Has Anon ever had a terrifying nightly episode?

I will share one:

Sometimes, I wake up in the middle of the night or even it comes sooner before I enter deep rest and I get a small pulse of pain at a specific part of my brain. Then, I get a torrent of horrible thoughts and my body is set into deep shock of dread. I never panik because they tell me it is all in my head (hahaha).

I get flashing images of my own brain. Yes, I see imagery of gore and blood gushing projected to my conscious. I become very tuned to the life of my body. When I am in a powerful tethering state, I can feel the blood moving in my brain and how I moves for dear life. I cannot help but feel my life is in imminent danger, always in danger. Something bad is going to happen. Yet, nothing, but something will happen.

The worst is when I begin to see little floating particles of light. I feel so averse to any bright light. When I am moving around in the dark, I feel feral and shut down any light. I want no light because something bad will happen if there is light. I do not want light. I am angry when there is light.

That is it. Well, there is more, but they tell me it is all an episode. When this happens, my 'mother' tells me to hold tightly onto an ice cube. Sometimes, I need two ice cubes one on each hand.

Are you aware, that your brain is alive and independent? It knows you are alive. Blood is pumping. What if, one day it stops? Are you afraid of pain?

>I'm fuckin nuts
Yep

>>22849523 (OP)
Fast for 3 days. You'll stop having dream problems sometime during your fast

>>22849530
>I'm a kooky crazy ass jiggaboo spear chucking Swahili hottentot witch doctor
Yep

>>22849535
What a gigakike

>>22849535
Whats your excuse for being terminally online?
You clearly love this world, what gives?
Are you a cripple? Hideous? Or just cocksucking goblin made and bred for hell?

>>22849523 (OP)
Unrelated but i have started getting the "nightmare pinch" effect as I am going to sleep not during it

>>22849523 (OP)
what you wrote, it does sound scary
i feel similar shit
it's been getting worse lately
i've been isolated all my life except for periods of a couple years
i don't think i can handle it as i get older

i can't help but feel it's a spiritual thing
like a crippled/vulnerable spirit or something

undisciplined and impulsive actions seem to make it worse

>>22849597

'Nightmare pinch,' what does that mean exactly?

>>22849606

>i feel similar shit

Could you describe? It was absolute uncontrollable at first. It only started to happen last year. At its peak I would be up at 2 or 3 in the morning feeling drowning in sweat and dread passing back and forth. I felt so accelerated and overclocked, as if I was 10 minutes ahead of anyone in this word. I felt so helpless. The crazy part is that I felt my blood pressure and heart rate was about to busrst with blood but everyone told me I had a normal pulse and breathing.

>>22849610
>>22849619

I dunno if you are messing with me, but those word resonate. It is certainly an other wordly experience.

>>22849621
like whatever the part of a nightmare is that forces you to wake up in terror

>>22849621
>I dunno if you are messing with me
i am not
honestly, you might be better off focusing on other things
just try to surround yourself with people you can trust and depend on, and who you feel comfortable around
i never felt anything like this when i had a stronger sense of comraderie and purpose
try to sleep at normal hours, eat well, etc
do whatever you need to do to depend on yourself and avoid being fucked with

be brave, especially when it comes to doing what you need to do & navigating the world
don't procrastinate or run from things you need to do

it could be a seizure type thing as well (or in combination), though
i would avoid medications, but if you can see a neurologist & get MRIs and other tests, that might be worth doing
as long as you feel like the doctor isn't scamming you

miku

gonna try and sleep, goodnight
i've been reading lately

The greatest irony of all this and that I am living like one of my stupid and cringe old horror and guro stories I used to write. Who would have ever thought that someone who has always loved writing delirious and unhinge shit online is finally living a real life horror.

The worst of all this and that no one ever takes me serious and I cannot trust doctors, psychiatrist, psychologist or anyone or else they will give me evil medication and document me as unstable. I was lucky to have an untrackable record back when facilities were so obsolete and shit, but now the System tracks and documents your every move. I hate this world.

>>22849625

I know this word, haha. It is called 'night terrors.'

>>22849639

>it could be a seizure type thing

I have a history of this. I freak out so much. I feel like I want to tear my eyes out. You ever have the dream where you are peel a peice of skin and keep tearing it off and more blood and blood fills your face.

There is no one that can help me.

I wanna go out taking pictures again. It would be so cool to pass out while making pictures.

This shit ass thread wasnt suppose to be about me, lol.

I really wanna read other anon experiences. I really miss and crave reading stuff like this from others.

/x/ sucks so bad. I hate it.

