the fag is back to cutting again, that fresh one is getting pretty deep now. it stings/burns and keeps bleeding like this no matter how much i wash it off :)

>>22859782 (OP)
Why are you so fat?

>>22859800
every time i fuck your mum i get a cookie.
but for real its drinking, its all in my gut otherwise im a twig, just a bad photo since i have a 10 year old phone and can only use the front camera

>>22859803
twig loool
you have pork hands

>>22859804
top is a thumb, you dont have thumbs in canada?
you post a pic of your hand like that then

>>22859816
here a recent pic from Sunday (after run during heatwave)
and I probably need to lose some more fat myself

>>22859840
yeah not the same pose, im defs not as slim as you but im not fat apart from the gut

>>22859782 (OP)
make sure to patch yourself up !!!

please stop cutting yourself...

love that, cuts on my screen. this isn't twitter dude.

just don't do it, what's even the point. you'll just feel shitty about it in a year.

>>22859840
something is deeply wrong with that photo, but I don't know what it is. I can't place the problem, but I know it exists.

What do you hope to gain by posting this here?

>>22860068
I think I was close to passing out from heat stroke when I took that photo so maybe it's that

>>22860077
I think my brain is having trouble since the photo doesn't show your one finger which makes my brain read it as you only have 4 fingies which would not be natural.

>>22860074
hoping that someone else that cuts might post with me and we could talk about unhinged shit
>>22860067
i feel shitty about everything so its alright

>>22861494
but what do you hope to achieve from cutting yourself?

>>22861498
a couple things, the pain is a nice release helps you focus on just that rather than all the thoughts going though your head.
found that the deeper ones make my head light and my arms feel like cold? like when you get an IV put in. passed out once from stabbing in too deep and found that enjoyable?

>>22861531
that's how you get nerve damage, anon. I have nerve damage in one of my thighs cause I must've nicked through something important, it's not good. if you need any motivation to not go deep, let it be the fact that you're gonna lose control of your limbs if you hit something important.

and what thoughts? if it's dark stuff, see a psychiatrist, get on meds. it beats all the dark shit by a mile without leaving you shunned and covered in scars afterwards.

>>22861541
That sucks dude sorry to hear that, was using that part of my hand to avoid hitting tendons and I have nerve damage on my wrist . I think i might of done some last night as the webbing between my thumb is feeling a bit numb this morning but its probably just because its healing.

yeah im currently going through the whole process, got on zoloft and mirtazapine but idk maybe im fighting it and wanting to be in pain and angry.
just cant stop thinking about alot, things local to me, my town, my country, the world, brain likes to just pick shit to worry about and lament on.
I have no job, no friends, no family so it will only be strangers that will shun my cuts and I could not give a fuck about what they think

>>22861584
>no job, no friends, no family
how so?

>>22861584
I did it a lot in my teens. In your 30s, the scars on the wrist are hard to explain. I mostly did it in my thighs though.

Getting sober in AA and risperdal basically fixed me for going on 16 years. I did a lot of expensive DBT and I think it helped me realize learn how emotions work which I guess I never learned growing up and I acted on them too often in intense ways

>>22861601
lost my job of like 10 years a couple months ago due to going crazy and the boss being a dick. cant find anything suitable, its fine as we have social benefits here but id rather be at work then in my head 24/7

have no social life so i had 1 good online friend that i pushed away. ended up taking my frustrations out at him.

pushed my family away as i perceived them as emotional vampires, when they do an action their mindset is why doesnt anon help but if anon does that action they are like you are just being x or y if that makes sense?

>>22861605
I dont really mind about social stigmas, if anything its a good filter as i wouldnt want to hang around with emotionally deaf people.

>>22861620
yeah, I get that about the friends and family. been there before.

is it hard to find jobs where you are? even a low paying one, just to keep yourself busy, maybe make friends with coworkers. if not, volunteering and clubs also help. I have really bad adhd which means if I'm not constantly busy I basically fall into immediate depression, and I found manual jobs and volunteering gigs really helped. keeps your body busy, let's you think about the task on hand. also might let you make more friends.

>>22861629
That’s fine. But I work in a corporate world with absolute normands so I wear sleeves basically until I don’t give a fuck about the job anymore like now

>>22861632
It shouldnt be this hard, i think the old boss black listed me or something. thats probably just paranoia
I think its more hes listed as a reference so when they call him he either doesnt give them the time or doesnt give me a good review cos i had a go at him when i left.
>>22861647
yeah thats fair, iv been thinking about interviews and wearing gloves until i land a job.

>>22861658
Fresh hand cuts aren’t good but they’ll heal quick if you lay off and they’re easier to have a story about (like a bad gooning sesh gone wrong). Most people don’t give a fuck

>>22859840
Brown hand

>>22861658
eh, I get that. if not a job then I'd go for a volunteering gig maybe, anything works. anything to keep yourself busy, keep yourself meeting more people.

who cares nigga

>>22861766
How is that brown?

>>22861674
I have found that antiseptic has helped it heal up a bit I might try some oils before they turn white and that should hopefully get rid of most of it? ikd and i dont know id i care to much either.
>>22862048
yeah havent thought about that yet, ill have a look at whats around my area, thanks for the idea anon
>>22862111
yeah i dont see it either, just looks like a slight tan

>>22862134
>looks like a slight tan
most likely from regular outdoor running and otherwise enjoying my summer outdoors when I can
I am the second fittest person on this board.

>>22862154
is there anything engaging and cheap I can do outdoors that you might recommend?

>>22862161
couch to 5k
all you need is a cheap pair of running shoes and a water bottle(for when it's hot)

idk man, things like running and biking is to dull and leave me alone with my thoughts to much

>>22862154
>I am the second fittest person on this board.
whose the fittest?
also are you the guy who lost 35lbs recently?

>>22862251
only knowers know
no

>>22863386
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