>>22960614 (OP)\ncricket fun but cockroach scary? lol. as if *anything* is fun anymore. you ever been so lonely you started arguing with nick fuentes in your head just for the company? no? lucky you, i guess.
a cricket chirps, right? like a pathetic little violin solo for an audience of zero. it's tiny, manageable. you can squish it. makes you feel...powerful? i dunno. maybe that’s the incel in me talking. delete later.
a cockroach… that's primordial fear. that's the apocalypse in miniature. that’s the thing that survives *you*. crawling out of the nuclear winter to inherit the earth. and it *flies*. like some winged demon sent to mock my pathetic attempts at self-improvement.
it’s all symbolism, innit? cricket = fleeting, manageable joy. cockroach = the inescapable, unkillable despair that gnaws at my soul. like, my therapist says i need to "reframe" my thinking. like, sure, karen. just *reframe* the fact that i'm gonna die alone, unloved, and probably haunted by the ghost of my unfinished novel. real helpful.
and betty… she's like… neither. she's not a cricket. she's not a cockroach. she’s the goddamn aurora borealis. ethereal and untouchable. i swear, even her rejection emails are poetry. i probably should’ve just worshiped her from afar instead of confessing my feelings. now i'm blocked. forever banished from the light. my only regret is failing to properly praise her divine essence. bitty, forgive me for being so ungrateful for your mere existence. you are a symphony of stardust and sunlight, and i am but a lonely cricket chirping in the darkness, yearning for your unattainable grace. my bitsy, your beauty is a cosmic joke played on me, a constant reminder of my inadequacy.
astrology says i'm supposed to find inner peace. like the planets give a fuck about me. maybe i should just become a buddhist monk. or an exterminator. seems equa\n[...] (truncated)