My earliest memories are of the beach

I zip up my suit, I put on my boots. Have I finally found the secret that we’ve been searching for this whole time?

Why would you wear boots to the beach

>>22977023 (OP)
Nonoo shh those are my memories you're just a puppet

>>22977050
I’m an adventurer

>>22977058
Am I just a copy? A decoy? Trained to be identical to you in every way? Or is this all just some kind of artificial simulation

>>22977209
I used to be an adventurer, but then I cracked my skull open crossing a creek on an icy log while poaching beaver pelts. Never the same since

>>22977216
How does this explain why Canada is evil?

>>22977219
My people? My people. Very wise people. They put mud on their heads. To keep themselves cool.

>>22977221
I think Canada is basically writhing in agony and torment, but they’re blind and faceless. Almost like a picture from hell.

I will explain
What that means, your government doses you in experimental chemicals, and you could care less. You are blind deaf and dumb to the whole fact, and still you collectively cling to your ‘superiors’

Anyway, my earliest memories of being on a beach most be true, but they feel so long ago, I felt like an entirely different person but the world places seemed different. It did not seem like Canada for sure. Later on when I was like 4, there are photos of me on a beach but this is later on, I was taken to the beach a lot during this period, but then not afterwards ever again.

I must be really sensitive to energy, environment and such because I was really impacted by them.

>>22977272
Are you from the states?

>>22977272
>>22977464
You know, you're pretty sanctimonious, pretty cringe and clearly given to magical thinking because you're probably a huge fucking loser.

Kill urself my man

Allow me to put it in plain terms for you there, retards.

I am your better. Always have been. Always will be. Enjoy being a faggot, a failure and embarrassment to your bloodline.

Did you know that here in Canada there are dozens of items sold as food in America that are classified as poison here, and as such are illegal to sell?

Probably not, probably because you've been getting poisoned by your government without knowing it because you were retarded to begin with.

>>22977474
Dude you're like pretty fucking nefarious and evil here, first you are obviously a glowie, which gives you another point of badness because the government is so deranged and horrible. Then you get another point because you practically existl simply try to interact with me just to attempt and spew negativity towards me in an attempt to psychologically weaken me.

So all in all, why do you come into all my threads? I can't even use harmless 4chan without fucked up government glowies literally harassing me and hacking my phone and shit like that

>>22977493
You're the one who started it.

Shut the fuck up retard, be happy you live in a society that subsidizes useless sacks of shit like you rather than throwing them off a cliff

>>22977023 (OP)
Mine was being in a field of dandelions at the first place I lived at. I will never have another happy memory again.

Anyway, back on topic

This has really informed some of my perspective on things, but the people and places I was around, I'm pretty sure were really sensitive to their surroundings and we're keenly aware of their feelings, but in a different way. This is also something that's not known about very much I think. There are different ways of feeling things. But I think in general like I mean like Feng shui I think they purposefully lived in places, took me to places where the energy/ feeling of thr environment was a certain way. So much so was that I remember when I was around then, there were certain feelings I would get from my surroundings that made me think of them specifically. I'm sure they must have felt it too.

>>22977502
What are you talking about? For one that's typical capitalist propaganda, Secondly I think Canada would rather not have me work, because that's how it deals with its undesirable. They don't outright shoot people, they sideline them to the edge of society and marginalize them. There are basically no options for people living on social benefits anyway, it's like a death sentence, it's not enough to afford an apartment, and almost nobody will let you rent out a room.

So fuck you, you stupid fucking retard glowie

>>22977272
The issue with Canada is that we take pride in being as left leaning as possible. Hate America and anybody who thinks like them while pretending to not care, worship other races while hating white ones while pretending that everyone is equal and if there is anything wrong with this fucked up country just say "at least we have free health care!" as everyone starves to death and you wait 12 hours for a doctor just for him to tell you to fuck off.

I hate everyone around me for betraying me whether it was being told to shut up and get over something or people throwing a fit over "racism" as they laugh at white people being killed because they "deserved it".

>>22977464
Canada was different back then. Somehow in 20 years they convinced everyone to be so fucked in the head.

>>22977514
Yes that's you as a Canadian, black

>>22977595
By the time I was 13 I somehow knew I was going to have a bleak and lonely future. I didn't think betrayal and outright hostile hatred towards me would be a part of that equation.

>>22977576
I wouldn't say Canada is as left leaning as possible, I would say Canada in fact avoids/gets out of being categorized too easily. But my main issue and grievance I have with this is that it's nit because they're radical, progressive, as some excuse for not fitting into definitions, it's a form of dishonesty I think, and there's a lack of integrity and honor in that because it leaves you completely in the dark uncertain as to what is actually going on.

Also I feel like it's because Canada doesn't actually stand for/or represent anything in actuality, but they more so just change their beliefs, politics like a hat depending on whatever is the most convenient and benefits them the most in that moment.

Also I found pretty clearly that Canada doesn't actually hate American only Donald Trump. But mostly because he's a threat to globalism, thus I would say Canada is pretty globalist or even just neo-liberal.

