Thread 23542642

Don't give up on your dreams.
Become extremely resilliant become the main character.
Destroy every ounce doubt with your indomitable spirit.

>>23542642 (OP)
i will destroy every ounce of my indomitable spirit with my doubt

>>23542642 (OP)
true

>>23542648
i will restore every ounce of my indomitable spirit without a doubt!
>>23542651
Yus

>>23542663
How are you. What are you up to?

>>23542654
i'm not feeling restored

>>23542699
It's okay feeling shitty is sometimes unavoidable. Just don't give up

>>23542667
>How are you
not bad
>What are you up to?
nothing good really
sitting here on this nice quiet night

>>23542718
That doesn't sound bad.
Sounds pretty comfy.

>>23542726
yeees it's pretty decent
gotta be grateful for that

>>23542735
It's morning here and it's still dark and quiet. It's nice. Soon it's going to be winter which means I can start enjoying hot chocolate again. Which is one of the perks of it being stupidly cold.

>>23542739
very nice..
>>23542739
>Soon it's going to be winter which means I can start enjoying hot chocolate again. Which is one of the perks of it being stupidly cold.
yes that'll be good
i like not waking up in a sweat, not hearing bugs outside all the time, nice hot drinks, etc
sometimes using a heater/radiator can make the air very dry, which can irritate my sinuses
i think i prefer the colder weather overall though

i'll miss the summer storms & rainy days, those are nice for reading or whatever

>>23542712
feeling shitty is ALWAYS unavoidable and i will ALWAYS give up

>>23542745
I hate bugs.
Spring is all around the best season for me.
I have been making strides in music, but also at the same time feeling bad about it. I think I have gotten better overall, and more and more people are asking for socials. So I have to set it up soon...
In a way I have learned a lesson. To not fear mistakes, but be comfortable with them. Because the more you fear mistakes the harder it is to fix them and the harder it is to learn from them. and making mistakes is unavoidable, but fixing mistakes isn't. Most lyricists say the first draft is always messy, the second is holding your ego in check, and the third is the professional looking over. I guess this would apply to more than just music.
>>23542752
Feeling shitty is NEVER unavoidable and i will NEVER give up

>>23542759
yees i think you're right
i believe in you, and that's a good sign people are asking for socials
i remember that proverb "he who asks is a fool for five minutes, but he who does not ask remains a fool forever", it's not exactly the same but kinda similar
>I guess this would apply to more than just music.
yeees

I used to have almost an indomitable spirit. I suffered from this weird sleeping disorder for years on end since I was 13 it caused me a great deal of suffering, it made it almost impossible to finish school. It was really difficult to get treatment for it, and I never actually have, because I couldn’t find a steady place to live, and last time they wanted me to see a psychiatrist first which was completely pointless, there was just no way that would end well, so I was basically blocked from proper treatment. Fucking quacks. I just bought a sleeping machine because at that point I was sure I had sleep apnea. But I wasn’t able to use the machine because I had to get a specific mask for it because I always tore it off in my sleep the one that came with it. But a bunch of stuff happened and I wasn’t able to do this either.

So anyway years later I go to America, the most unexpected thing happens, I have no sleeping disorder. Like none whatsoever. So I think there’s something wrong with the air in Canada, I’m pretty sure they do spray things in the air that I’m allergic to or something. It’s definitely not psychological.

But a bunch of other stuff happened to make that made it so I have to give up in some way.

>>23542759
>Spring is all around the best season for me.
i wonder what spring is like in other areas of the world...

>>23542768
>So anyway years later I go to America, the most unexpected thing happens, I have no sleeping disorder. Like none whatsoever. So I think there’s something wrong with the air in Canada, I’m pretty sure they do spray things in the air that I’m allergic to or something. It’s definitely not psychological.
it's impossible to know why the disorder went away, but now you know the problem is environmental, so all you have to do is go to another environment

>>23542766
Pretty much. I hate to admit it, but I'm sensitive about my music because I care a lot about it. A lot of music people are attached to their work so critique is hard to deal with, but it should be seperate. I still enjoy my older stuff that's "objectively" bad.
>>23542768
How weird. Maybe it was related to something in your room growing up or something. I'm no medical expert so I have no idea. Maybe something in your body was wrong and your body managed to fix/grow out of it. Like that weird toddler that grew a brain. The body is a mystery sometimes.
>>23542769
Here it's comfy, not too cold not too warm.

