Thread 941941854

>>941941854 (OP)
No. This life wanted me. And I answered.

>>941945315
this

>>941941854 (OP)
i dont want to want

>>941941854 (OP)
no. i wish every day that i was never born

>>941941854 (OP)
There was a newgrounds game like this, it was a crudely drawn guy who was "cock shining" in his room and then you play as the sun and burn people outside. If you find it I will be happy.

The guys life doesn't look that bad. He is in a city and can simply go outside to change his position. He's so close to people enjoying outside.

>>941941854 (OP)
Yes I wanted to be a logposter

pic of tenda lung spencer spamming and harassing with 4chan banners and pol id codes, while other people live their lives.

>>941941854 (OP)
better than some dumb cunt bitching at me 24x7

>>941941854 (OP)
This >>941947233

>Nightcrawler mirror gif, since I can't find one small enough to upload

>Every day I tell myself to KYS. Carve it into my flesh, even.
>One shitty meal a day.
>Binge Alcohol when I can.
>Go out and do something? Can't hardly leave my dark hovel. I'm over paying for it, why not get my moneys worth.
>Go to the store.
>Can't make myself by a treat or things I need
>Try to avoid being alone with my own thought.
>Escapism causes more angst at my lack of having the things the escapism has.
>Imagine being rich, imagine being loved, imagine being happy
>Fuck off.
>Imagine walking on the sun. What are the chances? Realistically, what is there to imagine?

>>941941854 (OP)
No.

>>941941854 (OP)
I wanted to be a wizard.

>>941949012
>You
Thanks, me.
>Go fuck yourself.

I wanted poop

>>941941854 (OP)

I mean, what would my mere existence be if I wasn't who I am? An empty void of nothing who is somehow aware he is in nothing but also unsure what existence would be if it wasn't for my life?

I like myself and my life. Sure it has it's problems but I keep on moving. With the help of friends and therapy, I've been doing alright. And I only have this one life. God knows what's on the other side so I best make the most of it! :D

You get the life that happens to you. People lucky enough to get a good one delude themselves into thinking they chose not to be born to abusive parents or born somali or some other thing.

>>941941854 (OP)
wow he's literally me

>>941958496
holy fuck shut the fuck up

>>941959215

Nah I'm good!

>>941941854 (OP)
I often wonder that. I am 52, divorced over a year, my much younger, super attractive but avoidant gf whom I'm totally in love with but who doesn't seem to truly love me only texts with me once or twice a week if I'm luckly. I haven't seen her in person for over 5 months, yet she spends around $3k of my income each month. When I stop and think about how much I'm being used (which i try not to do too often), I almost want to kms. But I have responsibilities. I don't know what to do next. So, I attend church once or twice a week and men's Bible study and that all helps. But I don't know how to break away from this girl I love. She's probably going to leave me once she completely drains me financially. This is my life.

>>941941854 (OP)
You mean my life? No. I hate every second of it.
Or you mean picrel? I only dream about such a life.

>>941959215
based

>>941941854 (OP)
I have people who need me, for them, I keep going.

>>941941854 (OP)
>wonder if I’m wasting my life
>look out the window
>first thing I see is a vapid childless dog mom sipping an overpriced latte while some spic’s anchor baby plays baseball
>yeah, fuck that
>go back to shitposting

there is no value in human society whatsoever....the whole thing has been intentionally designed to maximize long-term frustration, anxiety, depression, and suffering, for absolutely no good reason at all. and no, contrary to what many people believe, making sure Joel Osteen has even more money than he already had, is not a valid reason to perpetuate society, and thereby, make people suffer. it's all so incredibly fucking stupid and pointless.

touching grass is gay
I’d rather stay home and goon

Your fortune: Outlook good

>>941941854 (OP)
Irl those outside will be also like the computer dude , so what’s the point “those outside also sin, also goon, and when they have the turn to be inside they do pretty much the same
>Stop comparing yourself and you are goin to be happy anon
>op is a faggot

giving up on life and living like a degenerate retard is a much more sustainable model than trying to maintain a delusional fantasy world of a "happy" life

yus

I want this life.

inbreds need to stop killing their kids by having them without owning a roof over their head

and we are left with the delemma of a homeless mother and kids

oh how it would be so much more convinient to eliminate their selfish gene pool

but we have to be politcally correct and keep them alive with tax payers money, slowing down the progress of humanity and overpopulating it with shit

the great human delemma

>>941941854 (OP)
No.
That's why I limit my time on the computer and smartphone to 1 hours after work and 2 hours on the weekend. So that I have enough time for offline hobbies.

I'm also considering getting back to just a dumb phone. Since I hardly use any apps anymore.

I have to say that I feel much better mentally.

>>941967022
stupid zoomer faggot

>>941941854 (OP)
Does it matter what I want?

>>941941854 (OP)
yes, I can't be around other people and I have too many kinks to date

No one had a choice on being born! Everything you do leads you to where you are right now. Don't like where you are at? Change directions / make different choices.

>>941962036

4chinners realising they have to spend more than a second reading

Good grief

>>941941854 (OP)
17 hours for this? /b/ really should be deleted. How did it get this bad?

Older guys, you always know how to make me smile.
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