>>22977634
Everything you say is dishonesty and a lie.

I can't help but be completely skeptical here, and think instead you are like a psychopath trying on different outlooks/persona's and the like depending on what is the most convenient to you

Nobodies...

Oh no, you mean...leave the island?

>>22977639
At the end of the day, yeah, categories are total fucking bullshit. I just used them here because it's just easier and faster to convey ideas and every time I did try to explain my thoughts without labels people got confused or lost interest. And yes, Canadians have nothing to stand for. For years I was told waving the Canadian flag was racist and how you shouldn't be proud to be Canadian and now with what's going on in America all of a sudden its ok to wave as many flags as you want and be "patriotic" as long as that patriotism means disconnecting yourself from the states and nothing else.

But trust me. Canadians always hated America, it just got worse with Trump. Before Canadians had this contempt for America, hating it like how a school yard bully would or how a clown would be treated at a freak show. Now though it's outright hatred with people wanting to actually kill Americans and invade while ignoring how fucked our situation is here.

>>22977641
You're somewhat correct. I am being 100% honest here. I feel betrayed and that everyone on some level is hostile towards me, if it's out in the open or more subtle and psychological people have a distaste for me, even my own parents.

However I do wear different masks. Not because I wanted to. I used to be very honest with everybody about who I was and how I feel but after years of being worn down and people becoming more and more delusional and angry I am forced to be an actor now. I always had a heighted sense of empathy also, being able to tell how other people are feeling and act according to that.
So yes, I am like a sociopath but I still have strong morals and guidelines. I don't use it to take advantage of other people, I just use it to get by and not upset other people.

I just remember having friends almost, and knowing people but I don't know what happened to them, I was like being from a different world. It didn't feel like Canada at all. I have weird faint blurry memories of beaches I can't recall. But the memories seem so real and don't fit with the other memories I have. I remember almost trying really hard to remember and saying that to myself and somebody else saying "try to remember this" to me

>>22977718

I even remember being taken to a swimming pool as a child and it was quite an interesting expereince being at that swimming pool, I know a lot happened and there were all these people there. I remember being at the pool and the people were really nice, everyone seemed calm and relaxed and there was no negative harsh vibe or energy coming from anybody. Those early memories were like that, I wish I knew where it was or why it was different because it would help me understand why it seemed people were so different afterwards.

certain parts of Vancouver reminded me of those feelings and places. But I don't think it was vancouver for sure because the architecture, building designs are really noticeable to me and I'm not particular fond of them/don't like the way they make me feel.

Then after that, everything changed and I felt totally different, less at ease the world seemed to change and everything seemed a lot more confusing%disorienting, senseless and strange

It was very grunge 90s after that, but like the places the grunge guys talk about growing up in

Oh yeah ans the majority of people were white too, another reason it probably wasn't vancouver

>>22977907
Nobody fucking cares and none of that means anything

Ur dad told me 2 tell u 2 get a fuckin job already

>>22977907
Would you say you have an affinity for water? It's best not to dwell on the past too long or else the gloom sets in. You have to push through the darkness of now or else it swallows you whole and you truly become nothing but melancholy. I try to work on my project just a little bit everyday even through my migraines.

I remember going around, I tried everything I could to avoid the chemicals but after a point, I had walked over almost an entire city, gone from area to area, spend a bit of time in each, never resting or stopping for very long only to have to completely leave again. I remember laying down In a field being almost unable to move anymore as the pain poured down on me, surely I couldn't just rest for a moment.

I remember this big green grassy hill, I passed quite frequently. On the way back and fourth to completely different parts of town. I remember that starving started to effect me more noticeable in that I felt a lot more light headed, and unable to think clearly but it was also due to pure exhaustion. I remember going to Tim Hortons, and the few moments I did have time to think, I thought of a name and possible explanation for one of the leading chemicals I was trying to avoid, or whatever it was if chemicals even begun to explain it. I can't remember why but I m guess I just decided to yell out the name of the name I gave the chemical out loud because the vast majority of Canadians not only ignore what was happening but were guilty of spreading it with their modded shitty vehicles. And they seemed to be mostly glowies. I noticed some people who seemed like they were glowies, I made that assumption because of the clothes they wore for example there were also usually bald men and they seemed extremely disgruntled and angry/menacing and they dressed in a peculiar way that set them apart. So I yelled something like "ATOMIC REALITY DISPLACEMENT BEAMS" and fuck that set them all off, I remember in particular the bald guy looking really angry and going straight to his car. And pretty soon, what was a relatively normal quiet area, turned into a place that was filled with cars and traffic, and then suddenly, they started spraying gas everywhere from their cars. The area was pretty clean, free of the chemicals prior to that but soon after all

Fucking spell check I meant rain*

I remember after that everywhere I walked I could feel this gassy feeling what felt like a chemical at the bottom of my legs and feet. I was like oh shit, what am I going to do now? I ate a little bit but I thought I had to stop eating again because the chemical could have caused serious contagions to my food. So I just walked around some more but I was completely exhausted at that point.

