I spent 8 years in the 90s and early 2000s working for the government at the US patent office. I was sanctioned to translate all of their scans of original patent submissions to an electronic file.

I don't even know if they still use digital images. Maybe they do. But the point is, I used to be brilliant, and quite interesting.

I wasn't even aware that I was nominated for the Nobel Peace Prize, but I won it. I turned it down at the acceptance ceremony; sending a friend instead to break the news. I had them read a derogatory speech as well.

So maybe that's where I went wrong, but I thought at a point, out of paranoia, that I knew too much. I was absolutely brilliant, in fact. But I attempted suicide in 2005, in the hopes of keeping secrets that I thought others would pry from me. Secrets about the world, through medicine and technology.

I never really fell in line with a religion, but I read my Torah for my Rabbi, and even sent him a full length audiobook that I recorded. So I am a man.

I was born in 1988.

A lot of things that have happened in the last 20 years are mimicry of my actions in my first 16 years. It is zany.

I am the victim of intellectual property theft. There also seems to be a strong lack of awareness by the greater community that growing, financially and as a viable sour e of talent, off of thievery, is probably not that likely, and that my younger brilliance is still mine to claim.

Perhaps I still have the music in me.

What's especially upsetting is that my father tossed out all of my family computers. The computers that I stored my hand penned code. I made backups at a point, to some CD-ROMS, but my dad tossed those too.

Lastly, all of our floppy discs disappeared, and I know for a fact that they were used to carry my initial authored Bitcoin script, when I invented it.

So in short, there's a huge conspiracy. It's made me feel terrible.

I know one person who I could blame, but I don't want to get yelled at by naming him.

>>22900829 (OP)
I feel you brother. But losing everything what might be what you need to show you you don't need everything to make everything.

Keep on truckin.
Unfortunately some of us are so fucking good we're needed where it sucks to save them from sliding down to alone/slime.

Try to find some good, along the way if you see some wrong stuff, do what you can to right it. Or get some good out of it, copy the good to apply elsewhere etc.

Right now we need a lot before it's good enough to live as is in.

Need a lot of improvements. Would spoil stuff for some to see what's better as getting it too much better. Though what makes it better should live as such as long as is possible. And as maintenance doesn't make a mockery of them by taking more than they give.

Life needs to be good. For the moment we need tasty vegan food. Cheap, easy to farm, easy to prepare, last long in storage, nutritional, doesn't need cooking.

Need cripples to walk, blind to see, the usual. But industry done, cheap, common without being strange. Tech is there, just not connected or implemented, not mass produced, not made attractive.

Rehabilitation then easier after excursions. Go have fun, get hurt if you weren't carefull enough, enjoying thrills, and get better. At the moment people rely on preparedness and faith. Good. But sure help in tech, might take the worry out of trying. Get good at stuff. Some people do it too hard and it isn't fair. If you think you have gifts you kind of have to keep proving it. That who you are.

>>22900829 (OP)
That sucks bro, do you have any games on your phone?

I was a bit vain.

This might be the best. What's left of the best. So we need to continue, and improve what was.

Or make what's around us, or where we go better. The best we can. And keep that safe, and try to extend it. Make heaven, god, good things persisting for all time. Eternity. Without that costing otherwise, or making it feels in pain, left out etc.

I think pay for good: get it. Make good: get it. Help good make good: get it.

We need to try for better, because what was, while maybe perfect, wasn't good enough, or was sometimes. Can't expect everything else to maintain that. Have to do your part. They all may have put everything into you for that, to be their champion. That may be what you are largely made of.

All like that maybe. Pride makes it untrue, says everything is shit, especially what isn't you.

You have been cool. We have all been awesome. Or if not will be if helped to be. And it's good to be, just has a price or a risk of coming down. More sensitive to bad after having it so good.

Some less good see good and want some of that, time is a resource as well, fuel, not using it, or wasting it is letting it down. I waste a lot of time, have been bitter. Some obvious wrong I too didn't want to empower. And I think I chose right and keeping wrong obvious, right.
But if you know what's wrong you know what's right, or better. They might not. It might be you to make right or provide it, others needing a break or tasked with issues they are expected to do as well. Maybe too hard is our thing, to overcome, get what others can't and we do. Need to come up with solutions that take everything into consideration, sometimes, and later the correct decision may be contradictory. But of a joke. Less brave later probably, but ready for a different role/takes task, less training wheels, or different ones. Maybe others need to be you and you need to save them from the shit you've been through. Get them able to do a better job or work with progress/change for more.

>>22900862
That is one long post to say absolutely nothing of value or sense

>>22900917
>More blathering about nothing
Are you a bot

>>22900879
I used to play Wild Rift, PUBG, & I own Minecraft.
>>22900917
I feel you. There's a lot of good in the world somewhere.
>>22900862
Maybe losing everything is going to just be the blip before I get it back?

Daniel keep trucking. They say the only way is up when you've hit rock bottom and I promised I would read your stories even if I think they are lies. What year did you win the nobel peace prise in?

>>22900975
That's a funny question... I can't remember, really. It was just another day before May 2005. I feel bad now that I dismissed it. It would have been nice for my grandparents to see me succeeding before their passing. I was scared of being assassinated, to be fair.

Also, while we're saying 'to be fair', it'd be nice if someone who knows of my online presence from my past would weigh in.

I was very well rounded, but quiet. And after the suicide attempt, there was a lot of blank . . You feel?

