new idea alert

Medieval warfares/politics = LE BORING!!!!!!!!


I want an endless hunting ground to prowl in.


plus on top of that I'm avoiding attachments all together and having sex with random women for now onnerino *woof* yippee

woah

bant is fast for once?

furnacing my food btw

also this is the thread: I've finally settled on a kino idea

>>22958490 (OP)
Hot, love it

>>22959722
>furnacing my food btw

*furnishing*
The D in DT must stand for dumdum.

>>22959722
suddenly changed my mind last second

uh oh

half changed my mind


suddenly realized I could just do a D&D party in the minecraft

Ugly
Yawn wokeup had tea'

So basically I couldn't sleep last night, I was so incredibly overwhelmed with emotion all last night I couldn't sleep and I laid down on bed with my pillow over my head

But I can handle things today thankfully slept to 7 pm doe because I didn't sleep until like 9 am
God damnit

Basically like yeah pink sky where is there pink skies?

So yeah I feel like she-ra fits them a little bit too, but it doesn't quite feel right entirely either for sure. Old She-Ra has furry lines boots, I really like that, there goes the sort of barbarian sentiment again though.

I kind of feel like you're either looking at something like Zelda (because it's still really suitable to them) but on some level, Zelda is really civilized. It's about as liberal as you can get with old fashioned European type sentiment and taste or style and such.

And on the other end of the spectrum, if it's not Zelda, then I feel like the only other options are like barbarians like she ra or total prehistory savage caveman type thing altogether.

Of course there are other tastes and style I guess, but I feel like the only other alternatives are like the future or something, I can't really think of very many things that are modern which fit them a whole lot. For some reason.

I don't know if that aesthetic, feel, and taste are featured much else.

When I talk about barbarians, Zelda and savages/cavemen

I am mostly I guess talking about like a complicated thing that is hard to understand exactly, but I feel to an extent I mean styles, attitudes and such that can be translated in a modern context with style and fashion as well, but I guess I mean belief systems and behavior as well to an extent. But it's kind of out there and hard to explain

Here is more she-ra

It's just that they have this particular taste that's almost like their signature style, they really, really like that whole taste and I don't know if it's exactly their like ethncity or what exactly it is.

I don't know if in my mind it should define them so much but then they can't seem to do without it in some way, so because of that, those examples I provided are how I would define them.

I love Eureka Seven

She reminds me a lot of Eureka as well, she's also almost like some ideal of what I would look for in a woman though I don't know if it's realistic or not. They're not that profoundly deep or complex exactly.

I feel like the style that is present when it comes to Eureka seven a part of the storyline and series is this specific style, and it's almost presented as being romantic towards someone like me I guess.

In fact I think they take the style and really present it as a symbolic story aspect

Anyway, her style is used to hint at a deeper significance to the plot and her own storyline in that Eureka is not altogether a regular human, I don't remember completely what it was but it's interesting. I don't quite know what the symbolism means with Eureka but it speaks to me a lot for some reason.

Basically, she's the closest I think I could find to a real life Zelda almost, but she's not quite the same, even though I think they might behave the capacity to be close to the same in them, I feel like they just aren't quite a noble, upstanding or maybe even "good" which is an apparent flaw maybe.

It makes me really sad, I think I would like to find a woman who is like Zelda who is very noble and good, but I wonder if I'll ever find someone like that.

It's just as well it's not a simple case of being good, i mean that's like a part of it, but Zelda is also Japanese, and that's not too far off from Germany exactly, so that's kind of a difference.

It just makes me feel like I almost have a german love or something, it's exclusively or exactly germany, but it's close to it. Which i guess is not necessarily bad, but it's different then mainstream sentiment and what you are taught is normal

Here's a cosplay of Catra, I forgot to mention, wildness is pretty important to me too, it feels pretty essential, attractive to me to have some wildness. I don't think they're really that wild, they're a little tame actually but there's still a hint of wildness, which is kind of complicated because of what it leads to I guess.

Well I guess she's British so that's why she conventionally fits the notion of "good" I guess, but I just feel like I'm supposed to find someone like Birdy attractive, she's introspective, quiet, sensitive, she is cultured a bit, and at least spends some time reading. I think she is probably an infj.

https://youtu.be/WJTXDCh2YiA?si=qHteBl1fMIIvKFeZ

For all intensive purposes she has all the trappings of what would be considered good by some measure of the term. But I don't know, I guess she's just not really "german" enough for me necessarily or something I guess.

Which is kind of irksome, because it just makes everything more complicated and more difficult, like finding women I really like these days is that much more complicated.

Like I love this picture of her here, her style is really interesting to me I like it on some levels, it'd kind of wild, almost exotic and realy unique different, kind of classy and elegant but still wild.

