I need some help.
How to accept two things? Time is running out and I never have a good life.
>>22802171 (OP)I'm dumbass. REALITY CHECK
>>22802171 (OP)You have to accept we are in a river of meaning flowing through a land of total darkness it is terrifying and awful but we can just keep our head above water
Glue your balls back together
Put peanut butter on them
A very real cope and also blackpill is the fact that you are usually only as happy as your baseline. Life changes, accomplishments, whatever usually you just end up as happy as when you started. People who have what you want aren't as happy as you think even in the most exciting things in life become dull once you do them enough times. Existence is about tiny moments of joy and everyday accomplishment not some grandiose sense of euphoria. If you chase the euphoria you usually end up lower than the baseline.