I was happy, athletic and content with life until I decided to crash out over things that were relatively insignificant looking back on it.

I was greedy and impatient. Autistically hyper-fixated on "making it" psyops, not seeing the bigger picture out of short sightedness.

It's been 4 years since then. My life hasn't improved. I feel stuck in a loop of trying to gambling, pornography addiction, exhaustion, and existential anxiety of seeing my 20s slowly go by.