She also looks pretty attractive there. But still, regardless she's just not "german" enough almost, le sigh

Like Birdy really feels thing too, but inma different way, I don't necessarily dislike it, but I'm just not sure which I like more. The way birdy feels things is supposed to be a bit more proper and superior,

>>22958490 (OP)
>>22959722
BWC breeding sow

As I find myself thinking more on the topic of Zelda, I wonder how important is thr concept of good to me. Like I wonder how important it is and if I'll ever find someone who has been as defined or shaped by the notion or idea of being good.

I think at my core, I don't know if this is true for most people, but I've never really heard anyone say sentiments like this, that at my core is almost this desire to do good, and it doesn't feel like there's much else there. I don't know what an internal reality or inner working is supposed to look like, I don't know if that's weird to admit that or not. I have no idea how most people must be on the inside.

And honestly I think that's strangely why a lot of people don't like me, why I am an outsider.

I remember as a kid I used to be stuck on thus ides of peace, I shunned and turned away from the outside world, because I saw conflict, everywhere, and nontruthfulness and I always thought "the answer is simple, peace is a choice, why can't we just live in peace. Why does everything has to be so complicated" I could never really get over that.

I was different, I seemed like an alien. At my core I just wanted peace and harmony.

I mean it must seem kind of strange because it feels too pacified, childish or too sensitive to desire such a thing, I don't know if it is, if anger, and negative emotions should be the common state of affairs because most people are simply too used to it, or too much peace is just like weird I don't know.

And I think I wonder, are there many women our there who have experienced the same things? I've been scorned by women so much I wonder if I came across a woman like that, would she be open to me? Or are their other factors im not taking into consideration?

Despite all this, I hardly do anything really "good" I think exactly, like I'm not out there volunteering or fighting for charities

But to an extent, I watched a biography on Ghandi, and I think I am not that far removed. He spent meany years living a very isolated kind of existence, mostly reading all kinds of books about various subjects, mostly related to like philosophy, and that were ethical in some way I think.

And then after doing that he finally set out in the world and took actions. That's sort of like how itis for me, I still haven't really felt comfortable taking action yet I suppose.

Honestly I've spent most of my life looking for the solution or the answer to world peace, that's almost always what I'm doing or muling over in some way.

>>22960982
you will never breed you tiny white pecker cuckold subhuman KILL YOURSELF

another tbp cuckold small black clitty spam thread

yawn ugh wokeup

Wow another thing “Phat Load” might mean
“3. Phat Weighting Function (Electrical Engineering): In signal processing and electrical engineering, a "PHAT weighting function" is used in algorithms like generalized quadratic correlation delay estimation. It acts as a whitening filter to improve the sharpness of a signal and enhance its anti-noise capabilities. “


Basically something to enhance a connection, just to think, that may have been what God was saying to me?

>>22964503
God told me to tell you that he wasn't saying anything to you and that message was supposed to be for someone else and that's why you can't understand it

He called you a fag too

I just find that really amazing from my experience with the unexplained I feel like the universe functions in an almost rational seeming way, like even though it’s unexplainable it still feels like there’s some kind of rational force and science behind it.

That definition of what a phat load could mean explains and says so much at once while being relatively simple it’s just amazing it feels so rational almost but yet I imagine some Heavenly Father some man in a white robe with a white beard saying that to me it’s just whoah

Thor is one of my favorite comic book characters.

I've been tinkering with making my own superheroes, but I have struggled a lot with different aspects of it. Mostly the idea of advertising and commercial appeal, I think I could make something that has somewhat favorable critical reviews, but making something popular is another story altogether. I don't know if my preferences and ideas are really mainstream and truth be told I don't even know if it's good to be mainstream, catering and changing my voice to fit mainstream appeal seems kind of horrible to me.

Buy I think of someone like Kurt Cobain, who managed being authentic with some mainstream appeal. What I really want to do, is make things that are sort of counter-culture, for people who aren't part of the "in-crowd" for all those weird and different people, the misfits and outsiders.

That's what I would want to do, but I don't know if it's really viable to be honest, plus I'm not completely sure what that would look like exactly.

Sometimes, comic books for example, flirt and toy with this idea somewhat, but it's just not popular quite often which is why I would struggle.

Hell, it seems like most people who associate with subcultures, tend to like horror movies and spooky things a lot, which is sort of to my detriment, so why bother almost?

I don't know how you would capture counter-culture in a visual format like that. I think like making things gore-y would be popular maybe? But I don't know if I would want to make things gorey that would probably mean lots of blood and/or death, some kind of grittiness. Also like the supernatural, but like arcane and occult, which I am not overly interested in either.