>>22900977
I can imagine going through a with a suicide attempt and then still living would be traumatic. What caused you to choose suicide? I can imagine having a lot of blanks due to brain injury must be very difficult to go through but I'm glad you found bant as an outlet! Keep posting Danny, you're an interesting guy for sure!

>>22900975
Gon, you realize that by using this website and abiding by a set of rules, I have been wary of lies, and lying in general-- lest I'd have to explain those lies. If someone has the mind to write out a tangible story from a collection of my ramblings, that would not be disliked. I don't have the capacity to really think outside of arguments of self value & worth, at the moment.

>>22900829 (OP)
binder detected

>>22900980
Danny I have crazy stories as well that I occasionally go into but I don't make a habbit of bringing them up every post. I just hope you are doing well and have bant as a creative outlet.

Out of 10 what would you rate your self value?

>>22900979
>can imagine going through a with a suicide attempt and then still living would be traumatic.
It was not something that I could recall for nearly 12 or 13 years, and I guess I haven't really correlated much about the trauma. I'm strugglin'.
>What caused you to choose suicide?
I only knew about 5 people that I talked to consistently. There was a lot of spontaneity. I mean, I don't know why but no one really stuck in my life. But I was dismissed by a man who didn't take me seriously-- a man whom I'd known for years online--- and I felt bad about that. But really, I felt worse about what I didn't tell him. The woman online that I knew as Susan, who shares my mother's name, and claimed to have invented the female Pacman, and written The Outsiders, told me, Danny, while I was on another account, that represented a guy known as Xander Xan, -- she told me that she was personally molesting me in my sleep. So I felt unclean. And tried to end my life.
>I can imagine having a lot of blanks due to brain injury must be very difficult to go through but I'm glad you found bant as an outlet!
Thanks, I don't get enough credit. Lol.
>Keep posting Danny, you're an interesting guy for sure
I try. And I'll try. Other outlets don't suit me much at the current time.

>>22900987
I can feel very low, but I've felt rather well. 7-8.

>>22900990
I'm glad you have a lot of self worth. Feeling part of the world is important especially when you've been abused and attempted suicide.

What do you do day to day for fun? I just started my Magic the Gathering arc and have been playing on and off with friends both online and irl

>>22900987
I would not mind if you took this occasion to enlighten me more about crazy ol' Gon. >>22900993
Thanks. I feel at odds with the way of the world , but I can really love me .. even under scrutiny. I don't know.

My phone was crashing every time I played the Pokémon trading card game. Magic is cool, that's great. Hope it's fun. Like sports.

Brother isn't the right word. I should have read a dictionary when I was interested in it.

Some mistakes and "mistakes" are better that way. Common sense required, treasure to be found, haha common sense the wrong term too. Common could be fucked, wrong, need to try, if it seems wrong then it may be, try to correct it, or E make an explanation so that it's beautiful, try for beauty. Glory in achieving that. Faith true, something saved.

>>22900993
What I do for fun hasn't really taken place in some time, if I'm honest. I have a cheaper phone that can't hold a lot of apps, and I sold my laptop, amp, and guitar. I get really distracted by my voices starting arguments with me, usually based in the region of my mind that corresponds with my immediate thoughts.

>>22900994
the craiest story I have is when I met moot in Basel in like 2007 or something and had no idea who he was. All my friends used 4chan but abided by the cult like rules of not talking about it and they presumed that I also knew about 4chan because of meme usage and just general knowledge about internet stuff.

There was this enter shikari concert going on and like two tiers of checkpoints, one into the courtyard of the place and one into the venue itself, where enter shikari was playing. I had brought a bunch of stuff like my tag pens and like all my school work thinking this was just a normal party. They took my tag pens thinking there might be something in them and I was like "ok, this is weird" then caught up with my friends who all had gathered around moot. I just thought my friends had found another group of cool people so joined them and started talking. Moot formally interoduced himself as "the creator of 4chan" and I was like "you mean the fortune 500, are you into stocks or something" and he immediatelly thought I was trolling. I could tell everyone of my friends were laughing at my antics and I was like "here, lets exchange numbers" when moot was like no phonenumbers, no pictures and I started to think this guy my friends had found was some kind of looser. More what seemed like trolling on my end occured and that's when my friends pointed out that my school back had been left up on one of the monuments. Moot was like "oh you have paranoid schizophrenia" and I was like "wtf no, I just don't get why my friends know you yet you're being super antisocial". He had had enough and nodded to a couple of people and pointed towards my backpack and stupidly I didn't put two and two together and they stole the backpack. It had all my books in from school and most importantly a DVD with the main research I had done for my extended essay and I was like "FUCK all my shit has been jacked" and started crying.

Long story short Moot instructing his goons to steal my shit resulted in my repeating a year in Highschool.

>>22900995
I could go on about myself. I hope that's beautiful.

>>22900997
I am truly sorry for your loss. In high school, around 2005 or 2006 I can recall many days when people were recalling my posts from the night before on 4chan, so I was kind of deep in the lore... so as it's unbelievable, I understand why you doubted me as well. My instinct says "moot wouldn't do that" but wow. That's sad to hear he didn't recognize your honest mistake.
>>22901000
That sounds terrible. I would hate to have to go through that. I took an extra year in high school after my suicide attempt that followed with me running away from home. I failed 4 of 8 classes.

>>22901000
Sorry about that I had no choice in the matter. Just following orders. Nothing personnell kid.

>>22901004
Bully

>>22901007
Sorry about that too kid I was just following orders nothing personnell kid

>>22901009
Damn. I guess it all adds up.

You know what's funny, is I expect people to just jump into knowing me, and respond all curious.

Canada is a shithole