HHHEEEEELLLOOOO BANNTTT im here again!! sorry if i didnt answer to some1 in the old thread i wasnt in my pc 2day, how are uuu?

>>22987158 (OP)
I could be worse, thank you
What about you?

>>22987158 (OP)
udo :D

>>22987158 (OP)
Tired. Going to bed soon.

>>22987164
every thing gets better! i hope u do too<3 im ok, chilling in here

>>22987170
udo is hereeee <333

>>22987173
i hope you get a good sleep

>>22987177
<3
>>22987173
sleep well

>>22987174
If I don't make a thread talking about my delusions for tonight, then yes, everything did got better
Good to know that you are relaxed

>>22987203
you want to if u can, i will read them

>>22987199
hugsss

>>22987205
Then read my previous thread about it for context. Yes, it's been a while, but whatever
https://archive.palanq.win/bant/thread/22831851

>>22987210
aaaa thank you

>>22987222
oh shet- is something hard, i can be honest with you and tell you that i've been in something similar, is something hard to past through and more when you are aware og it. the only thing i can tell you is that; either you convince and do a kind of therapy on yourself when you force you onto reality (i did that) or somehow let it pass and you'll have to start over. the first one requieres a bit of control and patience and is hard but... maybe better than end up alone

>>22987230
how are u doinnng?

>>22987181
>>22987199
Thanks, you too

>>22987222
i remember that thread, i didn't realize it was you
it seemed like you were getting good advice so i didn't say much
the awareness you have is good
a therapist will talk to you and try to resolve things, a psychiatrist will talk and try to give the right meds to fix whatever problems you have
the wards can be bad, and the system has problems, but the therapists themselves are just individual people, and you can always shop around for a good one, atleast in the US

i think this post
https://archive.palanq.win/bant/thread/22831851/#q22833831
was good, though
many people suffer from stuff like that
i guess it's about staying focused on what you want, idk

but yeah, good luck
bant is here for what it's worth
it's also good to avoid being terminally online, though, like you said

>>22987239
I've been thinking about taking therapy, and even ask to the therapist if they could get me hospitalized in a mental institution. I know the consequences of doing it, like the fact that it will be harder, if not impossible to me, to buy and use a gun due to the psychological background. Plus, I still have things to do in the college and I wouldn't like to delay them. I just have to reach february, and after that I might do whatever I want to me
Not to mention that I've been having some sort of hallucinations. Maybe for sleeping bad, but I can swear that even when I'm fully and well rested, I see it. It's like a spider, and when I try to see it directly, it moves and hides behind the corners. And if I take a look, there's nothing there. A spider is fast, yes, but it can't just disappear when there's no cracks or gaps nearby

>>22987513
Thank you, fren. I'll se what I can do. Seriously, the thread I was planning had some fucked up stuff. Here I talked about the hallucination >>22987526
But there's more. And I wouldn't like to do a part 2 of the original thread

>>22987526
yes being delusional is shit, is scary af. is good that you have a therapist. i think you should discuss the thing of the institution, maybe it can be really hard with some things, but i hope you get the help you deserve. bant will be here and udo specially

>>22987506
will try
>>22987505
not bad not bad
it was a quiet day
i've kinda been avoiding my problems for a while to be honest
i was very happy to see your thread

i got this 3D printer working again, i had been meaning to do that
only problem is now the 3D modelling software doesn't work

i talked to an old highschool friend a couple months ago, he's in a city to the northeast of here
i think i should try to go to college up there
it's hard because i dropped out of highschool, but i think i could do it if i focus

>>22987537
Thank you again, fren
>is good that you have a therapist
Lol, I don't
>I've been thinking about taking therapy, and even ask to the therapist
It was an "if" situation. If I take therapy, I will ask to the therapist all those things. Whoever, thank you for your words

>>22987699
oh sorry, i didnt read it well

>>22987552
>it was a quiet day
it is cool, i like quiet days
>i was very happy to see your thread
im happy to see y'all too<33
> the 3D modelling software doesn't work
fuck, does it say an error or something?
>but i think i could do it if i focus
yeah i think you can, i dont know how is the sistem there but here in argentina you can finnish highschool if you drop out

>>22987710
Don't worry, I wrote "however" wrong too

>>22987536
i've had some hallucinations and stuff like that, but only when i was much younger thankfully
i think it would scare me more now than it did then
i think the worst stuff involved weird dreams, but that's gone now as well
>Plus, I still have things to do in the college and I wouldn't like to delay them. I just have to reach february, and after that I might do whatever I want to me
i know you can do it, and you'll find a way through the other stuff as well

>>22987710
>>22987718
eheheh
>>22987716
<3
>fuck, does it say an error or something?
i think it's because i'm using linux, basically, lol
i think i know how to fix it, it's just very time-consuming to read through all the packages and resolve conflicts
>it is cool, i like quiet days
me too me too

>>22987734
> i'm using linux
damn thats sick
>it's just very time-consuming
it is... and sometimes tiring

>>22987724
Oh yeah, I'll do it. These old creeps of a teachers I have won't stop me, even if I'm at the brink of psychosis, I will fight back at their disgusting tests and exams

>>22987741
lets goooooooooooo

>>22987740
>damn thats sick
ty ty
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FWLuwG91HnI
i had this working at one point
i have an old vive headset from around 9 years ago, it still works great
>it is... and sometimes tiring
yes..
>>22987741
i don't know, maybe you have your own systems for studying already, but have you looked into spaced repitition flash cards? you can memorize things very fast with those, and there's lots of software for it
the hard part is mainly coming up with useful cards to memorize
sometimes it seems like there's no way to memorize anything useful about what you're studying, but there usually is, if you can figure out what the most important principles are
just a thought, idk
>These old creeps of a teachers I have won't stop me, even if I'm at the brink of psychosis, I will fight back at their disgusting tests and exams
based

>>22987158 (OP)
i forgot, but how was your day? (if you're not too tirede yet)
you said you weren't on your pc much

>>22987771
im not understanding anything in the video but DAMN THATS SICK
>it still works great
cooooooooooooool

>how was your day?
it was ok, visited family, went outside a while, now im trying to make a plushm for a friend

>>22987771
>spaced repitition flash cards
I've been thinking in something like that, actually. I'll give a try to the software version of it, because there's no chance that I'll be writing the cards at hand, at least for now
>if you can figure out what the most important principles
Yes, that's what I have to retake, the ability to keep in mind the core elements of the subject, so I could develop a proper answer afterwards

gn frensss, x is U_dodo09 and discord is sallmonela_a if anything, see ya!

>>22987872
gngn <3

aah i missed it
i'll probably sleep as well though
gn bant

gn you all, frens

Good afternoon?