>get great job
>lose 100 pounds and become healthy
>get girlfriend
>take up hobbies
>just as miserable as before, still want to off myself every day, just don't because of what it'd do to me pops

Just wasting time stressed out until I die. Not just me of course, all of us I guess. If I do nothing my soul feels crushed, if I work hard to fix things, the same but also I'm exhausted
All just so I can get old and in more pain and more miserable
jesus man.

>>22939265 (OP)
yeah try to avoid pointless exhaustion
i assure you you'd feel 2x worse if you were overweight and unhealthy, though
i think you should spend effort/work more carefully, take a break and figure out if anything specific is worth working for
apart from just "fixing things"
the world is a big sandbox game

if you get to a place where you're happy with yourself and the things you have/do, your dad should be happy as well