>>149066782 (OP)Well, like a ton of cartoons about "never losing your child at heart" I somehow managed to mature with this still a part of me, a lot different but Im always ready to have fun with anything in any kind of way and most of the time only the right people can appreciate those gifts and also be a part of it. So Im not as big a fool I once was, Im just not gonna sacrifice myself to make friends who dont understand me anyway.
Though I have been like knuckles for alot of the years I've struggled being alone and homeless for a while, you have to do anything to survive when you are so low, and imagining shit all the time that has to be about you being better than everyone or trying to seem like you have a much larger influence on situations, is survival in those instances, but now I can thrive in different ways instead of being sullen and resistant toward goodness.