Why would I need to justify myself in a world that doesn't owe me an existential floor? As in, who really is the entitled one here? If I am not entitled to anything, then your old rotting faggot ass isn't either. You destroyed my trust not just in people, institutions and society in general, but in life itself. I wish you could feel just a 6 millionth of the psychological torment that I've known, but you'd probably be in a mental asylum from the torture of knowing there is not a damned thing to cling to, not even the floor one stands on in a narcissist's world that doesn't need you nor want you. That feeling when all hope is gone, when you are too exhausted and fed up with life to even be afraid of the monster with sharp teeth that is several times stronger than you. I don't need life to make sense anymore. It just is. This ridiculous madness of a rolling stone. It isn't going anywhere, it just rolls and stops until Mr. God puts it at the top of the hill again to start the whole process again. I don't push the boulder up, I run from it unconsciously until I am inevitably crushed by it. We are not the same, you think you are going somewhere, I know for a God damned fact I am going nowhere.

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>This ridiculous madness of a rolling stone. It isn't going anywhere, it just rolls and stops until Mr. God puts it at the top of the hill again to start the whole process again. I don't push the boulder up, I run from it unconsciously until I am inevitably crushed by it. We are not the same, you think you are going somewhere, I know for a God damned fact I am going nowhere.
this is the kind of shit i be thinking
i guess i haven't been crushed enough
but also, it may be a scam
either way, you write well
i read like 4 pages of "catcher in the rye" & decided it's useless neurotic shit, your post kinda reminds me of it