I'm simply not happy and I haven't been for the last 6 years despite trying to repair everything. Am I really supposed to just keep going with this bullshit until I die?

yes

There is no happy for people like us.

Went to a friend's baby shower the other day. We used to hang out every weekend. Dude looked so fucking happy that day out of the decade I've known him. Was practically glowing.

It was then that I realized I could never be happy like that. Even if ICP went to $1,000 and I had tens of millions of dollars. There is just something fundamentally wrong with me from being denied adolescent sex and growing up on 4chan. We had the same life from 24 till now the only difference was he had a gf in HS.

Whatever you do, do NOT reproduce. Reproduction is a psyop to perpetually farm humans needed for harvesting on the suffering plantation.
Break the cycle of suffering and rebirth.
DO IT FOR HIM