Finding artists and work that has accomplished this would probably be the first goal to get done I guess. It makes me think of katsuhiro Otomo.

I feel like more then any other comic or manga artist out there, he has managed to be the most somehow counter culture-y so it's really important to analyze his work I think.

I can't really think of many others. I think Marvel started out and tried to be sort of like what I described already, Marvel is more obviously "liberal" then DC, they have like Spiderman and Xmen who deal with themes like this.

But I feel like over the years, Marvel has become a lot more steeped in traditionalism in certain ways, also I feel Marvel is almost more directed at "geeks" and "nerds" (it's like their bred and butter")

Also Marvel replaced a lot of male characters with female characters and features LGBT characters and such too to be more liberal, which also (along with gore and the occult) another trapping or issue I would have to deal with, because that's almost what you would do if you are trying to cater to demographics like I mentioned (maybe)

But Katsuhiro Otomo is so good at that to me, but Steam Boy and Metropolis weren't that successful for some reason unlike Akira. Upon reading and having already watched the anime I came away thinking at some point recently, "wait a moment, all of Otomos work is pretty counter-culture-y" and i thought maybe I could bond with those types of people over it, yet Akira as an example, doesn't have a reputation or is associated with subcultures and counter culture all that much, like it's not something you see in Hot Topic as an example.

Some things that come to the top of my head when thinking of influences, Spiderman and Batman are both like the most popular and influential superheroes, I try to think of what makes Batman so popular and it's not just that Batman is dark, I think Batman has this really darkly romantic quality that appeals to people

Akira is so interesting in that it inhabits this really interesting place in culture, I would say, Akira is outright counter-culture-y but it's almost it's own counter culture and likewise it's pretty iconclastic, it goes against the grain, and is so rebellious.

But anyway, back to inspirations. I think that's what makes Batman so popular is the darkly romantic aspect to the character, it's not as simple as that, but he's so much more darkly romantic then most other fictional characters and stories, so I guess I would try to make most of my characters have something dark and romantic about them, and also with Peter Parker, he's usually cited as an everyman, but also spiderman is just a really good design, fictional character, his powers are really fun and cool as is his costume. But there's almost something 'darkly romantic'about spiderman too, that was really captured in the Sam Raimi films.

Then I kind of thought about the movie Lost boys came into my head just because I think it's kind of popular with alternative culture, and while it's dark and has supernatural occult elements it's actually not that bloody or gorey which shows it is possibly to appeals to those types of audiences without the gore.

Then I was thinking about music itself, I wonder if it's possible to look at music and capture qualities from popular musical acts, what themes are popular and utilize that somehow in a different medium. Since music is the most popular among these types of popular and still how a lot of people bond.

Like, could you take the cure and somehow turn it into a fictional story, does it really work like that? I'd ty to at least analyze it somehow.

It's not good probably to literally go to Hot Topic probably to try and understand entertainment and marketing and what is popular, but I did notice some things, like DragonBall and Naruto are particularly popular. Anime in general is pretty popular and suffienctly is almost counterculture

So it's not that anime and manga is necessarily
Counter culture, it's disparaging to me because I wouldn't say it's outright conservative, it's still sort of presents a traditionalist (to japan) outlook much like western comic books. Anime and manga is just popular with alternative people I guess for whatever reason, but I honestly wonder if it's because of the traditional almost conservative outlook a lot of anime has.

Anime actually sells better then western comic books for whatever reason. But I feel like anime is almost popular just because it's Japanese and not necessarily because it's better then Western comics.

I will have to take a really hard look at anime and manga to try and decipher why it is so popular nowadays (I liked anime before it was popular and I was weird for it, it was very liberal and progressive to like Japanese things a lot back when I was a small child) and this was even before dragon ball and Pokémon so I was extremely young. I remember being in grade 2 and drawing dragon ball before it was well known stateside. I was all over Pokémon, like I loved Pokémon.

One thing I would try right off the bat is that I wouldn't use traditional mores very often. Like I wouldn't use traditional macho men. I don't know what demographic there is I could appeal to though.

I think of absolute Batman and they made him "working class" he works construction, but the one thing I don't like that I feel like defeats the point of him being working class is that he's bascially a super genius and like impossibly big and strong (he's 6'6" now) he might not be rich, but the odds were still impossibly in his favor in that he's so big and a super genius. I feel like that doesn't really make him as relatable or realistic.

This is where the nerdy geek thing kind of comes into play where it seems like comic books make a big deal out of being intelligent. Like Peter Parker was a "nerd" but he is a genius scientist he's super intelligent.

