Thread 941064033

accepting that im gay is killing me

being honest with myself, im 100% gay. when i was a teenager i was "dating" a guy online my age, i have a dildo, i watch gay porn, i use to make solo dildo videos (600 subs on fansly) and i find guys hot.

but i cant come to accept myself. ive been in the closest for so long that accepting myself is scary. somehow despite all of that, i can convince myself that im "straight". just wondering if any anons have had this or any advice?

>>941064033 (OP)
Do whatever makes you happy man

>>941064033 (OP)
post some videos

Maybe you need to have sex with another man?
That might finally seal the deal for you to fully come out

>>941065098
ive thought about that but i dont want to have sex with just anyone but yeah, i wouldnt be able to pretend im not anymore if ive had a real cock inside me.

>>941064916
not posting myself, im not horny posting

>>941064033 (OP)
what you think of yourself changes nothing about what you ARE. if you are gay, be gay. clearly wallowing in that fact will not change it. keep in mind that ((you)) have not changed from the man you were before this day, and carry on with your life. you surely have more pressing concerns than what type of genitals you prefer and what that means for you.

>>941065448
I feel it. I tried randomly hooking up with another guy and I couldnt do it. He was a very nice guy though. We ended up just hanging out and I let him vent about his family not accepting him, I gave him a hug then went home. I hope the best for him.

>>941065448
So you get attracted to men in real life; I am not talking about the internet. I mean, you saw some dude and thought, "I would fuck him," or something similar, you know?

>>941064033 (OP)
Accepting that you're bi, gay, trans, and a pedophile are easiest to hardest in that order.

>>941065723
a lot of the time yes. not some internet thing but imaging cuddling with him and him fucking me wildly.

>>941065721
i havent tried any more than suggesting it on grindr but they cancelled before i could lol.

>>941066064
And only male? But you are not into sex or just not into with some random

>>941066193
only men yes and i want to have sex but not with strangers. but i imagine it with strangers

>>941066064
You could try meeting up with someone off /soc/.
Its a crapshoot tho lmao.
Idk maybe try finding other guys with similar interests?

>>941066321
Yeah, of course, imagining strangers is normal. This is so okay. You are a dude who is gay and wants to have sex with someone you can trust. That's perfectly normal. You feel weird because you haven't committed, and you are scared. again That's normal. Nothing to worry about; just enjoy.

>>941066520
wouldnt want to meet anyone from 4chan ngl but i could probably find someone, just need to not screw it up to "be straight"

>>941066549
yeah i feel a little better with myself now.
im glad i made this thread, its genuinely helped me come to terms with it. probably will have these thoughts still but hopefully not and they wont actually effect me.


its half 1 for me so goodnight anons <3
thank you for the comments im sincerely grateful for yous <33

>>941066990
Take care bud

>>941064033 (OP)
I'm not a zoomer so bear with me.

I saw this zoomer show called euphoria, it was like degrassi but for zoomers and a bit more unhinged. well, one of the main characters was this white dude who had a wife and kids but he'd see trannies on the side when no one was looking. he fucked hunter schafer's character. so yeah basically his whole backstory was that he was the straight white alpha male jock or whatever, but he was secretly gay with his best friend, even though they kept up the outward appearance of being a dude bro jock. the love, if I remember correctly, was mutual but they couldn't be together because it just wasn't acceptable so they moved on with life.

anyway, this dude had the epiphany that he's a stright white alpha male and he can fuck who or whatever he wants because that's chad-like behavior and based. that really resonated with me, and since then I've sort of adopted the same mentality. I was always bi-curious but I felt weird about it because I knew I was into women, so it fent wrong, but still I couldn't shake the attraction that I felt to some specific male body types.

in the end it's just easier to admit to yourself what you are and not give a fuck about it. also keep in mind that just because you're XYZ doesn't mean you have to indulge that aspect of your person. just do what you're comfortable with and don't let anyone judge you for it, especially not on /b/ for fuck's sake.

>>941064033 (OP)
Who gives a shit, life is short do what you want.
Why lie to yourself if you want to be the biggest fucking faggot there is the be the biggest faggot there is.

Dont seek aproval from others, seek your own fulfillment

It’s okay to be gay
Some of us just get made this way