Thread 23495534

My mother has a brain tumor and my father died 8 days ago because of lung cancer (never held a cigarette in his life also didnt drink a drop of alcohol).Seeing him waste away slowly, how he got skinnier and skinnier. How his legs failed together with his organs. He said he would rather die than live like this, and he did. I am very close to running into the next synagogue I can find and taking with me as many as I can. I havent slept and eaten in 4 days and have started fights almost every time I went outside. Yesterday I almost threw hands with the cashier at a supermarket because he looked at me funny but I was luckily stopped by some grandma. Going outside at 3AM and screaming Teufelslied, Braune Kompanie and other songs on the dark field (pic rel) is the only thing that gives me any feeling towards life. How will I not lose my mind and end up on the news papers? I have done a LOT of LSD when I was 19-23 (25 now), also tried Shrooms and Ketamine. These were very effective to get rid of trauma, to realize that the filthy jew is behind everything and has changed my personality to the better. Dont have access to those now sadly but I could visit the Netherlands to take shrooms. Some of you have surely been beaten down in life like this. Do you have any advice?

Cheers

>>23495534 (OP)
>next synagogue
Imagine typing synagogue instead of politicians or mosque. What a retard cap this thread is. You need to be locked up you schizo

>>23495534 (OP)
ivermectin, hydroxychloroquine, fenbendazole, vitamin c, baking soda, cbd oil, keto, saunas

>>23495534 (OP)
You're just a jew.
You don't matter.
Your pain is amusing.

>>23495605
both of my great grandfathers were nazis so I'm more aryan than you will ever be you fucking nigger

>>23495535
Also kys every synagogue should be purged like your weak genes

>>23495534 (OP)
damn thats crazy dude i have nothing positive to say cuz my life is fucked too

>>23495748
Schade. Was ist bei dir passiert?

try get some sleep, not sleeping for this long will just cause hallucinations ect and make dealing with this even harder.
I know you are probably trying to sleep and unable so just get yourself in a dark room with no screens and try to close your eyes and lay still for a while, even if you dont actually manage to sleep resting like this will help your mental state. laying doing nothing can be unpleasant and make your thoughts spiral but you need to force yourself to do it for at least a few hours or your going to be in an even worse state.

>>23495807
Yeah Im just laying there unable to calm down. I have tried melatonin but to no avail. I will try again in some time

>>23495861
I know the struggle, I hope you manage to rest.
melatonin won't force you out of fight or flight mode unfortunately, if you dont manage to sleep tonight call a doctor in the morning, 4+ days without sleep is significant enough that they will give you some sleeping pills or benzos. obviously its not good to use such things long term but using them for a short time is totally fine and its better than losing your mind while going through something like this.

>>23495534 (OP)
>. Going outside at 3AM and screaming Teufelslied, Braune Kompanie and other songs on the dark field (pic rel) is the only thing that gives me any feeling towards life
not a real picture
the whole post is just making fun of pol users being useless and having dead fathers

>>23495924
yeah its not a real picture it looks pretty similar though, the moon is in the same position

>>23495924
Nah Im not joking about any dead fathers or something. Im really being serious with everything I said.

>>23495912
Benzos of course are the devils letuce. I probably will take them if I cant sleep. Gonna probably ask a friend for a single one, I dont want to have 50 pills at home. I really dont need to get addicted to pills whos withdrawl can make you seize and die

>>23496053
they are only a bad thing if taken recreationally or for a prolonged time, for situations like this they are a good thing usually.
it takes over a week to get addicted to most of them and the doctor will not prescribe enough to get you hooked for something like this.
best to get them from the doctor if the ones ur friend has aren't prescription ones obtained through legit channels or at least that have been tested at a drug checking lab.as theres lots of fake benzos in europe with nitazenes in them at the moment including ones in perfect clones of the strips the official manufacturers use.
the doctor will likely prescribe a z drug like zolpidem or zopiclone rather than benzos but they work the same way and are chemically very similar also.
best of luck man and I hope you manage to get some sleep, don't worry about how to deal with this long term yet as its still too early to really do anything but look after yourself and process it.
godspeed <3

>>23496158
Thanks a lot for your answers!

>>23496232
no problem. get well soon <3

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>>23495534 (OP)
Get a girlfriend or boyfriend, depending on your own gender. Be heterosexual. Start your own family. Everything else is a gay cope. Also dont be a nazi nigger.

>>23495789
no friends no love no family no money, always been like that

>>23495538
>does nothing

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>>23496047
>>23496050
sorry anon

damn dude that sucks my life is awesome

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