If you ever read/watch Higurashi, you know what this "syndrome" is about. It's fair to say that it provokes intrusive thoughts, paranoia, delusions, hallucinations (including delusions of parasitosis), and in last terms, psychosis and depersonalization of the individual

I'm afraid that something like that might be happening to me. I should check it with a psychologist, but I don't even trust the healthcare system. To put you in context, this is what has been happening to me in the last weeks or even months:
>Distrusting my fellow acquaintances
>Confront them using some degree of violence for apparently no reason
>Thinking about a way to kill them, dispose the bodies and flee from my city
>Believing that all of them are connected somehow, and are plotting something against me
>Believing that they might be even reading what I've been posting here, even if I'm anonymous and I'm giving no hints of who I am
>Believing that they might even be in touch with people they have nothing to do with, and that I know from certain websites or social networks, like Discord or Twitter/X, Steam...
>Convince myself that I don't need them, and that I'm a monster anyway so why should I care if I kill or hurt them

As you can tell, it's not nice to be this paranoid at this point in life. I don't want to hurt anybody, but I don't want them to be near or talk to me in any way. Some of them are apparently taking distance from me, and I can't blame them. But that reinforces the idea that they are plotting something, as if they were hunters praying on their victim. I need to put an end to this

>>22831851 (OP)
Actual friends or just acquaintances? How old are you?
Also since you're conscious about it being delusional right now, in what situations does it switch to yourself thinking that maybe there is actually something up with them?

>>22831862
Just college acquaintances and some folks on the Internet. I'm in mid 20's
>in what situations does it switch to yourself thinking that maybe there is actually something up with them?
Most of the time is when I'm about to sleep, or in the other hand when I'm waking up. Other times is when I'm traveling on bus, metro, or when I'm in classes or around the uni, and they appear all of a sudden in the distance. I just watch them, I don't talk to them if they don't talk to me first, at least now, before my paranoia I had no problem in approaching

What should I do, I wonder

meds

Don't do anything, if you are doing pot then stop, if you aren't then check into a psyche ward for your own safety and others, you don't want to get into "compelled action" which is what you are verging on, the fact is many suffer from this but it's essentially a form of demonic possession even if there is some sort of scientific reasoning behind it the outcome is the same, you can't let it win

>>22833831
You know what? you are probably right. I might wait until the semester ends to see if a psychiatrist could put me on medication. I swear, it's insane and I don't like it. Imagine living your days thinking in ways to kill the ones around you, why should I do that? And that leads me to think that it's worth to end things in the easy way. You know, by killing myself

I want my past self back, I want to behave as I used to. I might need also visit a shrine that I like, that could help me

>>22833941
best of luck

>>22833950
I appreciate it, fren

>>22833941
you can get yourself back but you might have to try a couple meds before it works I had one antipsychotic that would just knock it down for most of the day and then at night my insanity would come raging back so I thought my insanity was reality but it wasn't at least not a reality that could integrate with everyone else's

>>22834018
I see, I'll keep it in mind. And honestly, this could be worse. If I were like way back there, when I had actual hatred and disgust towards people in general, I believe that I wouldn't even consider the idea of restrain myself or recognize this crap. I could be worse, that's true