly sick.

>>940972110 (OP)
Why not go die for ukraine?

>>940972919
>I never met someone going through what I am going through, which creates this alienation feeling towards other people.

Bitch please, you're having the exact same feelings every 20 something has. Most people realize they gotta get off their ass and make a life for themselves.

>>940973983
I don't care about that shit bro

>>940974028
>and make a life for themselves.

I know. But I have ZERO (0) reasons to make a life worth living.

I don't know how to explain it: everyday is a chore and difficult, even with no apparent difficulty. I try to explain that, but no one seems to listen and/or care.

>>940972110 (OP)
Join the Army dipshit. Free food, internet, they tell you what to do, and you even get paid. Go now.

>>940974133
You're probably making life harder for yourself than it needs to be.

>>940974398
I'm well aware of that. But it never ends. Not until I die at least.

>not with that attitude

But how can I be someone different than who I am? How can I change my past experiences and the very structure and machinations of my mind?

We're all the same. There is only an idea of different, and that is the mind.

>>940974665
By choosing to change

>>940974735
I don't know. There is nothing for me choose. Only to understand.

Either I am enlightened and the world is catching up to me, or I am lost trying to be someone else.

>>940972110 (OP)
Have you tried playing video games? they give my life purpose

>>940974929
Stop talking in circles. No wonder you can't get your shit together.

>>940976067
>Stop talking in circles.

I can't. And I have a theory about why:

There is no beginning, middle and end.

Only beginning, middle and beginning again. Things go on forever.

I chose this.

>>940976181
You sound like a pseudointellectual child.

>>940976233
We must be like childs if we wanna learn the truth.

>>940976325
You're trying to sound smart and in the process saying nothing

>>940976351
Maybe you're right. Or not. Time will tell.

>>940976457
You're still doing it.

>>940976542
See, this is the problem:

You want a conclusion, an ending. "You're not saying anything". Nobody is ever saying anything, it all leads to nowhere. We're here because... Fuck, there's no reason. It just goes on and on... And on. And that's it.

>>940976712
People say things all the time that make sense and are understood by other people, this deepens and enriches human knowledge and mutual understanding. What you're saying?
Verbal flatulence.

>>940976775
Whatever. I don't care.

I do, actually. Kinda. But not enough to do anything about it.

>>940972919
>I never played the game.
why not it is amazing

>>940978180
>why not it is amazing

I know, I just don't have a platform it, I'm broke :(

>>940978240
>I just don't have a platform it

I just don't have a platform to play it*

>>940972110 (OP)
get the impregnate shadowheart mod.

>>940977299
cuz you know you're a dumb faggot that can't hold a normal conversation

>>940978240
pen and paper my friend you can play any campaign you want and don't even need anyone else. it would be a little sad but so are most dnd players.