>>22849644
i used to listen to alot of creepypastas and similar stories
always alone
i wanted to listen to them with someone else, but i never did
hundreds of hours
the physical fear and survival instinct i often felt from that, i think it's similar to what i feel lately
you talk about stories you used to write, and this reminded me

i guess when you're with other people & have more of a place in the world, it's much easier to take those feelings less seriously.
when you have no place in the world, they can feel more all-encompassing.
it's not true, though. just try to stay grounded and remember it's a joke.
every single time, you wake up in the morning and it's the same old boring world, and you have the same opportunities to get somewhere cool.

>>22849644
>he worst of all this and that no one ever takes me serious and I cannot trust doctors, psychiatrist, psychologist or anyone or else they will give me evil medication and document me as unstable.
yeah
that's why i mention a neurologist, since they focus more on actual physical tests, rather than the softer sciences of psychology and psychiatry
mental disorders are real but seizure type shit is more of a physical problem, and you should get MRIs and other tests before anything else

good luck

>>22849523 (OP)
Where is this art from?

on a high note
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1jHA2Itfbw

>>22849621
Oh my fucking god if another person posts a photo of my room again I'm going to flip the FUCK OUT. How did you get this photo?

Bump in hopes of Anons sharing.

>>22849658

You will never know and it brings great joy to the soul.

>>22849660

No food or movies? I'm outta here!

YEAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!

>>22849681

You live a very minimalist and detached life of other worldly pleasure. You are a fairly dangerous man if you showed more resolve and ....intelligence. But,, could you like toss a couple of those yakult drinks and maybe some cookies under the floor board. i get hungry too y'know. Oh, and could you stop doing that thing you are about to do at 9:45 pm on Saturdays only, ya, you know the thing you do. Loser.

just chill dude

>>22849523 (OP)
i get this a lot, but without the brain images, mostly the flashing lights thing and seeing dots across my vision, or feeling weird in the head
i went to the ER three times because of it and every time they acted like i was making it up or something, while i thought i was having a seizure or stroke
doesnt seem to be too dangerous but it impacts my daily life
my advice is stay away from drugs entirely, because they all seem to trigger an extreme version of the symptoms regardless of what drug it is, other than alcohol or tobacco
i cant stand being up all night, but if i wake up early in the morning while its still dark its enjoyable, and i go to be in the afternoon, rather than after sunset and getting insomnia because of the darkness and fear
i wish i could put it into words, but light during the night feels fake, it feels unnatural, like its not actually lighting up anything at all, but a negative lingers in my vision from it
could be something like epilepsy where the brain gets confused by high contrast images
the changes caused by each image you view are probably miniscule and unnoticable, but when you're surrounded by them for hours because you're in the darkness looking at bright screens, it could be confusing your brain
ive also noticed that objects i touch on one side of my body, especially on the face, create a lingering sensation that feels very wrong

>>22849610
>>22849619
also agree with this, though a more logical reason could be that it has something to do with the subconscious, and thus doing things that deep down you hate is a trigger

>>22849621
>I felt so accelerated and overclocked, as if I was 10 minutes ahead of anyone in this word. I felt so helpless. The crazy part is that I felt my blood pressure and heart rate was about to busrst with blood but everyone told me I had a normal pulse and breathing.
i rarely get this but it feels fucking terrible when it happens
but i think the cause is the brain waking up while half asleep, usually i'll be deep in thought about something, suddenly gain awareness, and my vision goes haywire with my pulse through the roof, probably as the body's defence mechanism against perceived death when in actuality you're not dying you're just realizing you're asleep during the stage in which the brain is processing information from the day

>>22850745
>my ip changed
im this guy
>>22850738

isosorbide mononitrate

>>22850614
I recognize this artist and found it recently

>>22850730
>>22850745

This thread started out as a hopeful /x/ thread, but now it turned medical. This is it. This is THE post of the thread. You win sir. I keep waiting for that immenant sieizure or whatever this, unless I AM HAVING A SEIZURE. Faqenhell, man, no hay fakin tregua!!!!

I dont do nigger driking or mogoloid drugging. This is pretty recent, man. Last year it started. At least this somewhat makes my life a little more interesting, yeah? You get that hyper realisation that you are alive and the lungs are expanding and deflating, surreal.

I am just so fuckin scared taht something painful will happen inside my brain.

Damn science. Shit is scarier than knowing it is some evil spirit or shit, lmao.

>>22852128
I pray for you to have more terrible nightmares

Estuve leyendo todo y es tan terrible, pero me sentí identificado con algunas cosas, yo tengo un poco de todo y nada al mismo tiempo.
Perdón que no pueda compartir nada, pero lo único que tengo es una sensación de melancolía y vacío internos muy profundos y complejos que no puedo explicarlos ni entenderlos.