>>23542773
>I still enjoy my older stuff that's "objectively" bad.
you could possibly use it as a source of inspiration, or base new music directly off of it
dunno...
>I hate to admit it, but I'm sensitive about my music because I care a lot about it. A lot of music people are attached to their work so critique is hard to deal with, but it should be seperate.
it's probably a good sign, as long as you have ways to deal with that lol
artists don't end up with overwhelming criticism unless their work has gotten people's interest in the past, maybe that would help to remember
it's sad to see stuff like what happened with DM dokuro
>Here it's comfy, not too cold not too warm.
ah very nice
i live in the southern US, it tends to get kinda hot & humid

It just sucks that for years, I couldn’t go out on the weekend almost if I wanted to hold down a job or school because then it would fuck up my sleeping disorder. Also I wasn’t able to be as productive as I wanted to be because I would sleep for like 10-12 hours sometimes and then I would be up for less then 15 hours if I didn’t want to fuck up my sleep routine. I remember being stuck being awake all night not being able to wake up in the day time and not being able to sleep at night being like nocturnal. I used to
Hide it and be ashamed of my disorder but eventually I decided I have to be open about it because I needed friends and it seriously impacted my life, and people wouldn’t believe me, I was just met with hatred. I had to walk out of clinics because countless doctors refused to believe me.

Basically I couldn’t wake up in the morning sometimes unless I got like 10-12 hours of sleep and I absolutely couldn’t wake up I would set alarms and I would sleep through them I couldn’t control myself in the morning, I’ve lost jobs because I couldn’t wake up on time.

I also just couldn’t keep a normal schedule, my circadian clock would shift around the actual hour/clock.

I felt so much pain that I felt completely overwhelmed in so much pain just from not being able to wake up in the morning or keep a steady sleep schedule.

And then all of a sudden, it all just goes away in America? Like wtf is that. I sleep for like 5 hours in America and I wake up feeling fine. I wake up early in the morning.


And that’s another thing I often don’t feel like I’m rested enough like I never sleep well in Canada. I had a really bad nightmare as a kid. I have had dreams that have come true, premonitions. I was trapped inside a casket while still being alive, and I would toss and turn and try to move but I was just trapped there for a really long time unable to escape, the feeling was so bad. And that’s honestly how it always felt. It was so awful.

>>23542773
No, you are basically gaslighting me. I expected more from you. I don’t like repeating myself. I said it only went away in America. It would probably be the same in Europe. I have lived in different places.

You’re also saying it’s my body, I said it’s not fucking me. It’s not my body at all, it has something to do with Canada.

I have started doing composistion exercises. I was gonna make it daily, but I think I'm just going to do it semi frequently.
I have a spread sheet with counters. So it chooses Key, what instruments to use, chord progressions, if I make a new motif, reuse old motif, use other persons motif, time signature, voicing etc. So I can practice going through stuff with limitations and without a blank slate.
https://voca.ro/1dvJFU3wM0UU
Piano, Satoris theme from touhou motif
https://voca.ro/169ONsmS0uMQ
Piano + voice, Used an old motif I made in the past
https://voca.ro/1jonPgivT8eA
Piano + violin. Made new motif
>>23542783
Aha yeah the thing is I have never been criticised as much before, the better I get the more criticism I get from people I think.
>it's sad to see stuff like what happened with DM dokuro
It's sad because I love his music and it's of the main reasons I love calamity.
>>23542787
Relax I was just thinking. I'm not a doctor I'm not trying to sell you snake oil or anything

>>23542771
No it’s not impossible. It’s the most likely explanation, why do you deny plausibility so much. What’s in it for you? I’ve been all over Canada. What else would the explanation be?

