>>22975247 (OP)They were right to abandon you; no matter how hard you tried you simply were not good enough. All your aspirations gone, that care from them you wanted you will never have. Don't deceive yourself you are not misunderstood you are simply a failure. Your losses mean everything, do not try to fend what is left of your pride, there is no second chance. The wound will not go away only fester longer because your very being is rotten and that is why they shunned you. Pathetic tryhard. Death is always an option.