i changed my mind

installing ddlc and some other gamerino

>>22911250
So? what's next?

didn't like dragon anatomy so much, prefer being human instead

>>22911260
cognitive science

listening to autism music rather than suffer having to hear my loud ass pc

yawn having another tea

Never expected dt to use a pepe really through me off for a second

downloading another game

It's really strange, I think you would say i have light olive skin but yet it doesn't quite look like the examples given, my skin tone is actually very similar to the Japanese I find

limon lays is really gooderino

yawn wokeup

ugh yawn le tired

thinking...

>conjuring piglins from nether as troops


fantasy... magical cold war arms race...

installing schedule 1 so I can play kino farming simulator :3 !!!!!

i just get kino ideas doing unrelated stuff btw


and I'm rethinking this whole underworld/outer world stuff and perhaps may stay on earth BECAUSE summon troops from the nether or the end feels cheap

>>22911233 (OP)
I take it back

>>22911771
playing schedule 1

um...

thinking abouterino recipes

tfw horse semen not unlocked yet so i can't mix the best tasting methé or whatever

oof
i do not like this how my win10erino pc will become useless and unsafe soon >:[

yawn over 50% windows 'puters are upgraded to windows 11

windows 10 lost

its time to stop playing video games.

added an unstable dependancyerino

and basically through all the stuff I was doing to get a game to work I wanna go back to a clean slate

>>22911233 (OP)
alright, scrambled it is

Y

ugh yawn wokeup had some ice cream

>>22911233 (OP)
I eated my veggie

FUCKING LEAF

AAHHHHHHHHHHHH

DIE

>>22912861
Come back German anon
We are alll about German things

ugh drank a whole bottle of Dr Pepper now I am drinking juice

after I ordered the juice I got this strange advertisement for the same brand of juice on my phone pretty creepy I wonder what is the cause of this fucking out of control spying

Personally Man Of Steel felt too much like military propaganda to me

>>22911233 (OP)
>>22911250
403 Forbidden
Revert all changes and cease this activity immediately.

ugh I just feel like they can’t make a good Superman film without it containing overt propaganda

ugh le yawn

checking windows 11 again before I switch back to linux

wokeup btw

ugh just smoked somenCBD

I am pretty much out have to order more le ugh sigh I can’t believe that


Such a pain in the ass

>>22915014
checked with some pc health app

upgrade not possible

time to move back to linux.

this time I'm wearing a virtual box condom on my linux before I do anything major to my linuxerino

Ugh

So I hav shears that women like men who have their own values and stand firm for what they believe in but I have not found this to be true

I am always debating and arguing with myself with how should I be honest about who I am, should I just say what I want to say? Or do I have to cater myself to all this bullshit?

I’ve always had a really high sex drive and a strong desire to be in a relationship with a women mostly because many of my desires for deeper connection can only really be met by being in a romantic relationship but Jesus Christ it’s been like this unrelenting battle and crusade just to be it seems worthy of being in a relationship with a ‘WOman’

So like they say you have to be happy or love yourself before you get into a relationship with someone, but I feel like that basically excuses and gives women the ability to not have to put up with or date anyone with anything resembling “mental health” issues or just has some
personal issues or problems, so right there doesn’t that absolve women from dating anyone man that basically isn’t perfect? Doesn’t this mean that a man has to be pretty much infallible?

There’s a lot more I could say about the subject but I think that’s a good enough point to make.

Just the fact that as far as fantasy goes for women their biggest fantasy is pretty much falling in love with a prince or some shit, do women all naturally support monarchy? I’ve always really wondered about that, what about liberal women? Or is that all just the patriarchy and how women are oppressed and real women don’t actually care about those kinds of fantasies as much?

And the reason why I mention that and make that point is that I don’t think it’s really fair entirely because a lot of the time most mental health issues are usually caused by trauma in some shape or form, or some kind of abuse and neglect, so it’s not entirely a persons fault.

Anyone one example of the feminine mind I have is that I was walking in an alley way, I’ve always sort of liked alleyways, but it’s not a big deal I was just taking in the vibes and the sights sometimes when I go for walks I go down alleys on my walks so anyway I’m walking down this alleyway right outside a night club it’s a big alleyway and there’s a chain link fence mostly to separate the club from what was like the behind of a restaurant. As I’m walking I run into this woman on the opposite side of the fence she stops so I stop too she started staring at me first but we both start staring at each and we both stop there’s a long pause. The whole thing just happened, I actually didn’t even find her that attractive to be honest, but none the less it seems like there might be something between us so I’m about to say hello and she just snaps back and goes “ew, what are you doing in an alley” and she walks away.

Like what the god damn fuck, just a typical woman I guess. That experience was so comprehensive in regards to my entire situation stuck between worlds, at night in the dark illuminated by dim lights stuck on the other side of fucking privilege

There’s been so many times where there’s obvious attraction or strong chemistry between us and there’s an interest or we like each others company and everything is going great but the woman will just flat out reject me at some point usually before even dating me because from all I can see is that I’m not “perfect” and that’s all I’ve known my whole life never being in a relationship because I can overcome the burden and overbearing weight I have to overcome first before I’m finally “worthy” enough or some shit it’s like pushing a giant boulder up a hill

Of course there’s a lot more to it all and I don’t feel like writing continually about it.

I feel like a lot of my experience is growing up in Canada partially, like I’ve found Canadians to be really classist, that’s been my on going experience and I’ve never been tolerated either

I feel like ever since I was young I should have ran away and moved to a big liberal city like I wanted to originally and hang out with punks all the time because when it comes down to it, I’ve been through this and I’ve thought “it’s just some type of subculture that’s kind of old and outdated because it’s been around for so long” but I think that’s all I have basically, it’s come to my conclusion that I’ll always be damaged and I think I’ll face nonstop prejudice as a result of that, you could say it’s just my personality now, who I am, that I’m eccentric but I don’t know sometimes I shudder or shake or I space out and get a sad look on my face shit like that and it’s because I’m damaged I guess and it’ll always be an issue

yawn maybe I can redo my minecrafterino inspired idearino fantasy sandbox world

but I may tweak it


(i like andrealphus's design; NO I WILL NOT WATCH HASBINHOTEL/HELLUVABOSS)

Like because I was deeply traumatized and neglected as hell growing up I was all screwed up, I was too screwed up to have regular or normal friends, what else is there for someone in a position like that except for petty crime or drug and alcohol abuse pretty much? There was nothing for me as a result of that, I guess I don’t know if it was practical to just run away and leave home early or not but I was completely alone and there wasn’t very many opportunities for me where I was

Fuck I remember when I did move to a city that was decidedly sort of “liberal” I remember at my job being mistreated and thought of as being gay and I was treated really badly for no reason I worked in a bar that’s when you’re like “alright I have to go to the most liberal place I can possibly find” and needless to say I had a great time in Seattle
But there was lots of gays but I guess I might as well fag it up with the homos what does it mean to have to be that far left?

>>22915115
Like

I may not use minecraft as inspiration anymore because the le troperino that a thing belongs in X dimension but not on earth is LE BORING

rather, I think it'd be better if it was all on earth.

dragons, giant minotaurkinos, etc

EARTH!!!!!

UGH IM DWELLING ON THE PAST AGAIN

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

It’s no wonder why people do drugs and drink not only is it like the only alternative they’re given but like it’s also the only way to seem normal it’s not even about “self medicating” persay I think but just seeming normal