I swore off something but I couldn’t resist and gave in. I also swore I would be done with this site but since I broke my other path this one will soon crumble so what does it matter; at least doing so will placate my loneliness and boredom for a bit. I can’t keep my promises to myself what will happen to me now? My mind is completely degenerated I haven’t felt whole in years; and in the eyes of any power I am not worth anything. I am 20 and I don’t have a job and didn’t go to school; have no skills or talents. All my friends are gone and in the eyes of my family I am just a bipolar monster; and if they knew the other things I did they would throw me away completely. I just wish I could fade away, it is impossible to live an authentic and joyous existence at this point.

>>22861188 (OP)
Join the merchant fleet and become an AB. My advice is the truest you will find.

>>22861188 (OP)
i'm in a similar position
>>22861206
?

>>22861214
It all went wrong when I listened to the intrusive thoughts. If not for that I could have just had a normal life.

What happened to you?

>>22861188 (OP)
let me guess it was gay porn right?

>>22861206
>Join the merchant fleet

Would you consider yourself a....happy merchant AB?

>>22861226
I am gay