Like it’s become popular I think to be intelligent in general in the media, in pop culture and in real life. While it’s good to be intelligent, I just think it’s overstated, it seems like every other character has to be a super genius or something these days. Like the new Iron Heart, she’s not a totally new character she’s existed in the comics, Tony Stark was already considered smart but damn they make such a big deal out of Iron Hearts intelligence. I think if you truly were that intelligent you wouldn’t actually be found inventing and tinkering away in science and engineering because a lot of advancements we make end up being used for the wrong reasons, so it’s not always a good thing, unless you want to cure cancer or some shit.

I think it’s mostly political the emphasis on intelligence, and it’s misleading because simply put there are only a select few who are truly geniuses out there in existence, so everyone making a big deal about intelligence is weird. Everyone wants to think they’re geniuses nowadays and intellectualism elitism and arrogance has become common. I think it’s political because there is an ever widening gap between the rich and the poor, and the rest of society tries and wants to distant themselves from working class people, like in popular culture and society it has become that, there is almost no working class anymore. People just automatically associate it with Nazism, nationalism, and other negative ideas. But it’s not just working class either, they are basically tying to automate every job they can, from waitering, bartending, to various white collar jobs. Basically the only jobs that aren’t threatened or seen as important are like jobs that require intelligence, like STEM basically. I think we’re reached an epoch of our civilization and people are stuck thinking like “most jobs aren’t important or necessary, only STEM matters” so they only care about technology and shit like that

But the point is that not all jobs necessarily have to be that important. But the thing is I think it is actually a case of liberalism and that might be to blame for this general discarding of the rest of society because they think most jobs aren’t important, the problem is they probably think this due to liberalism, they aren’t committed to it as a goal, and could generally care less about the rest of society which I find highly strange.


Anyway I just feel sort of resentment and betrayal from comic books to an extent due to what I mentioned.

It might seem insignificant, it’s more then just the emphasis on “intelligence” there are other things, but it goes back to comic books being for nerds because they love and fall into the “I r smart” thing, I guess it’s also the fact that most white people refuse to be working class at all anymore, and the people who are, must be like a world away from those who aren’t.

Like making absolute Batman 6’6” and a super genius like not even just intelligent but super genius who thrived despite his working class background.

And like I think in general Marvel is more guilty of that because Marvel is more “liberal” so that’s supposedly what liberalism is about, only valuing intelligent people. Cheap foreign labour, mass immigration, thus=diversity.

The new Superman movie kind of irked me because of that, everyone loves Mr.Terrific because he is basically a super genius “techbro” and the latest Spiderman movies all emphasize intelligence STEM which apparently goes along with loving Lego, and going to a specialized “smart school” (the movies and the latest tv show)


I guess I went on too much of a tangent on that topic but I digress.

For me when I think about the best portrayals I think about Star Wars as an example, I think they were more so on alignment with mechanics but Anakin basically fixes his own robots and builds them he also builds his own pod racer

But no one ever goes “oh Anakin is i r smart” “he’s a super smart character” “he’s a super nerdy stem character I totally relate to!”

No one does that but Anakin is probably a genius.

I think also what I like in fiction is when the main characters in the story don’t really trust newer technology, it’s portrayed as being sort of invasive and untested, wildly unpredictable and other adjectives. The main characters to the plot sort of look towards older existing technology instead and rely more on that. Generally the older technology is seen as safer, more reliable and has more ‘soul’ or human qualities to it.

I like that a lot more generally.

Also I think it’s a trope in science fiction for main characters to have some sort of skilled mechanic ability for some reason it’s kind of cliche but I prefer it as well for some reason. Instead of being like super advanced engineers with comfy leisurely office jobs creating buildings for the establishment. Company men if you will.


There’s actually more earnestness in being blue collar or working class sometimes

So like I guess it comes down to, do I want to try and cater to demographics or do I want to try and make something long lasting and classic. But ugh, so much to thunk about, like what is "classic" I feel like if the work is good enough it'll speak for itself, but by thinking what is good, what does that involve? Because I want to really shake things up, and be sort of innovative, groundbreaking, and wildly creative and imaginative. But is that necessarily what a classic is?

Surely you can include classic elements, but it's not always necessarily being genre redefining, so I'm at a loss their how to make that all work. It would require a lot of thought and introspection which can be really difficult and hard.

It's not fun at all, it would require deeply studying more subjects, like studying story telling, visual mediums comics but also film and deciphering deciding what works and what aspects I want to emulate which would require a lot of work to accomplish that in depthly.


I guess honestly the easiest path would just be trying to market cater to popular audiences. Le sigh, Uhhhgh.

I feel like I have to analyze what works and things that have left an indelible mark on culture, but the thing is I don't know if you can recreate things like that. It's like lightning only strikes once, damn.