>>23542790
>I’ve been all over Canada. What else would the explanation be?
i don't know
i'm just saying you should leave canada

>>23542789
I hope your “dreams” fail

What are you trying to do, become a virtuoso? It’s not that hard to learn to play basic guitar, thus you have failed. And playing scales really fast is lame.

>>23542789
>the better I get the more criticism I get from people I think.
probably yeh

the antichrist hates your threads, ritsu
they get fucked with every time by one person or another

>>23542791
Well yes…that’s the plan

>>23542789
You don’t have to be so robotic with songwriting geesh

>>23542793
I don't understand why you are suddenly aggro towards me. Maybe you have schizophrenia
>>23542794
Yeah! I don't get the pat on my shoulders anymore like beginners do. In the past people would be like "aw thats sweet you make music". Now it's either "You have socials?" or
them asking me for my music. Them taking 40 mins to reply. Then saying critical stuff
>>23542796
Of course the anti christ hates me I'm the beacon of willpower

>>23542799
It's just exercises and I choose the notes based off what I hear in my head. Especially the voicing of the chords and how the motifs pan out. 50-70 % of the time I hear the 3-4 next notes in my head and follow the red thread

>>23542759
source?

>>23542805
Me.

>>23542808
you have not been peer reviewed so i will ignore everything you say sorry

>>23542811
He lets a PEAR review for him on whether to believe in something. Imagine letting a pear decide life for you hahaha

>>23542815
i haven't eated a pear in such a long time
i wanna make that dessert thing where you poach it in wine

>>23542831
What's it called? it sounds interesting. I have heard about those jar things with fruit inside that apperently make a frizzy drink and it sounds delicious, so I kinda wanted to make some, but also they are kind of a pain in the ass to set up since they need special jars or they apperently explode

>>23542831
tasty...

>>23542837
uhhh it's just called a poached pear i think
you just boil a pear in wine with sugar and spices and stuff
>things with fruit inside that apperently [sic] make a frizzy drink and it sounds delicious
>they need special jars or they apperently [sic] explode
i have no idea what you're talking about sorry

>>23542854
Nevermind I wasn't even close. It's like fermented fruit juice it's apperently an east european thing.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kombucha
There is also stuff like this. Ah. but people putting rotting fruit in a jar is a real thing

>>23542863
>Kombucha
oh yeah i've had that before it's tasty
just a store bought thing idk how authentic it was

>>23542869
Prob close enough. I might wander out of my neet cave and try some out. Oh and if you ever find an asian food store. You should try out some aloe vera drinks. Those with bits of aloe vera in them. They are so tasty I used to drink so much of it that when I farted one time it smelled like aloe vera lmao. Just don't get the "no sugar ones" since they taste VILE imo.

had poached pears only once

>>23542879
Yummers

>>23542887
hehe

>>23542874
but sugar is le bad 4u or something

>>23542899
Too much sugar is bad, but also the fake sugar they use is bad too apperently. I think I would prefer normal sugar to fake sugar they don't have that weird bitter aftertaste and sketchiness to them

>>23542904
stevia ain't too bad, i think?
there's like 16 common artificial sweeteners at this point, and yeah, alot seem sketchy
better off just eating rice & beans & water lole

>>23542922
>better off just eating rice & beans & water lole
Yuck. I would rather let my body rot. It's the bitter aftertaste that I hate the most

Woke up to a ritsu thread
Gm

>>23542963
Good morning

>>23542718
Why does the left faggot look like the Swissy?

>>23542933
rice and beans yummy however

>>23543083
Related question. Do you brap a lot?

>>23543098
His bussy is always half open, he just farts constantly

>>23543098
no ?? that is a weird question to ask

>>23542874
this too
that was a strange thing to say

>>23543111
Stop
>>23543112
Oh okay
I was just asking because beans

>>23542874
Kek lmao

>>23542663
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>>23542769
Remilia my beloved

>>23542712
thanks, anon

>>23544623
hehe <3