My gf rewired my brain when we were both 18 and 19 for several years because she would do whatever I want it but here's the catch:it was long distance and I only smashed her once irl. Every night she we would Skype and she would do anything you can imagine. From then on she became a famous reddit whore, onlyfans model and pornstar. For 9 years or so now I have been gooning to her every night. I had to block her back then because she was getting too much and had BPD, she stalked me for years, I took her virginity so go get back at me she became a pornstar I guess and now she has herpes.

If I do not goon to her one night, I can't go to sleep. It fucks up my gains, my lifts and I can't talk to other women because none of them stalk me like she did or are as intense. I guess she ruined my life and rewired my brain, she was a literal 10. She is a fat whale now but the videos of her in her prime are all out there and it's fucking me up. I do 1/2/3/4 every day but this is the hurdle I just can't get past. I can't do this shit. The closest to her is someone like Skin Diamond but that girl you need to pay to see and my ex fucked me because she genuinely loved me and I made her wet, like I would take off her panties and they'd be soaking wet and I'd make fun of her for it.

>>76285675 (OP)
You've gotta get over this shit, man. You can't let one literal whore ruin your romantic life for the rest of your brief existence. You've gotta try with other women. It'll be different, but it'll still be something. I've been down BPD Alley. I know where it leads.

>>76285675 (OP)
yeah 90% of this applies to my BPD ex. still fap to her photos regularly when I'm single and still think of her when I'm with somebody else.

still, just find somebody else man, somebody to take your mind off her

>>76285675 (OP)
You were 18 and 19 for several years?

>>76285675 (OP)
>Tattoo
Into the thrash it goes.

>>76285775
>>76285776
But what if I'm 30 now and the interest is lacking and I feel like women get in the way of my life? Just can't see myself putting the same effort and simping like crazy like when I was 18 and 19

>>76285870
your options are:
(1) be lonely, think about her every day and incessantly brood on 4channel.org/r/fit until you die
(2) make an effort and not be lonely

>>76285675 (OP)
>18-19
>bpd
>I took her virginity
lol you really believe that?

>>76285675 (OP)
Well, give up the goods anon

>>76285889
That would make me as degenerate as she is, also you'd easily be able to know who I am, no joke this girl became a public figure just because of her pussy

>>76285880
I'm not lonely. I have the metal and the plates on each side. The only thing bothering me is the sexuality but without libido I'm fine without a woman stressing me out.

Maybe I will just avoid thinking about it, bite the bullet and sleep less but be less ashamed of myself, give up the gooning forever and maybe sacrifice my sleep and some gains short term.

>>76285675 (OP)
thats really hot. shes practically teasing you forever while denying herself. the ultimate femdom

>>76285675 (OP)
pipe down incel. YWNBAW.

>>76285675 (OP)
Go monk mode for a week. Delete all your social media apps and stay away from your computer. Go outside. Read. Leave your electronics out of the bedroom. It’ll be hard to fall asleep for a few nights but go to bed at the same time. Maybe exercise like a madman to make yourself tired. Your body will adjust over a week or two. Just try it.

congrats you were a simp

>>76285675 (OP)
Nah u just schizo

Cmon OP, anons in this thread have to eat too give up her name

>>76285785
Indeed wat

>>76286710
We were together for 3 years but the first time I took her virginity, the only time we met and fucked,I throatfucked her, regular fucking, stuck my fingers down her throat, pissed in her throat, basically lived all my fetishes in the span of one night

I will never be able to find another modest girl who is a virgin like that. It's over. Most girls have lost their virginity by 18 now, they were just different times and she was a shy nerd who was scared of men and spent her time at home gooning herself

you gotta lift weights to forget the pain weird chick fuck strange china dick now go and move on with your life and get more muscles

Another of OP's threads can be found here btw:
https://desuarchive.org/fit/thread/76277524

>>76285675 (OP)
>I took her virginity
I'm sure you did

>>76286924
Is this just a larp? what the FUCK is wrong with people

>>76287085
Shitposting is a valid creative outlet

>>76285675 (OP)
>it was long distance and I only smashed her once irl.
She wasn't your girlfriend. You were just a simp that gave her attention.

>>76285675 (OP)
Most young attractive girls make internet content. This chick is nothing special. Close her out from your memories and move on. Have better standards because these types of women will never be a good wife or mother.

>>76285675 (OP)
Niggas will literally grasp any straw instead of taking responsibility for their actions and their lives.

>>76285675 (OP)
meet some new bitches my nigga

>>76287143
Then why did she spend the next 6 years posting "My first bf is such an asshole, he abused me, gaslit me and he was so controlling etc., he doesn't know how to treat a lady" etc.?

>>76285675 (OP)
You need to level up so you can get more hot bitches

>>76287168
But she had those experiences right? Sometimes I imagine what she must have felt like when I blocked her, I put myself in her position and feel the bodily sensations. I messaged her from an anonymous account once and she told me she got gonorrhea and vomited on a guys cock once, she also said "the first guy I was with ruined me in a hotel room, took my virginity and blocked me forever"

I do the same thing with pornstars when I think about what goosebumps they must be getting moments before getting railed, I believe these are Goddesses and if you can manage to fuck one of these you're actually absorbing all the energy from the millions of men who have given their life-force to them watching them on Pornhub or Xvideos, if I can manage to do that with these girls who are historical figures, without getting herpes or an std, I am convinced you can become a God in some type of way, and there are many ways to do this safely with a high class girl like Skin for example, I don't think she has herpes, that would be a no go for me since herpes is for life and can still be transmitted 50% chance even with a condom on

>>76287212
Don't refer to women that way it's disrespectful and it hurts me to read, women aren't animals they're just hurting inside because femininity is what inherently absorbs trauma in this world

>>76287395
my nigga you have reached the status of Top-Simp. Congrats

>>76287400
Women have inherent trauma from birth
It makes me sad when they glare at my muscles and my masculine form
Why are they so attracted to being controlled, dominated and degraded?
Even the act of birth ruins their bodies
Once a woman has even spoken to a man, she is ruined, tainted, I don't want her anymore
I do not want a woman if she has ever held hands with a guy or had a crush

I am not simping. Being a woman is extremely painful. It literally hurts me chest and my groin area when I think about it. It's like seeing a cute animal getting slaughtered except in the case of women the feeling is sexual for me too

Once my gf said she wanted to get gangland raped and then the assaulters would send me the footage, I kept being with her for 3 years after she said that

She said she wanted a threescore with me and my brother in her diary, she was only 18 when she wrote that and she only met my brother once, they barely said hi to each other

>>76287434
Zoomers are so fucked up it’s not even funny. What the fuck happened to you kids?

>>76287445
I am 27

>>76285675 (OP)
Pics or gtfo