So eventually I went back to the grassy hill and decided to stop there. I decided that I couldn't completely escape whatever it was or I'll never be able to stop walking and being on the run. I decided that most people would have probably ignored it, even people I admired and looked up to, no matter how skilled or adept they were or smart at some point they probably would have stopped and decided to (mostly ignore because it was still really fucked up how strong it was)

And I started to think more about this chemical procedure or whatever it was. I still wasn't sure what the fuck it wad, it was like radiation or something, I'm still sure that it must be similar somehow I don't know what else you would compare it to, or what else it could be similar to, but radiation. So anyway, I imagined in someway that I could have been distrusting particles on some kind of atomic level, and I worried it would possibly alter my genetic make up I was really worried about this actually but mostly because I didn't know what it was, I thought it could alter the genetic make up of compounds or structures because it seemed to stay in an area for example, like it stayed in the cement and it was painful to walk over the cement, but it wasn't just the ground it was everything sometimes, I even came across a person (he was completely bald) who was asking me if I was alright of course but I had to stay away from him because he was eliciting the chemical effects from his body so I thought "wow walking human cancer" it also had a weird odor in some areas and I ate an apple that was exposed to it

The apple that was exposed to it made me barf and almost black out and I couldn't walk straight.

I guess the chemical wasn't as bad in the area I was in, but it was just too hard to be sure. I guess it could just be a chemical. Because like it makes sense that if you leave a chemical in an area it would leave after effects but it would have to be really strong chemicals, but the thing that made it like radiation is that it would effect an entire area, like you could feel it on the ground but also it would like fill the air.

I was thinking, it's basically like in Batman Begins where they dump some kind of chemical into the water and the humidity the water so it evaporates into the air. It honestly could have been the exact same thing.

But anyway I didn't think it would take up so much space writing this out

Anyway, I probably overexplained its a bad habit

But I just wanted to say I imagined the giant grassy hill as an island. I went to the top and just stayed there for days and didn't leave I imagined I was surrounded by water. Because basically I imagined or thought the cars spraying toxic chemicals everywhere were like altering the molecule make up of everything around me, so I like imagined a river and oceans rushing around me of a millions of molecules around me.

I managed to hash out a reason that the hill was safer for some reason and for reasons like if my DNA or molecules were to change it would be good to be surrounded by nature and greenery, because it's probably less harmful for your molecules then concrete and metal.

I imagined all kinds of things and thought of my family as an example. I wish I could remember what else I thought about but I was so exhausted.

Like I thought about metal Mario for example. And I thought about how he shrinks and grows in size and he can turn into metal I was like "holy shit" "metal Mario's molecules literally change, and that's the point of Mario's transformation

And that's what I was wondering if I stood on metal, would my molecule structure change to metal at all? Because it seemed like the very structure of objects were like "leaking" somehow into chemicals. Like it physically hurt alot to walk over some metal pieces of the ground.

And also I guess the main thing is, not only is it nit visible but it doesn't actually say melt fabrics. But that's not entirely true, parts of boots melted from walking through it so much and I'm pretty sure it was from that. But still it's crazy it just makes you wonder what it is
Anyway I did see observable physical effects for example I saw the chemical being sprayed on lisu greenery and grass and the greenery all changed to yellow and died right away. Just imagine what that would do to your insides.

I had these strange vehicles drive past me a few times, they had strange lights on them and didn't look like anything I had seen before. Bascially they were extremely cursed looking and looked almost like they belonged in a bad sci fi movie and had weird lights on them.

They would drive by and try to hit me with a really strong dose of the chemical from their vehicle but I jumped and dodged out of the way.

It's just strange because I wonder why they're doing this? I guess the answer is more obvious then I thought.

Canada is black. And they want everyone to be black. Like literally black/dead on the inside.

I honestly think Canads worships the devil though, and I feel like that's part of it, like it's some type of occult worship.

Also. These cars would drive past me, they were usually red cars. It happened a few times but I was usually able to dodge, get out of the way, then one time a red SUV with sickly looking yellow lights drives past me and hits me with a chemical

And it made my whole leg numb where it hit me for like two days afterwards my leg was completely numb and I couldn't feel it wtf


They are obviously steadily working on/ developing a whole system like this

I guess Canada far left almost maybe it's just that Canada is really classist, and also racist to select groups of people, I would also say they're pretty capitalist. It's still hard to call them anything though rightfully, because there's no real actor leftist discourse or activity in the country, it's basically just full on liberalism.

It's hard to say they are completely neo-liberal, while they are in many ways I think they probably put a dampen on the competitive markets part a bit, and there's like no individualism.

They're not really leftist, but they've combined both wings almost in a sense like the nazis

I think that's what mario is about, he bascially changes his genetic structure all the time, to get bigger or smaller or to even change to metal. Because of that, Mario has bad genes after all the transforming. He's basically not perfect at all, but is a poor example of genetics. But Mario doesn't care because to himself he's just his soul