I'm 36 and I never experienced friendship or any kind of emotional intimacy. I never had a social life outside of 4chan and I never had a date with a woman. My life is over. Only painful loneliness until death.

I just turned 36 a few weeks ago and I used to have a wife, (step)kid, dog, big house, etc etc. I hated all of it and had to work very hard to get back to a position that you seem to hate. Divorce was hell.

Anyway now I'm in the same boat but I love it and have no plans on going back. Funny how experiences shape perceptions of similar situations

>doesn't leave house
>doesn't try
>waaaa the worlds against me

imagine being mentally 12 when you're 36

>>22853360 (OP)
why is everybody so fucking obsessed with relationships? like if it happens it happens and if it doesn't it doesn't. can't everyone see by now that if you're chad you get everything and if you aren't you don't? surely procreation to create more people has more reason that just more boys and girls to chase each other to make even more of themselves? that's a very questionable and stupid loop without any real answers besides "fuck you, that's just how it is.". go look for different ideals. if you wish to preserve your own genetics anyway why not focus on cloning technology?

>>22853360 (OP)
>I have never had a friendship with a women
Anon I don't think you ever have had friends to begin with
>My life is over. Only painful loneliness until death
You implied you have male friends and now you have no friends? Anon maybe instead of /bant/ you should head over to one of porn threads that were made for you

>>22853372
That is brutal. How much did the cunt steal from you in the divorce?

>>22853360 (OP)
maybe it's too late for getting to have a big financial success and/or recognition. But there's still time for getting to have a decent enough income and comfort

>>22853373
it do be like taht

>>22853417
15K. I also let her have everything except the clothes off my back.
Honestly I got off lucky after reading about some divorces where everything is lost. It only took me 1 1/2 years to rebuild from scratch.

you need to try going out more, even if youre going out lonely
my suggestion is that day by day you make some small interactions here and there with people in the streets, slowly youll eventually feel comfortable to even have a whole conversation with people! im not a professional so i think that most importantly you should get a therapist for things like that, tell them your actual feelings (if the therapist is an asshole just stop going to the sessions, dont waste your money and time) and remember that, the therapist says the things you need to hear, and sometimes you dont want to hear these things but i hope you accept that sometimes youre not always in the right (though again, the therapist isnt supposed to be rude to you, they are supposed to tell you respectfully what you did wrong)
i hope that you can live happily! even if it doesnt work out, im thankful that you tried