>>22892975 (OP)No fren, you're wandering, gnosticism isn't right, it's a death cult. I thought the same like you, every day I longed for death just to not sin in life, but this was never the meaning. Even Judas, if instead of hanging himself he would have turned to the cross and begged forgiveness, he would have received it. Problem is for there to be life, there needs to be laws. Because our ancestor took the knowledge of good end evil before their time, we're in a big heap of shit. The animals don't sin, even that male horse who put his pp in the butt of another male horse for sexual gratification, does not sin, as they are naturally innocent. Not so for us.
Realizing this our Creator voluntarily died a horrible tortuous death, experienced like a human, in order to pay the price for our transgressions of the laws that make up the very fabric of existance. Because He loves us so much.
The more you suffer in life, the higher your reward in Heaven. The invisible saints, the nobodies who suffer through, while nobody would even bat an eye, will be the aristocrats of the new world hereafter. Your nobility will be measured in the scars on your heart.